ananas
11-19-2007, 10:20 AM
My story is a long one. :lol
It starts back in February of this year. I was single, but I was in the beginning of a "friends with benefits" relationship.
I am a firm believer in intuition and in spirit babies. At the time, I had my first spirit baby, a boy, visit me. He started giving me signs that he would be conceived in November, born in August. I saw his birth, and have seen it a few times- I'm in a dark room, but rays of sun are filtering in. It's very peaceful and serene.
At the time, many weird things kept happening. I woke up one morning calculating the cost of diapers in my head. I felt my baby beside me in bed a few times, but of course when I rolled over, there was nothing there. I had a sudden image of the aforementioned friend (we'll call him FWB for simplicity's sake) rubbing my very large pregnant belly.
At the time, I laughed this all off. I had, however, for years been seeing myself getting pregnant young, very young. I had seen the circumstances not being the best and would wake up years ago (I'm talking when I was 12 and 13) worrying about how I was going to tell people, what was going to happen.
I told myself, and this baby, that there was no way November would work, I wasn't even in a relationship! (Ah, how we fool ourselves).
He persisted though. He stayed around me, and kept telling me he'd be conceived in November. More and more, it began to look like there was no way- I was leaving for Mexico on the 10th, and didn't even think there'd be an opportunity to conceive before then. But, alas, Baby knew better than I, and on the 7th, FWB and I had a special goodbye.
I realized about two days later that with the timing, and the abundance of fertile CM, the Baby may have just gotten his wish, but I didn't think too much of it.
Fast forward to CD 22. I suddenly realized that I was eating all.the.time. I could eat a huge meal, be stuffed, and an hour later be searching the kitchen, starved. I was also exhausted. I laid down to read that day, ended up falling asleep, and woke up 3 hours later more tired than when I began.
CD 23 came. I should have got my period that day, if my body was following it's normal pattern and process. That's the day I started "freaking out". I realized when I laid on my stomach, I could very clearly feel a golf ball sized object in my lower stomach. Now, I know, everybody says it's not possible to feel your uterus that early, but, sorry, I felt it. :duck::lol
I was also experiencing round ligament pain, though I didn't have a name to put with it yet. I was bloated, gassy, constipated, crampy. But they weren't PMS or period cramps- they didn't hurt, I was just aware of them.
CD 24. By now, I'd told FWB, and he after crying and panicking, started to accept it and make a plan. He has been amazing ever since. :loveeyes: I kept anticipating my period that day. I had so much runny discharge that I kept running to the bathroom, sure AF had started. I even finally put a pad on so I could stop worrying. I found out later from a friend that the beginning of her pregnancy was the same way- she was certain she'd started her period 50,000 times that day. The cramps got worse on this day; I had a few weird cravings (Taco bell and french fries anyone?). I felt very nauseous that night.
Which brings us to today. CD 25. At the latest, my period will come today, but I really don't expect it to. For one, I would be late- I'm NEVER late. AF never gives me an extra few days, she's more likely to randomly turn my 23 day cycle into a 19 day one. :wink
It's early still, so I don't know what today will bring. My cervix is low, very low, soft, and closed tightly. Still having very runny discharge, and starting to get a bit crampy for the day. Oh, and some nausea just hit, too. Fun. :lol
Because my cycles vary, and I'm not sure of the exact date of conception (my heart tells me the 8th or 9th), I'm getting different due dates, but I've decided to stick with August 1st. I have a feeling he'll be born on the fifth.
I'm in Mexico until January. It would be very hard for me to pick up a test. For one thing, because I never venture into town alone, and for now, I'd prefer no one know. I will try to pick one up at some point, but for now, it's interesting just to see how things are progressing.
I'm not sure yet if I'll be having a midwife attended birth or a UC. I plan to call around to some midwives when I get back, but for now, I'm not too worried about it. I'm eating insanely healthy- it's odd how that instinct kicked in right away. The second I suspected something, I began watching every little thing I put in my mouth.
So, it looks as if I may be joining you ladies. The next 9 months should be veeerrry interesting. Anyway, though, stomach is rumbling. Time to get my first meal of 20 for the day. :dizzy:
It starts back in February of this year. I was single, but I was in the beginning of a "friends with benefits" relationship.
I am a firm believer in intuition and in spirit babies. At the time, I had my first spirit baby, a boy, visit me. He started giving me signs that he would be conceived in November, born in August. I saw his birth, and have seen it a few times- I'm in a dark room, but rays of sun are filtering in. It's very peaceful and serene.
At the time, many weird things kept happening. I woke up one morning calculating the cost of diapers in my head. I felt my baby beside me in bed a few times, but of course when I rolled over, there was nothing there. I had a sudden image of the aforementioned friend (we'll call him FWB for simplicity's sake) rubbing my very large pregnant belly.
At the time, I laughed this all off. I had, however, for years been seeing myself getting pregnant young, very young. I had seen the circumstances not being the best and would wake up years ago (I'm talking when I was 12 and 13) worrying about how I was going to tell people, what was going to happen.
I told myself, and this baby, that there was no way November would work, I wasn't even in a relationship! (Ah, how we fool ourselves).
He persisted though. He stayed around me, and kept telling me he'd be conceived in November. More and more, it began to look like there was no way- I was leaving for Mexico on the 10th, and didn't even think there'd be an opportunity to conceive before then. But, alas, Baby knew better than I, and on the 7th, FWB and I had a special goodbye.
I realized about two days later that with the timing, and the abundance of fertile CM, the Baby may have just gotten his wish, but I didn't think too much of it.
Fast forward to CD 22. I suddenly realized that I was eating all.the.time. I could eat a huge meal, be stuffed, and an hour later be searching the kitchen, starved. I was also exhausted. I laid down to read that day, ended up falling asleep, and woke up 3 hours later more tired than when I began.
CD 23 came. I should have got my period that day, if my body was following it's normal pattern and process. That's the day I started "freaking out". I realized when I laid on my stomach, I could very clearly feel a golf ball sized object in my lower stomach. Now, I know, everybody says it's not possible to feel your uterus that early, but, sorry, I felt it. :duck::lol
I was also experiencing round ligament pain, though I didn't have a name to put with it yet. I was bloated, gassy, constipated, crampy. But they weren't PMS or period cramps- they didn't hurt, I was just aware of them.
CD 24. By now, I'd told FWB, and he after crying and panicking, started to accept it and make a plan. He has been amazing ever since. :loveeyes: I kept anticipating my period that day. I had so much runny discharge that I kept running to the bathroom, sure AF had started. I even finally put a pad on so I could stop worrying. I found out later from a friend that the beginning of her pregnancy was the same way- she was certain she'd started her period 50,000 times that day. The cramps got worse on this day; I had a few weird cravings (Taco bell and french fries anyone?). I felt very nauseous that night.
Which brings us to today. CD 25. At the latest, my period will come today, but I really don't expect it to. For one, I would be late- I'm NEVER late. AF never gives me an extra few days, she's more likely to randomly turn my 23 day cycle into a 19 day one. :wink
It's early still, so I don't know what today will bring. My cervix is low, very low, soft, and closed tightly. Still having very runny discharge, and starting to get a bit crampy for the day. Oh, and some nausea just hit, too. Fun. :lol
Because my cycles vary, and I'm not sure of the exact date of conception (my heart tells me the 8th or 9th), I'm getting different due dates, but I've decided to stick with August 1st. I have a feeling he'll be born on the fifth.
I'm in Mexico until January. It would be very hard for me to pick up a test. For one thing, because I never venture into town alone, and for now, I'd prefer no one know. I will try to pick one up at some point, but for now, it's interesting just to see how things are progressing.
I'm not sure yet if I'll be having a midwife attended birth or a UC. I plan to call around to some midwives when I get back, but for now, I'm not too worried about it. I'm eating insanely healthy- it's odd how that instinct kicked in right away. The second I suspected something, I began watching every little thing I put in my mouth.
So, it looks as if I may be joining you ladies. The next 9 months should be veeerrry interesting. Anyway, though, stomach is rumbling. Time to get my first meal of 20 for the day. :dizzy: