Oh man I'm in huge trouble

[Brenda2005]

http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y25/Brenda2006/IMG_2462.jpg

I just took this Dollar Tree test and it was a BFP. I would be happy if I had a job, the bank wasn't taking possession of our house at the end of the month and we weren't going through a divorce. I don't know what to do. I had an appt to get my tubes tied in 2 wks and I got a shot of Depo last month. I guess it didn't take. I'm so scared. I don't even know where we're going to go. My mom lives in NY but I don't want to live with her..she'll make me have a miscarriage I know that, she's impossible, plus there is no room for my kids and I hate to uproot them. Sorry if I'm such a downer but this wasn't in the cards.

According to the calculations I'm due on 9/10/08. I'm still nursing Elias (26 mos) and no wonder he's been such a pill lately.

No need to respond, I just needed to vent :(

[SMR]

:Hug momma! I hope things get better!

[~Megan~]

I invite you to join this thread (http://www.mothering.com/discussions/showthread.php?p=10222276#post10222276)

[MissWorld]

Oh mama, I'm sorry :(

We all know there are other options to pregnancy, i.e., abortion or adoption. I don't want to open a can of worms here but sometimes bringing another child into the world just isn't in the cards for a good reason. Ultimately though, this is all your decision, and I hope you make the choice that suits you the best, not what other people want.

:hug hang in there

[happyhippiemama]

Not in this DDC but welcome to the land of "this is NOT a good time!!" Megan's thread is a godsend, I'm a lurker there.

Sending you good thoughts.

[2crazykids]

You have options Mama. Do what is best for you and your children...:Hug but you first.

[GentleBirth]

I don't have any wise words. Just :hug

[Quaniliaz]

Ugh - sorry you are having a hard time mama. Take care of yourself.

[skybluepink02]

I'm so sorry mama. I hope you make the best decision for you and your family. I'll be thinking of you.

[Alcyone]

Good luck in your decision, whatever you do.

[Brenda2005]

Thank you everyone. I went to my first ob appt and it all hit me. This is so not right. I can't do it. I can barely make it with the 4 I have. Stupid Depo doesn't work.

And because of all the worry, I had a m/c yesterday. I guess it's all for the best

[Alcyone]

:hug I know even when the "best" thing happens, it's not necessarily easy to take. Good luck and take care of yourself. :hug

[stephck]

What a roller coaster. Take care of yourself!! And find a moment for yourself if you can! It sounds like there's a lot of chaos around you:grouphug

[skybluepink02]

:hugs for you mama. I'm sorry for your loss. Even if it's for the best, it's still hard emotionally, isn't it?