freaking over doing this again

[bettysmom]

Hello ... So I peed on the stick last night, mainly to tell myself that no, I really wasn't pg just because I was a couple of days late. And of course, I got the two lines! So now, I feel as if my bluff has been called. DH and I were trying, but only since September, and I thought I'd have more time to mentally prepare!

My pregnancy with 29-month-old DD was pretty good until the last month, when I became very anxious about everything, which led to high blood pressure readings, which I think were because I was really, really scared and stressed, which led to some interventions I didn't want, and a pain med-free but very painful (had to have pitocin) labor. So I'm thinking, what???? Did I really just sign myself up to do this again? My main feeling is that I really hope the little gleebus (that's what I call them at this stage) sticks around and that I'm really fortunate that it happened so soon and that (fingers crossed) I get to do this again. But I'm also freaking out!!! If anyone else had a somewhat rough time last time, how are you forging ahead with this one?

Thanks!

Marilyn

[quarteralien]

I forged ahead with lots of deep breathing ;) I had a wretched pitocin-augmented birht with DS and was absolutely determined things would be different with DD. And they were. I got to the hospital half an hour before she was born, and they really can't do much to you in that amount of time. This time, things are going to be even more different, because this baby will be born at home. The main difference between each of my pregnancies has been the amount of self-educating I have done. I did almost none with DS, a little more with DD, and now a whole lot more, so I feel more confident. Get some good books, like Henci Goer's "The Thinking Woman's Guide to Better Birth" and the like, and get reading! If you're anything like me, you'll feel much more confident in yourself having read lots more on the subject. Good luck :)

[ekblad9]

Well - you've got a long time to prepare ;) Seriously, I've had horrible labors and usually have pretty bad pregnancies too. Still - some are better than others and it's always worth it in the end (as you know I'm sure). You can't be sure that just b/c you had a rough time last time that you will have a rough time again. You might, but even if you do you'll be better prepared for it. Good luck to you!!