Hoping Healing and Conceiving Again ***May***

[skybluepink02]

This thread is for women who wish to conceive after a loss, are trying to figure out what is going on with their cycle after a loss, or just need some support, hope and healing.

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In Our Thoughts
Baby Makes 4 :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/17d5a7)
birthangeldoula :angel :angel
Boobs4Milk :*pangel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/18d170)
Carley :angel
catballou24 :angel
Countrybound :angel :angel
HeatherH :~bangel :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/171f90)
jaclyn7 :angel
JMO :angel :angel
labortrials :angel :angel :angel
League_mama :angel
Lizzylou :angel
mamaterra :angel
Mamato2 :angel
mamatowill :angel
Megan_in_Holland :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/18f781)
mel_rak :angel :angel
Meshell :angel
Momof2monkeys :angel
momoftworedheads :*pangel :angel :angel :angel
mountainmummy :angel
muffie :*pangel
normajean :angel
plaidpineapple :angel
Parker'sMommy :angel :angel
PrayinFor12 :angel :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1d3b53)
Rosie_Kate :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1b82cd)
Sara_Jane :angel

Waiting to O
Amydoula :angel :angel CD15
apmama2myboo :angel :angel CD8
barose :~bangel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1737b0)
Bennie45 :angel :angel CD18
BlissfullyLoving :angel CD21
Chel :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1d9e92)
Chic_Mama :angel CD6
famille_huggins :angel
Kayda's Mom :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/20124b) CD29
kellihope :angel :chart: (http://forums.ovusoft.com/chart.asp?id=kellihope)
Matilda_z :~bangel
mumster :angel
Olerica :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1e0ec0) CD10
politys :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1e2ccd)
so confused! :angel
skybluepink02 :angel CD23
veganmama719 :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1bc515) CD13

Waiting to Know
cagnew :~bangel :*pangel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1d0de0) BFP!!!!
dani76 :angel :angel :angel 6DPO
DreamWeaver :~bangel BFP!!!!
DreamsInDigital :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1b2c81
) 10DPO BFP!!!
Eliseatthebeach :*pangel BFP!!!!!
JenMidwife :angel
OwensMa :angel BFP!!
ScootchsMom :~bangel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6a7b6) 15DPO
TayTaysMama :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/sas) 10DPO

:jumpers: :jumpers: BFPS!!! :jumpers: :jumpers:
May 2008
Alegna :angel
Faithsmommy :angel
Nimbus :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/19aa9e) (@18DPO)
12 - Alycia04 :angel
18 - Happyfrog :angel

June 2008
Starlightsound :angel
Odilemarie :angel
2 - ChristyM26 :angel
29 - christinespurlock :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1b98e6) (@9DPO)

July 2008
AnnieMarie :angel (@11DPO)
Mysticlotus :angel
8 - MollyKenzie :angel
15 - Sunshine4004 :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/176223) (@11DPO)
18 - Apecaut :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/f979c) (@15DPO)
20 - Whittliz :angel (@10DPO)
31 - BakerALM :angel

August 2008
JulieK :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/JulieK) (@9DPO)
Mamatotwo :angel
mysunflowerboys :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/17f058) (@10DPO)
naturegirl :angel
zoie2013 :angel
8 - Forsythia :angel
11 - Zonapellucida :angel
11 - Megan73 :angel
23 - Rach03 :angel :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/19db45) (@9DPO)
25 - meredyth0315 :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1caccd) (@15DPO)

September 2008
alyssatuininga :angel
Chels_C2000 :angel
21 - joshs_girl :~bangel :~bangel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/katherinerlh) (@13DPO)

October 2008
Sam05 :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1c7a37) (@15DPO)
Illaria :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1c2237)

November 2008
Kgrands :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/196f1d) (@16DPO)
punkrawkmama27 :angel
Sioko :angel :angel :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1e182b)
3 - hannybanany :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/13bed5) (@10DPO)
4 - Bella Catalina :angel :chart: (http://forums.ovusoft.com/chart.asp?id=bella%20catalina) (@9DPO)
11 - fallriverfox :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1f86ef) (@15DPO)

December 2008
hazeleyes :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/b40af) (@11DPO)
youthpastormama :angel
8 - moodyred01 :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/177186) (@10DPO)
11 - namaste_mom :angel :*pangel BFP at 10DPO!!!
16 - i0lanthe :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/4aeb3) BFP at 15DPO!!!
24 - Curlyfry7 :angel BFP!!!
26 - A Mother's Love :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1e1a21) BFP!!!
28 - ChesapeakeBorn :angel :angel :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1be3d6) (@10DPO)
28 - Lindsey608 :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1bb311) BFP at 12DPO!!!
31 - sarah2881 :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/e8dec) BFP!!!


January 2009
3 - 2happymammas :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/17bbb9) BFP at 9DPO!!!
3 - xakana :angel :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/19a6ec) BFP at 12DPO!!!




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Thanks to heatherh for being such a wonderful host and putting so much work into the first post. I hope I can be as wonderful a host as she has been.

[veganmama719]

Thanks skybluepink for the new thread and thanks very much to heatherh!

I am also worried about labortrails so check in when you can Kimberly!

AFM, do you think one can WILL herself to O????????????????

[Amydoula]

Thanks for the new thread! Thanks to Heather for being threadkeeper last month! Thanks also for all the encouragement. We have been pregnant 3 times, all 3 of those times have taken marathon BDing sessions the whole week of O. We have unfortunately never gotten pregnant with one time, yet anyway. He was feeling better this morning though so we did get a quickie in before work but it might be too late by now.
:Hug to Vegan it is hard to have our DH's down and out....
I guess I can wander on over to waiting to know

[dani76]

So I have an ovulation question. I get the darkest OPK line when I am having my super O pains. The OPK line being so positive is supposed to mean ovulation will occur in 12-36 hours. But doesn't the crazy pain mean that ovulation is occurring at that time? I always thought the pain was the follicle popping. Advice?

[chel]

So I have an ovulation question. I get the darkest OPK line when I am having my super O pains. The OPK line being so positive is supposed to mean ovulation will occur in 12-36 hours. But doesn't the crazy pain mean that ovulation is occurring at that time? I always thought the pain was the follicle popping. Advice?

this is what FF had to say, basically, it can happen before, during, or after O.

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/Faqs/Ovulation-Pain.html

[heatherh]

AFM, do you think one can WILL herself to O????????????????Nope! I've tried it. Doesn't work. :lol

dani76 - I don't always get O pains, but when I do they're all over - usually before I O (by a couple of days or more). One of those things that varies a LOT.

[Eliseatthebeach]

Thank you skybluepink02 for the May thread and of course a thanks to Heather for April!

I'm in such a bad mood over af this month. I think maybe I never O'd at all, or my body just isn't ready yet. Now I have one more month to get myself in better shape, maybe loose some more weight. I gained more after my pg than the whole time I was pg....darn emotional eating! It's fine, I needed to do it and now the scale is going in the right direction.

CD2 for me.....this is going to be a looooong month, lol!

[xakana]

xakana,

I was telling DH today that if I get pregnant I want to go into a "twilight sleep' (like they used in the old days when women birthed babies) for 9 months..

*shudder* the problem with that is that twilight sleep didn't make you unconscious--it's an amnesiac, so you still suffered--psychotic on top of everything else, which is why they strapped you down to a bed while you screamed and had violent outbursts, clawed at yourself and others and tried to attack the staff until the baby came. The reason they stopped doing it was #2, the extensive trauma to mom's arms and legs from fighting the restraints and #1--a bunch of moms weren't forgetting. It sounds pretty--go to sleep, wake up with a baby, but it wasn't.

my update: Tornados hit my city for the first time in recorded history last night. An Arby's was demolished and several trees uprooted and flung around. In a neighboring town, one fatality when a tree was thrown into a teen girl's bedroom--her brother in the same room survived. We lost the turn marker on our van and some roof shingles, Lilly's slide was thrown across the yard, but no big deal other than that.

m/s still hasn't made me puke, just nauseas. I'm so exhausted, though, that the room is spinning. I tried taking a nap yesterday and Lilly started throwing DVDs at me. I was getting out of bed last night and pulled my left side round ligament and was in agony, unable to speak or do anything but breathe for about five minutes and I had pelvic pains afterwards all night and this morning so that I'm terrified again. *sigh* Remember once you ladies get pregnant to roll slowly into a sitting position so as not to tax those round ligaments--they HURT.

[BlissfullyLoving]

me: 16 DPO and no AF. If I used CD21 for my O day instead of CD15 then my 11 day normal luteal phase is over and AF should be showing up today. I refuse to take a test since I don't want my day ruined again. Just going to wait and wait and wait............. :Hug I know how hard it is to not know what is going on. I like the wait and see plan, you will either get AF or feel kicking. :lol In the meantime you will save money on tests.


AmyDoula, my DH is having trouble BDing too, he had hernia surgery 3 weeks ago. Usually I have O'd be now so it isn't a problem but this is my 3rd O since the m/c and it's late AGAIN, grrrr! So hopefully I will O today (he reluctantly DTD last night) because I don't know if I can get another "shot" out of him, poor man!
Hugs to you.

I'm frustrated with all this. 8 months to get a +HPT, 3 months from that date until we could start TTC again and now my cycle is all messed up and DH is injured! :Hug I hope your dh recovers quickly.


not much new here for me. rainy and gloomy, my legs still hurt from a killer bellydancing dvd i did (calf work where you're on just the balls of your feet and then hopping, for several minutes...ouch lol). going to have a typical friday here. finally the tub will be ready to use tonight after two months of bathroom remodeling hell! still no mirrors in there, have to find and buy those this weekend...bad storms last night so didn't make it down to my studio but maybe this weekend after dd is in bed....hope you all have a great weekend. happy May everyone! this month HAS to be better! HAS TO! Enjoy the tub...I hope you can get a nice bath in.

He was feeling better this morning though so we did get a quickie in before work but it might be too late by now. Good luck! I hope you caught that egg.


I'm in such a bad mood over af this month. I think maybe I never O'd at all, or my body just isn't ready yet. Now I have one more month to get myself in better shape, maybe loose some more weight. I gained more after my pg than the whole time I was pg....darn emotional eating! It's fine, I needed to do it and now the scale is going in the right direction.

CD2 for me.....this is going to be a looooong month, lol! :Hug

me: It was a busy day. I woke up so early, and now I am exhausted. I took ds to story hour, and I saw a friend of the family. Her daughter is pregnant (thought 8 weeks), and started bleeding. She went for an ultrasound on Tuesday, and they could not find the baby. The bleeding stopped and then started up again, so she went back in today for an ultrasound. They saw the baby and heartbeat. She is only about six weeks pregnant, and not 8 weeks as she had originally thought. She showed up at the story hour at the end to tell everyone the good news. When I first heard that she might be having a miscarriage I started to cry, and I felt so much compassion for her. I do not want anyone to go through that pain. Then when she came in to say everything was fine I had just as intense of pain. How come she gets to have a baby and I did not? She smokes (even while pregnant) and just not the kind of parent that I think is essential in the early years of a child's life, and I know these are unfair judgments that are meaningless. I do not believe I can judge anyone for anything. Still, I was passing judgment. I hate how unfair all of this is. It is not fair we all are not holding or gestating our babies. I had to leave because I was starting to cry and getting very emotional...I told her that I was happy for her, but it was really hard for me.

I bought some tests while I was out. I am feeling really optimistic. my temp was still up this morning, and I just really have a pregnant feeling. AF is due tomorrow, so I probably will not test again until Sunday. No need to waist a test if af arrives later in the morning.

Thanks for starting the thread skybluepink!

I hope we hear from labor soon. Sending :hugs to you!

[skybluepink02]

Hi everybody. Look at all the December babes we have up! It's so heartening to see all the BFPs. We've even got a January babe up there.

I'm hoping I'm a January BFP. I'm going to test on my birthday, on the 11th, and if we caught the egg, the due date would be on DH's birthday, the 16th. :fingersx I'm hoping that's enough good vibes for us to get a BFP. This month will be 5 months since my miscarriage and I have to admit, I'm getting antsy.

[sarah2881]

The new thread looks great.

I hope May bring lots of good things for everyone here.

:dust:dust:dust:dust

I hope you all don't mind if I hang out a little longer. I am not ready to leave here, I feel very safe.

[skybluepink02]

I hope you all don't mind if I hang out a little longer. I am not ready to leave here, I feel very safe.

I hope you'll hang around for as long as you need. I know it gives me hope when I see the pregnant ladies around. :) It's a very safe place, isn't it?

[DreamsInDigital]

Move me to waiting to know, please.

I'm 6 DPO, had a nice little dip yesterday.

If you would add my chart to the first post, here it is http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1b2c81

We were going to wait the 3 months suggested by my midwife but my heart is telling me not to wait. I'm going to trust myself more now because I have such a good track record of being right. :)

[skybluepink02]

Ok, I've got a quick question. I'm 7 DPO, and yesterday evening and afternoon I had copious amounts of white creamy discharge. No blood spots though. I did a home yeast test, which was negative, but it didn't look like yeast anyways. Is a lot of discharge a sign of implantation?

[Amydoula]

*shudder* the problem with that is that twilight sleep didn't make you unconscious--it's an amnesiac, so you still suffered--psychotic on top of everything else, which is why they strapped you down to a bed while you screamed and had violent outbursts, clawed at yourself and others and tried to attack the staff until the baby came. The reason they stopped doing it was #2, the extensive trauma to mom's arms and legs from fighting the restraints and #1--a bunch of moms weren't forgetting. It sounds pretty--go to sleep, wake up with a baby, but it wasn't.

my update: Tornados hit my city for the first time in recorded history last night. An Arby's was demolished and several trees uprooted and flung around. In a neighboring town, one fatality when a tree was thrown into a teen girl's bedroom--her brother in the same room survived. We lost the turn marker on our van and some roof shingles, Lilly's slide was thrown across the yard, but no big deal other than that.

m/s still hasn't made me puke, just nauseas. I'm so exhausted, though, that the room is spinning. I tried taking a nap yesterday and Lilly started throwing DVDs at me. I was getting out of bed last night and pulled my left side round ligament and was in agony, unable to speak or do anything but breathe for about five minutes and I had pelvic pains afterwards all night and this morning so that I'm terrified again. *sigh* Remember once you ladies get pregnant to roll slowly into a sitting position so as not to tax those round ligaments--they HURT.
I'm glad you and your family are ok!

:Hug I know how hard it is to not know what is going on. I like the wait and see plan, you will either get AF or feel kicking. :lol In the meantime you will save money on tests.

:Hug I hope your dh recovers quickly.

Enjoy the tub...I hope you can get a nice bath in.

Good luck! I hope you caught that egg.

:Hug

me: It was a busy day. I woke up so early, and now I am exhausted. I took ds to story hour, and I saw a friend of the family. Her daughter is pregnant (thought 8 weeks), and started bleeding. She went for an ultrasound on Tuesday, and they could not find the baby. The bleeding stopped and then started up again, so she went back in today for an ultrasound. They saw the baby and heartbeat. She is only about six weeks pregnant, and not 8 weeks as she had originally thought. She showed up at the story hour at the end to tell everyone the good news. When I first heard that she might be having a miscarriage I started to cry, and I felt so much compassion for her. I do not want anyone to go through that pain. Then when she came in to say everything was fine I had just as intense of pain. How come she gets to have a baby and I did not? She smokes (even while pregnant) and just not the kind of parent that I think is essential in the early years of a child's life, and I know these are unfair judgments that are meaningless. I do not believe I can judge anyone for anything. Still, I was passing judgment. I hate how unfair all of this is. It is not fair we all are not holding or gestating our babies. I had to leave because I was starting to cry and getting very emotional...I told her that I was happy for her, but it was really hard for me.

I bought some tests while I was out. I am feeling really optimistic. my temp was still up this morning, and I just really have a pregnant feeling. AF is due tomorrow, so I probably will not test again until Sunday. No need to waist a test if af arrives later in the morning.

Thanks for starting the thread skybluepink!

I hope we hear from labor soon. Sending :hugs to you!
I do the same thing. The judgement that is. It's tough. Hoping for good news from you this weekend!

Hi everybody. Look at all the December babes we have up! It's so heartening to see all the BFPs. We've even got a January babe up there.

I'm hoping I'm a January BFP. I'm going to test on my birthday, on the 11th, and if we caught the egg, the due date would be on DH's birthday, the 16th. :fingersx I'm hoping that's enough good vibes for us to get a BFP. This month will be 5 months since my miscarriage and I have to admit, I'm getting antsy.
I'm feeling very antsy too! I had my D&C Jan. 4th, then waited for two AF's and of course they were way spread out before my cycle finally normalized so its been a long wait.

The new thread looks great.

I hope May bring lots of good things for everyone here.

:dust:dust:dust:dust

I hope you all don't mind if I hang out a little longer. I am not ready to leave here, I feel very safe.
Stay as long as you need!
Move me to waiting to know, please.

I'm 6 DPO, had a nice little dip yesterday.

If you would add my chart to the first post, here it is http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1b2c81

We were going to wait the 3 months suggested by my midwife but my heart is telling me not to wait. I'm going to trust myself more now because I have such a good track record of being right. :)
Good luck!

Ok, I've got a quick question. I'm 7 DPO, and yesterday evening and afternoon I had copious amounts of white creamy discharge. No blood spots though. I did a home yeast test, which was negative, but it didn't look like yeast anyways. Is a lot of discharge a sign of implantation?
All 3 times I've been pregnant I get lots of discharge during the tww.

[skybluepink02]

All 3 times I've been pregnant I get lots of discharge during the tww.

I had it last time I was pregnant too, but I wasn't sure if it was a fluke. Keep you fingers crossed with me. I'm really hoping to give DH a great b-day present next year.

[DreamsInDigital]

Ok, I've got a quick question. I'm 7 DPO, and yesterday evening and afternoon I had copious amounts of white creamy discharge. No blood spots though. I did a home yeast test, which was negative, but it didn't look like yeast anyways. Is a lot of discharge a sign of implantation?

I always get really...um...discharge-y when I'm pregnant. It could be a good sign! :D

[Bennie45]

Hey yall!! Haven't been on in awhile. How is everyone doing Chespeakeborn??? Xankna??? How are you gals doing???

Me: Still waiting to know, nervious though. We have decide that this is the last pregnancy, when it comes. If it works it works and if not we are still going to go though with adopting. I wondered how do I deal with jeliousy with other friends and people getting pregnant?? I maen I am haooy for them but in return I am like well why can't I have that joy??? Then I see these really bad parents and wonder why God sent children to these parents that don't even care about there children, and leave the ones begging to have children that have great loving homes out in the cold. Ok OK done I will get of my soap box now.

[Bennie45]

I hope you'll hang around for as long as you need. I know it gives me hope when I see the pregnant ladies around. :) It's a very safe place, isn't it?

Stay as long as you want, I am sure that no one would mind.

[mel_rak]

xakana : We saw your town in our news. Very sad about the death. I am glad your family is ok. Very scary. Congrats on your BFP. Our due dates are very close. I think my due date is Jan 8th or 9th.


Update from my appointment today. First they did a urine test and came back and said it was negative. I turned to my husband and said, I told them it was a faint line. Moments later, she came back and said it was positive! Then the doc did a pelvic exam.... ouch! She pushed so hard. Then the blood draw. I will return on Monday for another blood draw.

I am upset because I am cramping so much, much more than before the appointment. Does anyone think that the exam could have harmed anything?

many thanks

[Lindsey608]

I'm still hanging around here too.. though I've been super busy this week as the in-laws were visiting and staying with us.

My first appointment is on the 15th. Just to see a nurse and get the paperwork started of course. I'm going to be very much nervous until we get to see bean's heartbeat.. and well, probably until we're holding little one in our arms! :innocent
I'm a little annoyed that they won't see me earlier just to put my mind at rest after the m/c but.. well.. that's military health care for you.

I'm definitely looking forward to some more BFP's around here. They sure do seem to come in spurts!

[mel_rak]

just wanted to say thank you to all that replied to my question last night.
Heatherh and Amydoula... special thanks..

[skybluepink02]

xakana
I am upset because I am cramping so much, much more than before the appointment. Does anyone think that the exam could have harmed anything?

many thanks

I don't know, but I'm thinking of you. Put your feet up and get DH to wait on you.

[BlissfullyLoving]

I'm hoping I'm a January BFP. I'm going to test on my birthday, on the 11th, and if we caught the egg, the due date would be on DH's birthday, the 16th. :fingersx I'm hoping that's enough good vibes for us to get a BFP. This month will be 5 months since my miscarriage and I have to admit, I'm getting antsy. :fingersx:


I hope you all don't mind if I hang out a little longer. I am not ready to leave here, I feel very safe. Stay as long as you like! :love

I'm 6 DPO, had a nice little dip yesterday.

We were going to wait the 3 months suggested by my midwife but my heart is telling me not to wait. I'm going to trust myself more now because I have such a good track record of being right. :) I agree that your intuition is best. Good luck!


I'm feeling very antsy too! I had my D&C Jan. 4th, then waited for two AF's and of course they were way spread out before my cycle finally normalized so its been a long wait. I passed my baby on Jan 4th.


Me: Still waiting to know, nervious though. We have decide that this is the last pregnancy, when it comes. If it works it works and if not we are still going to go though with adopting. I wondered how do I deal with jeliousy with other friends and people getting pregnant?? I maen I am haooy for them but in return I am like well why can't I have that joy??? Then I see these really bad parents and wonder why God sent children to these parents that don't even care about there children, and leave the ones begging to have children that have great loving homes out in the cold. Ok OK done I will get of my soap box now. I really understand and can relate to what you are saying.

xak, I missed your post before. I think it came through when I was posting. Sorry to hear about the tornado. That is really scary. We had a few tornadoes pass through our area when I was a kid (fairly uncommon), and I still get nervous during intense thunderstorms. :Hug about the ligament...hope you are feeling better soon.

[ScootchsMom]

xakana
I am upset because I am cramping so much, much more than before the appointment. Does anyone think that the exam could have harmed anything?

many thanks

First off, Congratulations!

I don't think a pelvic will cause any harm, but I would probably not allow any more from now on. They aren't necessary and can introduce bacteria that isn't meant to be there, especially when pg. Take it easy, don't do anything that would stress the area like lifting or getting up too quick. :hug (And make DH wait on you ;) )

Me - all is well here still. We're almost done with the bathroom! DP is installing the drain in the sink right now, and all we have left to do is hang the cabinets and mirrors and the shower curtain rod. Thank God! I can't wait for it to be done, so we can move on to the kitchen, which is MY pet project :D

Just waiting for AF, my face is breaking out soooooo bad, but its those pimples that are painful and never come to a head. My face HURTS! Maybe its the weight watchers and eating healthier pushing all the crap out of my system?

ETA - xak - I heard about it on the news as well. I'm glad you and your family are all ok! That poor girl's parents :(

[mamatowill]

Ok ladies I need advice!

My AF was supposed to start today but it didn't- at least so far. That usually only happens when I am pregnant. I have not been able to temp because of acute insomnia brought on my DH leaving town. My breasts were not tender like they have been before AF recently and I did not break out. I feel relatively neutral. I can't go and buy a pregnancy test for a variety of reasons which include stores closed today, don't have a car and can't take public transport. Also I overspent my budget for the time that my DH is away so I have enough money to feed my self and my DS until next payday (I bought some books).

The reason I am asking is that I am supposed to take progesterone after ovulation but I have not since it throws my cycle waaaaaay out of wack. Like I get my period without ovulation the next time. I have had two m/cs so I don't want to mess with this. DH is not back until a week from Wednesday so I can't wait that long to take the progesterone.

So would you take the progesterone and risk throwing off your cycle? I have no symptoms of pregnancy and I have the heavy feeling that my AF is about to start. I also have some lower back discomfort but that could be because of sitting on a backless chair. On the other hand I don't have the early discharge warning that I normally have either. Any advice would be great. Thanks.

[BlissfullyLoving]

Me - all is well here still. We're almost done with the bathroom! DP is installing the drain in the sink right now, and all we have left to do is hang the cabinets and mirrors and the shower curtain rod. Thank God! I can't wait for it to be done, so we can move on to the kitchen, which is MY pet project :D

Just waiting for AF, my face is breaking out soooooo bad, but its those pimples that are painful and never come to a head. My face HURTS! Maybe its the weight watchers and eating healthier pushing all the crap out of my system? Congrats on finishing up the bathroom. I know it was such a relief to finish it up.

I think your pimples could be a sign of detoxing.

Ok ladies I need advice!

My AF was supposed to start today but it didn't- at least so far. That usually only happens when I am pregnant. I have not been able to temp because of acute insomnia brought on my DH leaving town. My breasts were not tender like they have been before AF recently and I did not break out. I feel relatively neutral. I can't go and buy a pregnancy test for a variety of reasons which include stores closed today, don't have a car and can't take public transport. Also I overspent my budget for the time that my DH is away so I have enough money to feed my self and my DS until next payday (I bought some books).

The reason I am asking is that I am supposed to take progesterone after ovulation but I have not since it throws my cycle waaaaaay out of wack. Like I get my period without ovulation the next time. I have had two m/cs so I don't want to mess with this. DH is not back until a week from Wednesday so I can't wait that long to take the progesterone.

So would you take the progesterone and risk throwing off your cycle? I have no symptoms of pregnancy and I have the heavy feeling that my AF is about to start. I also have some lower back discomfort but that could be because of sitting on a backless chair. On the other hand I don't have the early discharge warning that I normally have either. Any advice would be great. Thanks.
:Hug I don't know. I really feel like you have to know if you are pregnant before you decide. I hope someone comes along with better advice for you.

[BlissfullyLoving]

Anyone know what the number 5 on my chart in the stats section means? I did not write or add anything.

I took another test, if they are in the house I have such a hard time keeping my urine away from them. It was negative. :( I should have saved the test like I was planning.

[PerkyKP]

Anyone know what the number 5 on my chart in the stats section means? I did not write or add anything. I'm pretty sure it's a countdown until a suggested test day ...5, 4, 3, 2, 1, test. It's usually around 16 dpo, not sure why yours is longer. Good luck!

[Amydoula]

Anyone know what the number 5 on my chart in the stats section means? I did not write or add anything.

I took another test, if they are in the house I have such a hard time keeping my urine away from them. It was negative. :( I should have saved the test like I was planning.

It's the fertility friend countdown to when fertility friend thinks you should test, as in 54321, then test day. So sorry about the negative!

[Amydoula]

Ok ladies I need advice!

My AF was supposed to start today but it didn't- at least so far. That usually only happens when I am pregnant. I have not been able to temp because of acute insomnia brought on my DH leaving town. My breasts were not tender like they have been before AF recently and I did not break out. I feel relatively neutral. I can't go and buy a pregnancy test for a variety of reasons which include stores closed today, don't have a car and can't take public transport. Also I overspent my budget for the time that my DH is away so I have enough money to feed my self and my DS until next payday (I bought some books).

The reason I am asking is that I am supposed to take progesterone after ovulation but I have not since it throws my cycle waaaaaay out of wack. Like I get my period without ovulation the next time. I have had two m/cs so I don't want to mess with this. DH is not back until a week from Wednesday so I can't wait that long to take the progesterone.

So would you take the progesterone and risk throwing off your cycle? I have no symptoms of pregnancy and I have the heavy feeling that my AF is about to start. I also have some lower back discomfort but that could be because of sitting on a backless chair. On the other hand I don't have the early discharge warning that I normally have either. Any advice would be great. Thanks.

If it messes with your cycles that badly I don't think I'd take it unless I knew for sure I was pregnant.

[Amydoula]

I'm still hanging around here too.. though I've been super busy this week as the in-laws were visiting and staying with us.

My first appointment is on the 15th. Just to see a nurse and get the paperwork started of course. I'm going to be very much nervous until we get to see bean's heartbeat.. and well, probably until we're holding little one in our arms! :innocent
I'm a little annoyed that they won't see me earlier just to put my mind at rest after the m/c but.. well.. that's military health care for you.

I'm definitely looking forward to some more BFP's around here. They sure do seem to come in spurts!

I refuse all pelvics in pregnancy. You have every right to as well even if you are military. It just helps give me piece of mind. I don't like people messing around down there especially since I do miscarry.

[Bennie45]

Oh I hate those pimples, I agree I think it is your body detoxing. I get them on side of my nose all the time and on the same spot to the side of my chin. I whish that I could tell you a remdy to make them go away!!

[Matilda_z]

I'm still wondering what's going on with my body.

On Thursday I was very emotional, but I had forgotten to temp that morning. Then yesterday my temperature was up higher than it's been since I started temping. And (TMI) I checked my CMand it was really goppy and stretchy - I was so excited! Now this morning my temp is down again and the CM looks just a little bit stetchy and mostly creamy.

sigh. I really thought that I had ovulated on Thursday, but wouldn't my temp still be up?

[DreamsInDigital]

7 DPO and a bit of spotting this AM. Maybe implantation? :fingersx:

[skybluepink02]

7 DPO and a bit of spotting this AM. Maybe implantation? :fingersx:

I hope so! You're only one DPO behind me. I had lots of discharge on day 7 and a tiny spot of blood today. I'm really hoping it's implantation too. What day are you going to test?

[DreamsInDigital]

I hope so! You're only one DPO behind me. I had lots of discharge on day 7 and a tiny spot of blood today. I'm really hoping it's implantation too. What day are you going to test?

I'm holding out until the 6th. But I have 25 tests. I might be able to sacrifice a couple in the name of impatience :lol

[BlissfullyLoving]

It's the fertility friend countdown to when fertility friend thinks you should test, as in 54321, then test day. So sorry about the negative! Oh, thanks. I had no idea what it was. It said I should test on 18dpo.

I refuse all pelvics in pregnancy. You have every right to as well even if you are military. It just helps give me piece of mind. I don't like people messing around down there especially since I do miscarry. I do too.

I'm still wondering what's going on with my body.

On Thursday I was very emotional, but I had forgotten to temp that morning. Then yesterday my temperature was up higher than it's been since I started temping. And (TMI) I checked my CMand it was really goppy and stretchy - I was so excited! Now this morning my temp is down again and the CM looks just a little bit stetchy and mostly creamy.

sigh. I really thought that I had ovulated on Thursday, but wouldn't my temp still be up? :Hug The last two cycles have been just like that. It is all over the place.

7 DPO and a bit of spotting this AM. Maybe implantation? :fingersx: I hope so! :fingersx:

me: I am so sad. I guess I am ok with waiting for AF, although I wish she would hurry up. I want to get back to trying. We went to see my friend's new born this morning. He is 6 days old. Watching ds interact with him broke my heart. Ds was playing with his toes and just generally amused by his movements. I feel crushed. I am so scared that I will never have another child, or it will take so long that ds will not enjoy having another child in the house. I miss our baby.

[Amydoula]

7 DPO and a bit of spotting this AM. Maybe implantation? :fingersx:
:fingersx:

Oh, thanks. I had no idea what it was. It said I should test on 18dpo.

I do too.

:Hug The last two cycles have been just like that. It is all over the place.

I hope so! :fingersx:

me: I am so sad. I guess I am ok with waiting for AF, although I wish she would hurry up. I want to get back to trying. We went to see my friend's new born this morning. He is 6 days old. Watching ds interact with him broke my heart. Ds was playing with his toes and just generally amused by his movements. I feel crushed. I am so scared that I will never have another child, or it will take so long that ds will not enjoy having another child in the house. I miss our baby.
:Hug My son will be 7 in November. It's never too late to give them a sibling.

[skybluepink02]

I'm holding out until the 6th. But I have 25 tests. I might be able to sacrifice a couple in the name of impatience :lol

Ha, I've got 20 looking at me in the cabinet. I just keep telling myself "8dpo is too early, 8dpo is too early"

[OwensMa]

I'd like to be added to the thread. My loss was recent, but I'd really like to conceive ASAP. I actually feel like I'm O'ing right now. We'll see what happens.

[OwensMa]

DiD, I'm happy to see you here. I'm crossing my fingers for you, and for everyone in the 2WW. Good luck!

[TayTaysMama]

7 DPO and a bit of spotting this AM. Maybe implantation? :fingersx:

I hope so! You're only one DPO behind me. I had lots of discharge on day 7 and a tiny spot of blood today. I'm really hoping it's implantation too. What day are you going to test?

Good luck to both of you!:fingersx:



me: I am so sad. I guess I am ok with waiting for AF, although I wish she would hurry up. I want to get back to trying. We went to see my friend's new born this morning. He is 6 days old. Watching ds interact with him broke my heart. Ds was playing with his toes and just generally amused by his movements. I feel crushed. I am so scared that I will never have another child, or it will take so long that ds will not enjoy having another child in the house. I miss our baby.

:hug Your DS will enjoy a new baby whatever the timing is. My 12 yr old loves her little sis and they are 10 years apart!

I'd like to be added to the thread. My loss was recent, but I'd really like to conceive ASAP. I actually feel like I'm O'ing right now. We'll see what happens.

Welcome and I hope this is your month!

Zak~ I hope you guys are doing ok out where you are! Thinking of you!

Me: Still haven't tested but I still have no AF. I bought a test at the dollar store and I am thinking of taking it tonight. It should show up no matter what since I am either 17DPO or 13DPO. I just am so nervous about taking it. What if it is negative? Ahhh!

[JenMidwife]

DH just told me he's ready to TTC! Which officially puts us into the catergory of "disregarding everyone's adive to wait 3 cycles" :o It's been 6 weeks since I lost my 23/40 son, uncomplicated vaginal birth... & not a sign of AF. :irked:

Dear Aunt Flow, Would you return to my house so I can freakin' get pregnant again already?! Yours, Jen :lol

Good luck to you all! :thumb

[skybluepink02]

JenMidwife I put you under Waiting to O

OwensMa I put you under Waiting to Know

Let me know if you're ok here, or if you'd like to be moved

[JenMidwife]

Thanks, skybluepink02. I really don't know how you keep up! :Bow

[TayTaysMama]

I'm so upset I could scream. My DH just thinks I am nuts for getting so upset about this stuff so I hope nobody minds me just getting it out on here.

I took a test tonight and it was negative. I guess that I am really not pregnant. After some research I can only guess that I have a luteal cyst that is preventing AF from starting. I still have the signs of progesterone running crazy through my body since my breasts are killing me and my temps are still pretty high.

I know that there is some kind of injection or something that you can get that will start AF. Does anyone know the name of it??? Any other idea on how to get the evil witch to just show up already????

I guess I will call a doc on Monday and try to get in somewhere. I am at my wits end and ready to just quit all of this ttc crap.

[Eliseatthebeach]

I'm so upset I could scream. My DH just thinks I am nuts for getting so upset about this stuff so I hope nobody minds me just getting it out on here.

I took a test tonight and it was negative. I guess that I am really not pregnant. After some research I can only guess that I have a luteal cyst that is preventing AF from starting. I still have the signs of progesterone running crazy through my body since my breasts are killing me and my temps are still pretty high.

I know that there is some kind of injection or something that you can get that will start AF. Does anyone know the name of it??? Any other idea on how to get the evil witch to just show up already????

I guess I will call a doc on Monday and try to get in somewhere. I am at my wits end and ready to just quit all of this ttc crap.


:hug

[DreamsInDigital]

Okay so the spotting is more than just spotting but too light to be AF, WTF is going on? My temp was low this AM too although still above the coverline. :scratch

[Eliseatthebeach]

Okay so the spotting is more than just spotting but too light to be AF, WTF is going on? My temp was low this AM too although still above the coverline. :scratch

Is it possible you're still spotting from your m/c? I had about 7 weeks of on and off (mostly off) spotting. Once I thought it could have been af until about two weeks later when the unmistakeable af showed.

[DreamsInDigital]

I suppose it could be but it's been 4 weeks to the day since my D&C and I haven't bled at all in 3 weeks.

[dani76]

My first cycle was really weird after this miscarriage. I spotted for several days before AF, and then after AF too. But this 2nd cycle was more normal. I remember reading that, just like with a full term pregnancy, your body needs however many weeks long you were pregnant to get back to normal.

[BlissfullyLoving]

I'd like to be added to the thread. My loss was recent, but I'd really like to conceive ASAP. I actually feel like I'm O'ing right now. We'll see what happens. Welcome. I am very sorry for your loss.

DH just told me he's ready to TTC! Which officially puts us into the catergory of "disregarding everyone's adive to wait 3 cycles" :o It's been 6 weeks since I lost my 23/40 son, uncomplicated vaginal birth... & not a sign of AF. :irked:

Dear Aunt Flow, Would you return to my house so I can freakin' get pregnant again already?! Yours, Jen :lol
Yay for dh being ready to try! I hope af shows up soon for you.



Me: Still haven't tested but I still have no AF. I bought a test at the dollar store and I am thinking of taking it tonight. It should show up no matter what since I am either 17DPO or 13DPO. I just am so nervous about taking it. What if it is negative? Ahhh!I'm so upset I could scream. My DH just thinks I am nuts for getting so upset about this stuff so I hope nobody minds me just getting it out on here.

I took a test tonight and it was negative. I guess that I am really not pregnant. After some research I can only guess that I have a luteal cyst that is preventing AF from starting. I still have the signs of progesterone running crazy through my body since my breasts are killing me and my temps are still pretty high.

I know that there is some kind of injection or something that you can get that will start AF. Does anyone know the name of it??? Any other idea on how to get the evil witch to just show up already????

I guess I will call a doc on Monday and try to get in somewhere. I am at my wits end and ready to just quit all of this ttc crap.:Hug If you are 13dpo you definitely need fmu. Some women do not get positives until 16-18dpo. I think you need to wait a few more days (or request a blood test), especially with those symptoms, before taking any action.

Okay so the spotting is more than just spotting but too light to be AF, WTF is going on? My temp was low this AM too although still above the coverline. :scratch:Hug I have no idea what it is, but it is probably just hormonal irregularity.

[chel]

I'm so upset I could scream. My DH just thinks I am nuts for getting so upset about this stuff so I hope nobody minds me just getting it out on here.

I took a test tonight and it was negative. I guess that I am really not pregnant. After some research I can only guess that I have a luteal cyst that is preventing AF from starting. I still have the signs of progesterone running crazy through my body since my breasts are killing me and my temps are still pretty high.

I know that there is some kind of injection or something that you can get that will start AF. Does anyone know the name of it??? Any other idea on how to get the evil witch to just show up already????

I guess I will call a doc on Monday and try to get in somewhere. I am at my wits end and ready to just quit all of this ttc crap.


there is the progesterone method, not sure of the exact dose, but along the lines of a single high dose. The sudden fall in progesterone is what triggers AF. Though I agree with the other PP, don't mess with meds this early. A 13d LP is good. Maybe AF Monday will happen for the both of us. What a great way to start the week:wink


Well FF moved me back to 13DPO. I can't argue since I missed 2 temps and it's a lot better than 18DPO! but still makes for one very long cycle:irked:
I also get a chin zit right before AF. It's here now so hopefully AF will come tomorrow and I'll atleast have a normal 14 day LP.

skybluepink02 13DPO if you please!

[mamatowill]

Well ladies- I posted yesterday about my dilemma with the progesterone. I managed to find a drug store in walking distance and voila I am pregnant! Now I just have to sit and worry for awhile. My last m/c happened during the fifth week and of course my DH is away until next week which is the fifth week. I keep going to the bathroom and checking to see if I am bleeding. I have had to do all my m/cs with my DH out of country and I was hoping that he would be here for this one but of course- irony of ironies he is away. Also we had a good laugh when I was pregnant with my DS we got a new cat a couple of weeks before finding out and what happened this time- we have a new puppy for only a couple of weeks. I find animals annoying when I am pregnant so this should be fun.

[BlissfullyLoving]

Well ladies- I posted yesterday about my dilemma with the progesterone. I managed to find a drug store in walking distance and voila I am pregnant! Now I just have to sit and worry for awhile. My last m/c happened during the fifth week and of course my DH is away until next week which is the fifth week. I keep going to the bathroom and checking to see if I am bleeding. I have had to do all my m/cs with my DH out of country and I was hoping that he would be here for this one but of course- irony of ironies he is away. Also we had a good laugh when I was pregnant with my DS we got a new cat a couple of weeks before finding out and what happened this time- we have a new puppy for only a couple of weeks. I find animals annoying when I am pregnant so this should be fun.
:Hug Congratulations. It sounds like fate is saying this baby will stick.

[Amydoula]

Okay so the spotting is more than just spotting but too light to be AF, WTF is going on? My temp was low this AM too although still above the coverline. :scratch
It can take awhile to get back to normal after a loss. :hug

I'm so upset I could scream. My DH just thinks I am nuts for getting so upset about this stuff so I hope nobody minds me just getting it out on here.

I took a test tonight and it was negative. I guess that I am really not pregnant. After some research I can only guess that I have a luteal cyst that is preventing AF from starting. I still have the signs of progesterone running crazy through my body since my breasts are killing me and my temps are still pretty high.

I know that there is some kind of injection or something that you can get that will start AF. Does anyone know the name of it??? Any other idea on how to get the evil witch to just show up already????

I guess I will call a doc on Monday and try to get in somewhere. I am at my wits end and ready to just quit all of this ttc crap.
I don't know what it is called but there is something they can put you on. :hug

Well ladies- I posted yesterday about my dilemma with the progesterone. I managed to find a drug store in walking distance and voila I am pregnant! Now I just have to sit and worry for awhile. My last m/c happened during the fifth week and of course my DH is away until next week which is the fifth week. I keep going to the bathroom and checking to see if I am bleeding. I have had to do all my m/cs with my DH out of country and I was hoping that he would be here for this one but of course- irony of ironies he is away. Also we had a good laugh when I was pregnant with my DS we got a new cat a couple of weeks before finding out and what happened this time- we have a new puppy for only a couple of weeks. I find animals annoying when I am pregnant so this should be fun.

CONGRATS! wonderful news!

[skybluepink02]

Chel, I changed it.

[apmama2myboo]

Taytays, i had problems with prolonged bleeding, spotting, wacky cycle, and they put me on Provera for 10 days to kickstart a "normal" af, but they did warn me it would be really REALLY heavy. If they hadn't warned me, I'd have gone to the ER, because I was soaking a super tampon AND a maxipad every 1.5 hours, even when i was sleeping. so that was a fun period, getting up 4x or so in the middle of the night to change stuff over, or wake up icky and wet :( anyways, it got my cycles more or less straightened out (my cycles are 22-27 days, never consistent, i average them at like 25).i hope you just need FMU and will have a BFP, but if not, call the doc and ask about a provera pill to get things straightened out. good luck.

more personals later. I have TONS to do today and no time! AF still with me and I'm looking at hours of yardwork! take care all, and I'll bbl to catch up more!

[TayTaysMama]

:af along with some kickass cramps in the middle of the night. great.

[BlissfullyLoving]

:af along with some kickass cramps in the middle of the night. great.
:Hug

[DreamsInDigital]

I'm calling this CD1, I woke up to quite a bit more red bleeding and I have a wicked pounding headache I usually only get during AF.

Please move me back to waiting to be ready

I think we're going to take the next cycle or two off.

[Kayda's Mom]

AF will be here today.
I am trying to be positive...and it is very difficult.
One moment I am thinking that "okay...let's just get to the BDing stage again and do our best" and then I think of everything else...our loss...all the horrible waiting...knowing for sure now I will NOT be having a baby in 2008...etc...etc. I can fill this whole thread with my pity party self talk.
*sigh*

[catballou24]

how long did you all wait to ttc again? i just finished bleeding yesterday and figured i'd wait a cycle. i'm still nervous too because this loss was hard on us...

[Amydoula]

:af along with some kickass cramps in the middle of the night. great.
:Hug

I'm calling this CD1, I woke up to quite a bit more red bleeding and I have a wicked pounding headache I usually only get during AF.

Please move me back to waiting to be ready

I think we're going to take the next cycle or two off.
:Hug

AF will be here today.
I am trying to be positive...and it is very difficult.
One moment I am thinking that "okay...let's just get to the BDing stage again and do our best" and then I think of everything else...our loss...all the horrible waiting...knowing for sure now I will NOT be having a baby in 2008...etc...etc. I can fill this whole thread with my pity party self talk.
*sigh*
:Hug I'm going through the same thing with the 2008 stuff

how long did you all wait to ttc again? i just finished bleeding yesterday and figured i'd wait a cycle. i'm still nervous too because this loss was hard on us...

I had a D&C so we waited 2 cycles.

Lots of dishcharge today...hmmmm......

[skybluepink02]

Well, I broke down and tested. It was negative. I'm not sure what I expected at 9DPO. Maybe I'll learn to have some willpower next time.

[BlissfullyLoving]

I'm calling this CD1, I woke up to quite a bit more red bleeding and I have a wicked pounding headache I usually only get during AF.

Please move me back to waiting to be ready

I think we're going to take the next cycle or two off.:Hug

AF will be here today.
I am trying to be positive...and it is very difficult.
One moment I am thinking that "okay...let's just get to the BDing stage again and do our best" and then I think of everything else...our loss...all the horrible waiting...knowing for sure now I will NOT be having a baby in 2008...etc...etc. I can fill this whole thread with my pity party self talk.
*sigh* :Hug I had the same feeling about losing out on 2008.

how long did you all wait to ttc again? i just finished bleeding yesterday and figured i'd wait a cycle. i'm still nervous too because this loss was hard on us... I was not sure how long we were going to wait going in. I knew I was grieving so much that I had no desire to try again. Then a few months later I felt ready. It took 3.5 months to ovulate, so it was not even one cycle that we waited to try.

Well, I broke down and tested. It was negative. I'm not sure what I expected at 9DPO. Maybe I'll learn to have some willpower next time. :Hug I hope you get your bpf!

[BlissfullyLoving]

Ladies, I need some support. I am having an awful time...ever since my friend had her baby I feel so depressed. I feel angry for her birth and sad that we will not be holding our baby soon. Then when I saw him and ds I thought I would hysterically cry right there. They just sent me more pictures, and I am so sad. He had a hospital birth, and the pictures disgust me (all the intervention and routine procedures). Really, I am just feeling jealous that we are not going to have our turn. I would never want a baby to go through the separation and cosmetic surgery, but I think I would be taking this better if things were different. I just feel sad all the time now. I know it is normal, but I do not want to feel this way. :crying

[skybluepink02]

Ladies, I need some support. I am having an awful time...ever since my friend had her baby I feel so depressed. I feel angry for her birth and sad that we will not be holding our baby soon. Then when I saw him and ds I thought I would hysterically cry right there. They just sent me more pictures, and I am so sad. He had a hospital birth, and the pictures disgust me (all the intervention and routine procedures). Really, I am just feeling jealous that we are not going to have our turn. I would never want a baby to go through the separation and cosmetic surgery, but I think I would be taking this better if things were different. I just feel sad all the time now. I know it is normal, but I do not want to feel this way. :crying

I know how you feel :hug I try so hard not to be judgemental of those who have healthy pregnancies and babies, but I am. I just can't help but think I could do it better. It's horrible and selfish, but there it is.

Anyways, I guess that was a long winded way of telling you I know how you feel and am right there with you.

[Amydoula]

Ladies, I need some support. I am having an awful time...ever since my friend had her baby I feel so depressed. I feel angry for her birth and sad that we will not be holding our baby soon. Then when I saw him and ds I thought I would hysterically cry right there. They just sent me more pictures, and I am so sad. He had a hospital birth, and the pictures disgust me (all the intervention and routine procedures). Really, I am just feeling jealous that we are not going to have our turn. I would never want a baby to go through the separation and cosmetic surgery, but I think I would be taking this better if things were different. I just feel sad all the time now. I know it is normal, but I do not want to feel this way. :crying

I am so so sorry you are down. :hug I face this kind of stuff daily in my work. People who make such different choices than I would. It is tough stuff.

[BlissfullyLoving]

I know how you feel :hug I try so hard not to be judgemental of those who have healthy pregnancies and babies, but I am. I just can't help but think I could do it better. It's horrible and selfish, but there it is.

Anyways, I guess that was a long winded way of telling you I know how you feel and am right there with you. Thanks. It helps and hurts to know I am not alone. I do not want anyone else to suffer like this. :Hug

I am so so sorry you are down. :hug I face this kind of stuff daily in my work. People who make such different choices than I would. It is tough stuff. Right after we lost the baby I wanted to busy myself, so I did not have to focus on the grieving. The work I was doing before ds was doula work, and I thought I would get back into doing that. I started to set everything up before I realized I was just too unavailable emotionally to deal with that world right then. It seems like I have only gotten more sensitive since then...perhaps a bit too emotionally involved. I am glad I have stayed out of that world for now. It is not the right place for me yet...I am in awe of your strength and courage.

[xakana]

Hey yall!! Haven't been on in awhile. How is everyone doing Chespeakeborn??? Xankna??? How are you gals doing???.

I'm doing okay. I felt like I was bleeding while I was cramping bad yesterday, but it turned out to be nothing. I just feel like I"m waiting for it all to be over and afraid, but starting to hope he might stick around....

I know what you mean about the rotten parents. Why is it that people who don't want kids and spend all their time trying to get away from them, get these beautiful, wonderful little babies who are so communicative and loving--who they leave to cry themselves sick and into a sleep-then-waking coma and complain about how 'clingy' they are?? And then start hitting them as soon as they can walk or take away their nursing when they learn to communicate? It frustrates me so much. I just want to snatch up their babies and love them and tell them they forfeited their rights to be parents because they didn't love them enough. I went to my AP group's picnic today and it was just wonderful--knowing the babies all around were wanted and loved and responded to. All those slings and nurslings. And I just about cried every time I saw a tiny little newborn. Their moms came to me to share and show me because they know how much I want a new one of my own. I miss having a newborn, so much.

I really hope everyone here gets to know that joy in the next year.

Blissfully--:Hug a special hug for you because it's just not fair. I really hope I can have a son in 9 months, at home or at least with a midwife without a hospital and that you and I can share pictures next year of our new little babies and our intervention-free births... even if you're due a month after me ;) I'll wish lots and lots of sticky baby dust on you so that we can be close when the time comes!! And even if we're not, I'll still wish a beautiful birth for you WHEN you get pregnant and give birth. I'll just hope that the pregnancy is soon and the birth a wonderful 9 months after you find out.

[momoftworedheads]

Ladies, I need some support. I am having an awful time...ever since my friend had her baby I feel so depressed. I feel angry for her birth and sad that we will not be holding our baby soon. Then when I saw him and ds I thought I would hysterically cry right there. They just sent me more pictures, and I am so sad. He had a hospital birth, and the pictures disgust me (all the intervention and routine procedures). Really, I am just feeling jealous that we are not going to have our turn. I would never want a baby to go through the separation and cosmetic surgery, but I think I would be taking this better if things were different. I just feel sad all the time now. I know it is normal, but I do not want to feel this way. :crying

I know this is so hard! I am sorry that you are feeling so sad. Do you journal at all? I know that journaling about things like this at least let me get my feelings out in a way I can deal with.

Also, take a break from your friend. You are still grieving what could have been, it is really tough. She will have to understand how you are feeling through all fo this.

Huge huge :hugs to you!

[TayTaysMama]

Ladies, I need some support. I am having an awful time...ever since my friend had her baby I feel so depressed. I feel angry for her birth and sad that we will not be holding our baby soon. Then when I saw him and ds I thought I would hysterically cry right there. They just sent me more pictures, and I am so sad. He had a hospital birth, and the pictures disgust me (all the intervention and routine procedures). Really, I am just feeling jealous that we are not going to have our turn. I would never want a baby to go through the separation and cosmetic surgery, but I think I would be taking this better if things were different. I just feel sad all the time now. I know it is normal, but I do not want to feel this way. :crying

I think we can all relate to how you feel right now. It hurts so bad to see friends or even strangers have healthy pregnancies and babies. I wish it didn't hurt and I wish I wasn't jealous but I am every dang time. It's hard not to just break down and cry. My FIL told me tonight that he couldn't tell if I was happy or sad and I lied and just told him that my back was hurting from pulling weeds but I was fine. All this while I just wanted to scream that I was miserable with myself and so upset about not being pregnant anymore or even capable of getting pregnant again. I also hate feeling this way.

Wow, that turned into a mini pity party for myself, sorry. Just know you aren't alone!:hug

[DreamsInDigital]

I've been outside trying not to be a grouch all day, but yes, unmistakeably AF is here. I'm sort of excited and relieved because I know my body is getting back to normal so we can TTC. And anyway, if we conceive next cycle we'll have another February baby. :) So I think we will try this cycle. I should learn not to make hasty decisions when AF arrives. :lol

Sorry to be a pain, but can you move me to waiting O?

[BlissfullyLoving]

xakana, thanks. You made me cry. I am just feeling like it is never going to happen, and it gets me so down. I know I will have another baby.

:Hug I am sorry about your bleeding scare.

momoftworedheads, thank you for the hugs. They really helped. I do not journal traditionally, but I do manage to get everything I am feeling out in writing. I think you are right that I need to give myself permission to take a break from my friend. Unfortunately, all of my friends are pregnant right now. We all got pregnant within a few months of each other, so we are all coming up on our due dates (I was last). I am fearful of isolating myself even more.

TayTaysMama, :Hug It sucks that we had to have this happen.

more me: Thank you everyone again. I stayed up late and watched some old television shows. I wanted to be tired enough then when I went to sleep I stayed asleep, and I did not want to think before I fell asleep. It worked. I had a dream that I was pregnant, and I had some bleeding. Everything was fine though. Also 16dpo, so either my O date is wrong, and I really O'd on 6dpo. I pushed up my lp even longer, or I am actually pregnant (doubtful). You know how easy it is to cling to any hope. My breasts are swollen, heavy, and so sore. If I do not get af by 20dpo then I will test again. I feel very confident that I the negative I got on 14dpo was true. I did not have any sex drive or sex beyond my original O date, so if my O date is wrong I really have no chance of being pregnant.

[ChesapeakeBorn]

Hey yall!! Haven't been on in awhile. How is everyone doing Chespeakeborn??? Xankna??? How are you gals doing???

Awww, thanks for asking! I'm feeling pretty yucky, so that's reassuring. Still kinda nervous though. And don't worry, I haven't forgotten you guys - I just don't want to be a thorn in the side, YKWIM? I think of you all daily and am sending you sticky BFP vibes! Hugs to all!

BlissfullyLoving: Thinking of you, sweety.....:hug

[veganmama719]

Hi everybody. Look at all the December babes we have up! It's so heartening to see all the BFPs. We've even got a January babe up there.

I'm hoping I'm a January BFP. I'm going to test on my birthday, on the 11th, and if we caught the egg, the due date would be on DH's birthday, the 16th. :fingersx I'm hoping that's enough good vibes for us to get a BFP. This month will be 5 months since my miscarriage and I have to admit, I'm getting antsy.

Skybluepink, my birthday is the day after yours. I will only be 10 DPO though so I won't have the urge to POAS. I hope you get a great birthday present!

[veganmama719]

Taytaysmama and everyone else that AF found or is stalking, I'm sorry. It just plain sucks.

I can be moved to waiting to know as I finally got crosshairs from FF. I am 3 DPO. O was late again as she has been all 3 times since the m/c. I am shocked it is taking my body this long to get back to normal, my loss was early (7w1d). Both my previous LPs were 10 days too, instead of my usual 14 so I guss we will see what happens this month.
I guess this lets DH off the hook (the poor boy is so sore from his incision, it's infected).

[mel_rak]

Hi all, just wanted to say that I am bleeding and it is most likely over for me... again. It is a lot of bright red blood. I went to the doctor for another blood draw. I am broken.. I was so sure about this pregnancy. I wish you all luck. :gloomy:

[TayTaysMama]

Well I just made an appointment with a new OB, well actually her PA. Crazy but I just found out that this doc wrote this book book (http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0761526986/sr=8-1/qid=1151338980/ref=sr_1_1/103-9800995-2696635?ie=UTF8). Hopefully they can start some tests but I am afraid that it might be to late for this cycle since I will be at CD 5 already when I go in. I guess I have to wait and see what they say. I being so impatient!

I would normally start taking my other supplements right now but I don't know if I should because I don't know if it will effect the tests. Guess I'll wait.

[Bennie45]

DH just told me he's ready to TTC! Which officially puts us into the catergory of "disregarding everyone's adive to wait 3 cycles" :o It's been 6 weeks since I lost my 23/40 son, uncomplicated vaginal birth... & not a sign of AF. :irked:

Dear Aunt Flow, Would you return to my house so I can freakin' get pregnant again already?! Yours, Jen :lol

Good luck to you all! :thumb LOL I About fell out of my chair when I read that about the aunt flo. :rotflmao:lol:lollaughup:laugh: Isn't it weird that we don't want aunt flo and are truley pertified of it come the end of the month because we want to be pregant so bad, then we want ot so bad after we have a loss. I wish that mother nature would give us a break.

Well ladies- I posted yesterday about my dilemma with the progesterone. I managed to find a drug store in walking distance and voila I am pregnant! Now I just have to sit and worry for awhile. My last m/c happened during the fifth week and of course my DH is away until next week which is the fifth week. I keep going to the bathroom and checking to see if I am bleeding. I have had to do all my m/cs with my DH out of country and I was hoping that he would be here for this one but of course- irony of ironies he is away. Also we had a good laugh when I was pregnant with my DS we got a new cat a couple of weeks before finding out and what happened this time- we have a new puppy for only a couple of weeks. I find animals annoying when I am pregnant so this should be fun. :goodvibes::jumpers::fingersx::sunshine:balloons:c arrot:banana CONGRATS!!!

AF will be here today.
I am trying to be positive...and it is very difficult.
One moment I am thinking that "okay...let's just get to the BDing stage again and do our best" and then I think of everything else...our loss...all the horrible waiting...knowing for sure now I will NOT be having a baby in 2008...etc...etc. I can fill this whole thread with my pity party self talk.
*sigh* You couln't have hit it more on the head!! And Ll the while the hubby goes well just have to try next month and moves on.

I'm doing okay. I felt like I was bleeding while I was cramping bad yesterday, but it turned out to be nothing. I just feel like I"m waiting for it all to be over and afraid, but starting to hope he might stick around....

I know what you mean about the rotten parents. Why is it that people who don't want kids and spend all their time trying to get away from them, get these beautiful, wonderful little babies who are so communicative and loving--who they leave to cry themselves sick and into a sleep-then-waking coma and complain about how 'clingy' they are?? And then start hitting them as soon as they can walk or take away their nursing when they learn to communicate? It frustrates me so much. I just want to snatch up their babies and love them and tell them they forfeited their rights to be parents because they didn't love them enough. I went to my AP group's picnic today and it was just wonderful--knowing the babies all around were wanted and loved and responded to. All those slings and nurslings. And I just about cried every time I saw a tiny little newborn. Their moms came to me to share and show me because they know how much I want a new one of my own. I miss having a newborn, so much.

I really hope everyone here gets to know that joy in the next year.

QUOTE] :sticky:sticky:Hug:Hug So sorry for your scare Sweety!! I could agree with you more. I think what gets me is when the parents loose there children that they have been treating so bad, all of a sudden they want to be great parents. When they should have been all along.

[QUOTE=ChesapeakeBorn;11139985]Awww, thanks for asking! I'm feeling pretty yucky, so that's reassuring. Still kinda nervous though. And don't worry, I haven't forgotten you guys - I just don't want to be a thorn in the side, YKWIM? I think of you all daily and am sending you sticky BFP vibes! Hugs to all!

BlissfullyLoving: Thinking of you, sweety.....:hug NO prob I think of you guys often. You can be a thorn any time!! Then your prenancy will be succesul and we can look to you for reasurment that everything will come out fine! I know it will for you.

Hi all, just wanted to say that I am bleeding and it is most likely over for me... again. It is a lot of bright red blood. I went to the doctor for another blood draw. I am broken.. I was so sure about this pregnancy. I wish you all luck. :gloomy:
:grouphug:crap:hug:hug:Hug

[heatherh]

mamatowill - Congrats! :D I hope your puppy gets the chance to annoy the heck out of you for another 9 months or so! Hang in there. :hug

TayTaysMama - I'm sorry she showed in force :hug

DreamsInDigital - Here's to February babies!

Kayda's Mom - :hug

Amydoula, skybluepink02 - :fingersx:

BlissfullyLoving - I'm sorry you're having a rough time. It is OK to be jealous and things *will* improve. :hug

mel_rak - I'm really really hoping things turn out OK for you. You're in my thoughts. :hug :hug :hug

[ChesapeakeBorn]

mel_rak: Thinking of you! I hope everything turns out okay. Wishing you much peace and comfort. :hug

[BlissfullyLoving]

ChesapeakeBorn, not a thorn at all. You are always welcome. Thanks for the hug...it helped.

veganmama, I hope your cycle gets back to normal soon, and dh heals quickly.

mel_rak, :Hug Thinking of you and hoping everything is ok.

TayTaysMama, good luck with the new ob. I hope you can get lots of useful information.

[skybluepink02]

mel_rak I'm praying for you. I really hope it turns out allright for you.

DreamsinDigital Oh I suppose I can move you.

grumble grumble mutter "these people" :)

[barose]

Hello everyone!

I decided to take a back seat on the May thread. I think I need some distance, but here is an update:

I’m going back and forth if I should starting seeing an acupuncturist or try some other method. Western anything never worked for me in the past, but I wonder how I would do.

In the past, I didn’t give acupuncture enough time (two months) so nothing really happened. At the time, money and time (since I work full-time) was/is an issue.

Acupuncture is at least $300 a month (more like $400+ if you have to go in more than once a week). That doesn’t include herbs etc. Finding the right person is imperative.

I have not been temping this cycle because I need to get some distance. I’m on CD 26 and have NO idea where I am. We made sure to BD when I had EWCM (yesterday) but that the extent of ttc right now. In a perfect world, it would be enough.

[Amydoula]

Hi all, just wanted to say that I am bleeding and it is most likely over for me... again. It is a lot of bright red blood. I went to the doctor for another blood draw. I am broken.. I was so sure about this pregnancy. I wish you all luck. :gloomy:
I'm so sorry. :hug

Well I just made an appointment with a new OB, well actually her PA. Crazy but I just found out that this doc wrote this book book (http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0761526986/sr=8-1/qid=1151338980/ref=sr_1_1/103-9800995-2696635?ie=UTF8). Hopefully they can start some tests but I am afraid that it might be to late for this cycle since I will be at CD 5 already when I go in. I guess I have to wait and see what they say. I being so impatient!

I would normally start taking my other supplements right now but I don't know if I should because I don't know if it will effect the tests. Guess I'll wait.
Glad you got your appointment!

Nothing new here but I'm feeling more hopeful this month than last....we'll see.

[BlissfullyLoving]

barose, :Hug I wonder if you found an alternative healer and told them that it was a financial burden if they would work with you. In my area, there are nds, homeopaths, massage therapists, etc that work for free, sliding scale, or trade for patients. Some places you will have to go on a waiting list because they cannot provide free care to numerous people. It is worth a try.

I sort of feel in the same place. I think I need to see someone, but I do not think I have the money to put out of pocket right now. I did some muscle testing on my own last night, and it was clear I should add in another supplement. I have no idea what the supplement is though. I will probably ask dh to do more testing with me to see if I should see a practitioner.


Nothing new here but I'm feeling more hopeful this month than last....we'll see. :dust :dust

[barose]

barose, :Hug I wonder if you found an alternative healer and told them that it was a financial burden if they would work with you. In my area, there are nds, homeopaths, massage therapists, etc that work for free, sliding scale, or trade for patients. Some places you will have to go on a waiting list because they cannot provide free care to numerous people. It is worth a try.

I sort of feel in the same place. I think I need to see someone, but I do not think I have the money to put out of pocket right now. I did some muscle testing on my own last night, and it was clear I should add in another supplement. I have no idea what the supplement is though. I will probably ask dh to do more testing with me to see if I should see a practitioner.

:dust :dust


Thank you for the suggestion! It’s not so much the money, its more of the time involved. Most only have daytime appointments available which is difficult for me on a weekly basis. I can break away for an occasional doctor’s appointment, but weekly is less possible because of my workload. It not that they are far, but driving time with traffic adds up around here. I will try to see if someone can see me at the end of their days which would be a little better.


The consistency involved is the bigger issue.

[veganmama719]

Hi all, just wanted to say that I am bleeding and it is most likely over for me... again. It is a lot of bright red blood. I went to the doctor for another blood draw. I am broken.. I was so sure about this pregnancy. I wish you all luck. :gloomy:

mel_rak, I am so very sorry sweetie that you are having to go through this. I will keep you and your bean in my thoughts for a positive outcome.

BlissfullyLoving, it's very very tough. I'm sorry it is particulary bad for you right now and I am sending lots of cyber hugs.

Peace, strength and love to all the mamas on this thread....

[TayTaysMama]

Hi all, just wanted to say that I am bleeding and it is most likely over for me... again. It is a lot of bright red blood. I went to the doctor for another blood draw. I am broken.. I was so sure about this pregnancy. I wish you all luck. :gloomy:

I am so sorry I missed this before. It stinks that you are having to go through this. I hope you get good news back from your doc. You will be in my thoughts. :hug

[mel_rak]

thank you so much for everyones prayers... I am doing a little better this afternoon than this morning, as it all sinks in. I do have to ask you all a question... I am sorry I have to go there, but there are so many thoughts going through my head. Could getting sick have caused this? My neighbor across the street came over last week and coughed all over me and my two boys. My 3 year old had a 104 temp and DH and I were going nuts with worry over the weekend. He is now getting better and my 5 year old is starting with a cold. Today she came over and told me it was my fault that I lost the baby because my shorts were too short exposing my thighs (they are long shorts-almost to my knees!). She said if your legs get cold then so does your uterus. WHAT?, she is insane. She told me to stop trying to have babies and go get a real job. Just what I needed to hear when I was trying to let the sunshine make me feel better about this situation. My face swollen from crying wanted to yell at her, but said nothing! Could her coughing and sickness made me lose the pregnancy?? Just a stupid thought... Thank you...

[xakana]

Hi all, just wanted to say that I am bleeding and it is most likely over for me... again. It is a lot of bright red blood. I went to the doctor for another blood draw. I am broken.. I was so sure about this pregnancy. I wish you all luck. :gloomy:

I am so, so sorry. Keep us updated.

[TayTaysMama]

thank you so much for everyones prayers... I am doing a little better this afternoon than this morning, as it all sinks in. I do have to ask you all a question... I am sorry I have to go there, but there are so many thoughts going through my head. Could getting sick have caused this? My neighbor across the street came over last week and coughed all over me and my two boys. My 3 year old had a 104 temp and DH and I were going nuts with worry over the weekend. He is now getting better and my 5 year old is starting with a cold. Today she came over and told me it was my fault that I lost the baby because my shorts were too short exposing my thighs (they are long shorts-almost to my knees!). She said if your legs get cold then so does your uterus. WHAT?, she is insane. She told me to stop trying to have babies and go get a real job. Just what I needed to hear when I was trying to let the sunshine make me feel better about this situation. My face swollen from crying wanted to yell at her, but said nothing! Could her coughing and sickness made me lose the pregnancy?? Just a stupid thought... Thank you...

OMG Please stay away from that lady! I honestly can't believe she said something like that to you. It makes me so mad! She needs to just shut up and mind her own business. She can't be all that bright if she thinks that shorts can make your uterus cold. I mean really! There is NO way that you or your kids getting sick had anything to do with the possible loss of this baby. Although it would be nice to blame it on your mean neighbor! Please don't blame this on yourself. You didn't do anything wrong.

I just want to give you a big hug and your neighbor a smack on the head! I am sorry you have to deal with this right now. I am so mad for you!

Please let us know when you hear back from your doc. Hopefully it will be good news.:Hug

[BlissfullyLoving]

Thank you for the suggestion! It’s not so much the money, its more of the time involved. Most only have daytime appointments available which is difficult for me on a weekly basis. I can break away for an occasional doctor’s appointment, but weekly is less possible because of my workload. It not that they are far, but driving time with traffic adds up around here. I will try to see if someone can see me at the end of their days which would be a little better.


The consistency involved is the bigger issue. Oh, sorry I misunderstood. I hope that you can find someone that is accommodating. I think that is all contingent on the person. I have had really good luck with people accommodating my schedule (before and after work hours), and I hope you do too.


BlissfullyLoving, it's very very tough. I'm sorry it is particulary bad for you right now and I am sending lots of cyber hugs. Thanks!

thank you so much for everyones prayers... I am doing a little better this afternoon than this morning, as it all sinks in. I do have to ask you all a question... I am sorry I have to go there, but there are so many thoughts going through my head. Could getting sick have caused this? My neighbor across the street came over last week and coughed all over me and my two boys. My 3 year old had a 104 temp and DH and I were going nuts with worry over the weekend. He is now getting better and my 5 year old is starting with a cold. Today she came over and told me it was my fault that I lost the baby because my shorts were too short exposing my thighs (they are long shorts-almost to my knees!). She said if your legs get cold then so does your uterus. WHAT?, she is insane. She told me to stop trying to have babies and go get a real job. Just what I needed to hear when I was trying to let the sunshine make me feel better about this situation. My face swollen from crying wanted to yell at her, but said nothing! Could her coughing and sickness made me lose the pregnancy?? Just a stupid thought... Thank you... :Hug Did you get sick? It is possible that if you get a high enough fever (above 102) can cause birth defects. This is if the fever is between 20-25dpo or conception. Here is a succinct article on fever and miscarriage http://miscarriage.about.com/od/infections/f/fevermisc.htm.

[sarah2881]

Bennie45 :hug I know what you mean about mean parents. Not only do
they have more kids, but they judge me for the way i treat my DD. I am 'spoiling' her or being over dramatic on her behalf. She is extremely high needs, she has been since birth and all the while when I am wearing her in sling non-stop, or nursing her part a year or trying to keep her sleep times constant or changing her diet, all they do is judge me. I just thank God she is my DD and not theirs, obviously they don't have the patients or love to have such a wonderful child.



BlissfullyLoving :hug it is hard to be around new babies, I would probably ditto the suggestion to maybe take a break form this friend and let yourself have some more time.

My first cycle was really weird after this miscarriage. I spotted for several days before AF, and then after AF too. But this 2nd cycle was more normal. I remember reading that, just like with a full term pregnancy, your body needs however many weeks long you were pregnant to get back to normal.

Yeah, my first cycle was really long like your with lots of spotting before and after and the second one was REALLY short, like only a few days and pretty light. It is so weird how even a relatively (mine was at 8 weeks) early loss can effect your body.

mamatowill congratulation:stickys!

:af along with some kickass cramps in the middle of the night. great.

:Hug

I'm calling this CD1, I woke up to quite a bit more red bleeding and I have a wicked pounding headache I usually only get during AF.


:Hug

AF will be here today.
I am trying to be positive...and it is very difficult.
One moment I am thinking that "okay...let's just get to the BDing stage again and do our best" and then I think of everything else...our loss...all the horrible waiting...knowing for sure now I will NOT be having a baby in 2008...etc...etc. I can fill this whole thread with my pity party self talk.
*sigh*

I know, looking forward to the trying is easy enough, but thinking of the waiting after that is hard. :hugs I hope you get your BFP soon so you can be done with this.

how long did you all wait to ttc again? i just finished bleeding yesterday and figured i'd wait a cycle. i'm still nervous too because this loss was hard on us...

I m/ced naturally at 8 weeks (BO that stopped developing at 6 weeks) and waited until after my first AF to try.

Well, I broke down and tested. It was negative. I'm not sure what I expected at 9DPO. Maybe I'll learn to have some willpower next time.

Ha, you would think, I think I still tested at 7 DPO this last time :duh



Hi all, just wanted to say that I am bleeding and it is most likely over for me... again. It is a lot of bright red blood. I went to the doctor for another blood draw. I am broken.. I was so sure about this pregnancy. I wish you all luck. :gloomy:

Today she came over and told me it was my fault that I lost the baby because my shorts were too short exposing my thighs (they are long shorts-almost to my knees!). She said if your legs get cold then so does your uterus. WHAT?, she is insane. She told me to stop trying to have babies and go get a real job. Just what I needed to hear when I was trying to let the sunshine make me feel better about this situation. My face swollen from crying wanted to yell at her, but said nothing! Could her coughing and sickness made me lose the pregnancy?? Just a stupid thought... Thank you...

I am so sorry you are bleeding. I am doubtful that getting sick has much to do with it, but I don't really know. As far as the lady across the street, DON"T LET HER IN YOUR HOUSE AGAIN!!!! She is a nut and MEAN. Do not listen to anything she has to say. I am fuming here just thinking that she had the nerve to be so DUMB!

ME: I feel sick and am having lots of stabbing round ligament pains every time I move and I am enjoying every moment! I told my Mom I was feeling sick and she got all giddy, it isn't too often to have people happy to see you sick! I had a beta draw today and will go back on Wed, probably wont gets results until the end of the week.

Went to see DH's family this weekend and just about left in tears. Not sure how to spit it all out without writing a novel, but... BIL and his family are pretty well off. Have every toy imaginable, a weekend cabin, Three expensive cars, plastic surgery :blah. Well, they have had a rough year compared to the last few, they sold there $800,000 home ( which they only had to have on the marker for one month) and downsized to a $450,000 because work is slow (basically their $400+ thousand a year was cut in half). DH and are barely surviving month to month, we have to choose between food and gas, you know basics. DD has had some really stressful health issues this year and we have been through the ringer with hospitals, tests, bills, doctors (everything is well now thank God). Plus that little thing called losing a child we had been hoping for for months! Dh told his family on Christmas that we were expecting with tears in his eyes, I don't think it was a big secret that we really wanted that baby. BIL never said a word about the loss. So on Saturday BIL was saying how hard this year had been on FIL because he is just worried sick about all THEIR issues (and FIL is really having a tough time, DH's other brother got laid off in January and FIL feels all the pain his kids are feeling). DH said, "yeah, Dad's boys have been having a rough year and it is really hard on him." And BIL said "Well, I have been kicked in the b*lls this year and that has been hard on him, you haven't been kicked in the b*lls." He has no concept of anything in anyone else's life and nothing that doesn't involve money matters. Granted they have no clue about our money situation because we don't complain about it, who cares! we are surviving, money isn't the most important thing in the world. Plus if we complain we just get crap that I am a SAHM and not working. But they do know that DH sold the other love of his life, his truck because times are tight. I just don't even want to be around such self absorbed people. And they wont be getting any announcement until I have a big belly and they can figure it our for themselves. I am only telling people who celebrated our last baby and who offered prayers in our suffering.

I feel like a baby, I can usually blow things of after a couple days, but I am too emotional.

[Olerica]

Ladies, I need some support. I am having an awful time...ever since my friend had her baby I feel so depressed. I feel angry for her birth and sad that we will not be holding our baby soon. Then when I saw him and ds I thought I would hysterically cry right there. They just sent me more pictures, and I am so sad. He had a hospital birth, and the pictures disgust me (all the intervention and routine procedures). Really, I am just feeling jealous that we are not going to have our turn. I would never want a baby to go through the separation and cosmetic surgery, but I think I would be taking this better if things were different. I just feel sad all the time now. I know it is normal, but I do not want to feel this way. :crying

xakana, thanks. You made me cry. I am just feeling like it is never going to happen, and it gets me so down. I know I will have another baby.
more me: Thank you everyone again. I stayed up late and watched some old television shows. I wanted to be tired enough then when I went to sleep I stayed asleep, and I did not want to think before I fell asleep. It worked. I had a dream that I was pregnant, and I had some bleeding. Everything was fine though. Also 16dpo, so either my O date is wrong, and I really O'd on 6dpo. I pushed up my lp even longer, or I am actually pregnant (doubtful). You know how easy it is to cling to any hope. My breasts are swollen, heavy, and so sore. If I do not get af by 20dpo then I will test again. I feel very confident that I the negative I got on 14dpo was true. I did not have any sex drive or sex beyond my original O date, so if my O date is wrong I really have no chance of being pregnant.
:fingersx: for you. I can really identify with the friend having a baby struggle. :hugs


thank you so much for everyones prayers... I am doing a little better this afternoon than this morning, as it all sinks in. I do have to ask you all a question... I am sorry I have to go there, but there are so many thoughts going through my head. Could getting sick have caused this? My neighbor across the street came over last week and coughed all over me and my two boys. My 3 year old had a 104 temp and DH and I were going nuts with worry over the weekend. He is now getting better and my 5 year old is starting with a cold. Today she came over and told me it was my fault that I lost the baby because my shorts were too short exposing my thighs (they are long shorts-almost to my knees!). She said if your legs get cold then so does your uterus. WHAT?, she is insane. She told me to stop trying to have babies and go get a real job. Just what I needed to hear when I was trying to let the sunshine make me feel better about this situation. My face swollen from crying wanted to yell at her, but said nothing! Could her coughing and sickness made me lose the pregnancy?? Just a stupid thought... Thank you...

What an obnoxious beast. Smack her for me too. I'm hoping that you recieve good news from the Dr.

Hello everyone!

I decided to take a back seat on the May thread. I think I need some distance, but here is an update:

I have not been temping this cycle because I need to get some distance. I’m on CD 26 and have NO idea where I am. We made sure to BD when I had EWCM (yesterday) but that the extent of ttc right now. In a perfect world, it would be enough.

Wish I had more to offer than understanding and hugs. :Hugs

AAM: Friend's baby shower last weekend. I had a hard time keeping a dry eye. My heart is broken. And I'm ovulating this week... while trying to abstain. It makes me want to swear loudly (not my usual behavior). I could totally use a virtual hug today.

[BlissfullyLoving]

ME: I feel sick and am having lots of stabbing round ligament pains every time I move and I am enjoying every moment! I told my Mom I was feeling sick and she got all giddy, it isn't too often to have people happy to see you sick! I had a beta draw today and will go back on Wed, probably wont gets results until the end of the week.

Went to see DH's family this weekend and just about left in tears. Not sure how to spit it all out without writing a novel, but... BIL and his family are pretty well off. Have every toy imaginable, a weekend cabin, Three expensive cars, plastic surgery :blah. Well, they have had a rough year compared to the last few, they sold there $800,000 home ( which they only had to have on the marker for one month) and downsized to a $450,000 because work is slow (basically their $400+ thousand a year was cut in half). DH and are barely surviving month to month, we have to choose between food and gas, you know basics. DD has had some really stressful health issues this year and we have been through the ringer with hospitals, tests, bills, doctors (everything is well now thank God). Plus that little thing called losing a child we had been hoping for for months! Dh told his family on Christmas that we were expecting with tears in his eyes, I don't think it was a big secret that we really wanted that baby. BIL never said a word about the loss. So on Saturday BIL was saying how hard this year had been on FIL because he is just worried sick about all THEIR issues (and FIL is really having a tough time, DH's other brother got laid off in January and FIL feels all the pain his kids are feeling). DH said, "yeah, Dad's boys have been having a rough year and it is really hard on him." And BIL said "Well, I have been kicked in the b*lls this year and that has been hard on him, you haven't been kicked in the b*lls." He has no concept of anything in anyone else's life and nothing that doesn't involve money matters. Granted they have no clue about our money situation because we don't complain about it, who cares! we are surviving, money isn't the most important thing in the world. Plus if we complain we just get crap that I am a SAHM and not working. But they do know that DH sold the other love of his life, his truck because times are tight. I just don't even want to be around such self absorbed people. And they wont be getting any announcement until I have a big belly and they can figure it our for themselves. I am only telling people who celebrated our last baby and who offered prayers in our suffering.

I feel like a baby, I can usually blow things of after a couple days, but I am too emotional. :Hug It is absolutely amazing to me that people are so self absorbed. BIL seems like a huge a-hole. He seriously thinks a cut in income (where he is still one of the wealthiest earners) is worse then the loss of your child...I am in between hoping he stays that ignorant forever and hoping he feels the pain that we all suffer just to see how cruel he was.


AAM: Friend's baby shower last weekend. I had a hard time keeping a dry eye. My heart is broken. And I'm ovulating this week... while trying to abstain. It makes me want to swear loudly (not my usual behavior). I could totally use a virtual hug today. :Hug :hug :Hug :hug :Hug :hug :Hug :hug I know how you feel. :Hug :hug :Hug :hug :Hug :hug :Hug :hug :Hug :hug

[Amydoula]

ME:[/B] I feel sick and am having lots of stabbing round ligament pains every time I move and I am enjoying every moment! I told my Mom I was feeling sick and she got all giddy, it isn't too often to have people happy to see you sick! I had a beta draw today and will go back on Wed, probably wont gets results until the end of the week.

Went to see DH's family this weekend and just about left in tears. Not sure how to spit it all out without writing a novel, but... BIL and his family are pretty well off. Have every toy imaginable, a weekend cabin, Three expensive cars, plastic surgery :blah. Well, they have had a rough year compared to the last few, they sold there $800,000 home ( which they only had to have on the marker for one month) and downsized to a $450,000 because work is slow (basically their $400+ thousand a year was cut in half). DH and are barely surviving month to month, we have to choose between food and gas, you know basics. DD has had some really stressful health issues this year and we have been through the ringer with hospitals, tests, bills, doctors (everything is well now thank God). Plus that little thing called losing a child we had been hoping for for months! Dh told his family on Christmas that we were expecting with tears in his eyes, I don't think it was a big secret that we really wanted that baby. BIL never said a word about the loss. So on Saturday BIL was saying how hard this year had been on FIL because he is just worried sick about all THEIR issues (and FIL is really having a tough time, DH's other brother got laid off in January and FIL feels all the pain his kids are feeling). DH said, "yeah, Dad's boys have been having a rough year and it is really hard on him." And BIL said "Well, I have been kicked in the b*lls this year and that has been hard on him, you haven't been kicked in the b*lls." He has no concept of anything in anyone else's life and nothing that doesn't involve money matters. Granted they have no clue about our money situation because we don't complain about it, who cares! we are surviving, money isn't the most important thing in the world. Plus if we complain we just get crap that I am a SAHM and not working. But they do know that DH sold the other love of his life, his truck because times are tight. I just don't even want to be around such self absorbed people. And they wont be getting any announcement until I have a big belly and they can figure it our for themselves. I am only telling people who celebrated our last baby and who offered prayers in our suffering.

I feel like a baby, I can usually blow things of after a couple days, but I am too emotional.
:hug that is horrible! I hate self absorbed people like that.

[QUOTE=Olerica;11144545
AAM: Friend's baby shower last weekend. I had a hard time keeping a dry eye. My heart is broken. And I'm ovulating this week... while trying to abstain. It makes me want to swear loudly (not my usual behavior). I could totally use a virtual hug today.[/QUOTE]


I was at a baby shower this weekend too, one of the women who attended is due (I found out after talking to her) in JULY. I thought I was going to throw up. BIG :hug I was there right with you.

[sarah2881]

Olerica :hug :Hug :hug

[youthpastormama]

Amydoula and Olerca - :hug

Sarah2881 - I am so sorry you had to deal with people who just don't get it!

Mel_rak - :Hug I am so, so sorry you are going through this! I am sorry for the pain that you are feeling, and I am sorry that someone felt she had the right to add to that pain. PLEASE don't listen to her. PLEASE surround yourself with those who love you, want the best for you, and will support you, and do not let those who wish to hurt you even come close.

Me - Had first appointment today. Saw heartbeat, and my due date is December 11. Have been spotting ever since the appointment, though, and I am very nervous.

[DreamWeaver]

Hi all,

sorry I've been silent. been busy and having internet issues, so just slow dial-up and sometimes MDC takes forever to load to a new page! :angry But I've been reading...

skybluepink thanks for taking up on the new thread! :thumb

I am also wondering about kimberly, I hope she is doing ok...


DiD sorry about AF. :hug


kayda's Mom:hug I hate the waiting too.


how long did you all wait to ttc again? i just finished bleeding yesterday and figured i'd wait a cycle. i'm still nervous too because this loss was hard on us...

:hug I am so sorry for your loss. We all wait different times for various reasons. I hope you can try when you feel ready, and good luck!


Ladies, I need some support. I am having an awful time...ever since my friend had her baby I feel so depressed. I feel angry for her birth and sad that we will not be holding our baby soon. Then when I saw him and ds I thought I would hysterically cry right there. They just sent me more pictures, and I am so sad. He had a hospital birth, and the pictures disgust me (all the intervention and routine procedures). Really, I am just feeling jealous that we are not going to have our turn. I would never want a baby to go through the separation and cosmetic surgery, but I think I would be taking this better if things were different. I just feel sad all the time now. I know it is normal, but I do not want to feel this way. :crying

:hug :hug :hug


Chesa glad to hear you are feeling yucky!! :p :goodvibes:


mel_rakhoney, I am so sorry you have to go through all these. :hug to you!


xak I am glad you and your family are fine!!


Olerica :hug :hug :hug


Me - Had first appointment today. Saw heartbeat, and my due date is December 11. Have been spotting ever since the appointment, though, and I am very nervous.
:fingersx:


Me: waiting. My AF is late, but I also have symptoms of AF coming- my lower ab feels crampy and my lower back feels kinda achy too. I think I will test tomm morning if AF does not show... ... I will watch my hope rise... that perhaps I am pregnant, and then immediately I will squash it, because I resent that disappointment.... and then my hope will rise again and then I will think of all the awful scenarios, all those horrible things that could happen... I have been going through this since Sunday, when AF is "supposed" to show (but maybe my cycle is lengthening... ) Urgh. I am just a mess. Total crap.

[apmama2myboo]

:Hugs all around to those of you who need them. This month is starting out really rough and busy, and I hope it gets better. I will try to be back with a more personal post later today, life is kicking my butt right now. too much to do and not enough hours in the day!
can i plz be moved to waiting to O? AF is gone and i'm ready to try for May. It occurred to me yesterday that if i conceived and carried to term (not a premie like my dd), then I would have another february baby.I really do not want to end up with an April due date again, it would make it even harder since I lost my April baby in November, but I'd be happy I guess to have any baby as long as they got in there and stayed put. *sigh* why does life have to be so hard???!!! hope you all have a good day.

[namaste_mom]

Dreamweaver (((HUGS)))