6 weeks later

[KinseysMom]

Today its been 6 weeks since my daughter Kinsey was born, and passed away. Seems like yesterday, I can almost still feel her in my arms sometimes. My husband and I want to TTC again as soon as we can, as long as my body is ready for it, My Dr. said to have at least 2 cycles and then we can start trying.
Kinsey is waiting on her little sister or brother, I'm sure of that. She will be watching over us this time.
I was suprised to find that I started my period today as well, its the first one since she was born. Does anyone have any advice for me? Is the first period a tough one?
On one hand I am happy because it means everything is working the way it should, and on the other hand....it makes me sad. Kinsey kept me from having to deal with it for 9 months.

[veganmama719]

I am so very sorry for your loss Kinseysmom. I am glad you found us though, the ladies on this board are wonderful.
Much peace, love and strength to you mama!

[labortrials]

Did you lose Kinsey full term? I'm so sorry for your loss regardless.

Some practitioners will say to wait a good long time before ttc after a loss. Some feel you need to allow the body time to heal. I say follow your heart.

[KinseysMom]

Yes, Kinsey was full term at 38 weeks. My water broke at 7am, she was born at 6:30 pm, vaginal delivery. It was all supposed to be ok, I had a perfect pregnancy...didn't even have morning sickness. I have to admit I'm still a little in shock at times I think. Im healing though, and all is going like its supposed to as far as physically. My OB said 2-3 cycles and then I will be ready physically, its our decision on when we are ready emotionally. We believe that we are ready.

[trinh86]

Again, I am sorry for your loss, but am glad that your body is healing. The first period for some people can last longer than normal for many women. Mines lasted for six days. I know you would like to conceive again soon. Know that I'm on the same journey.

Yes, seeing your period again after a loss is sad in many ways. I remember losing my son and then getting my period again later and realizing that he's actually gone. Seeing my period made me face the fact that I no longer carried him in my uterus. I felt bad that it really happened to me and that I actually lost my baby boy and will never see him again. I never got to see his eyes. I never will have the chance to see him grow. There will be no first with him---no first teeth, steps, smiles..etc.

But, again, what happened has already happened and there is no way of turning back. Life as we know it has to continue (i bet kinsey wants you to be happy). She would want to see you smile instead of in tears. She became an angel because she's too beautiful for this world. She loves you and is watching over you and her father.

[labortrials]

Hugs to you as well, trinh86.

As bad as I feel about my own 1st tri losses, nothing could compare to losing a baby in the 2nd or 3rd term or especially FULL term. http://thefamilybiz.org/ezboard/emoticons/blue2.gif