~~~Hope, Healing and Conceiving again - October 2008!!!!~~~

[momoftworedheads]

Welcome to October 2008!!!!

This thread is for women who wish to conceive after a loss and need support, hope and healing. If you wish to be added to the thread or want to modify your info please make requests in bold. Thread owner reserves the right to move you to In Our Thoughts, from Waiting to O and Waiting to Know sections, if you have not posted to the thread in a month.

In Our Thoughts

dani76 :angel :angel :angel :hugs mama!
bdoody11 :angel
barose :~bangel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1737b0)
Bennie45 :angel :angel
Boobs4Milk :*pangel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/18d170)
canadiannancy :angel
carmen358 :angel
Carley :angel
Countrybound :angel :angel
Guinevere :angel
jaclyn7 :angel
joeysmom :angel
Junegoddess :angel :angel :angel
kellihope :angel :chart: (http://forums.ovusoft.com/chart.asp?id=kellihope)
Megan_in_Holland :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/18f781)
motherofphilosophy :angel
plaidpineapple :angel
Parker'sMommy :angel :angel
politys :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1e2ccd)
PrayinFor12 :*pangel :~bangel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1d3b53)
preemiemamarach :angel :angel
Prism :angel :angel :angel :hugs
so confused! :angel
threadbey :angel


Waiting to O
apmama2myboo :angel :angel
Chel :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1d9e92)
famille_huggins :angel :angel :~bangel :angel
Katica :angel
Kayda's Mom :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/20124b)
KristaH :angel
labortrials :angel :angel :angel
lunarmagic :~bangel
Matilda_z :~bangel
mmpmelmack :angel :angel :angel :angel :angel :angel
MommyinMN :angel
momoftworedheads :angel :*pangel :angel :angel
Olerica :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1e0ec0)
RABITGRL :angel
SarahDC :angel
shantiani :angel :angel :angel
Talula Fairie :angel :angel :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/c33ac)
veganmama719 :angel :angel:chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1bc515)


Waiting to Know
KinseysMom :*pangel
Mama-Ana :angel
sarahcecile :angel :angel :angel
yummymummy2hanna :~bangel :angel
zejh :angel

:dust BFP'S:dust
Due June 2009
BlissfullyLoving :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/205ef9)
heatherh :~bangel :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/171f90)
mommymcnair6 :angel
seafox :angel

Due May 2009
21 - Amydoula :angel :angel
Chic_Mama :angel
Quate :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1fac52)
roses25 :angel
19 -ScootchsMom :~bangel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6a7b6)

Due April 2009
JenMidwife :~bangel
jmo :angel :angel :angel :chart: (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/196271)
shanahan :angel
skybluepink02 :angel :angel :angel
catballou24 :angel

Due March 2009
birthangeldoula :angel :angel
Cyrusmama :angel
faeriemom :angel :angel
mel_rak :angel :angel
PNWmama :angel :angel :angel

Due February 2009
Baby Makes 4 :angel
cagnew :~bangel
DreamsInDigital :angel
Eliseatthebeach :*pangel
Mamato2 :angel
TayTaysMama :angel

Due January 2009
DreamWeaver :~bangel
mumster :angel
OwensMa :angel
3 - 2happymammas :angel
3 - xakana :angel :angel
10-mamatowill :angel

Due December 2008
hazeleyes :angel
League_mama :angel
youthpastormama :angel
8 - moodyred01 :angel
11 - namaste_mom :angel :*pangel
16 - i0lanthe :angel
24 - Curlyfry7 :angel
26 - A Mother's Love :angel
28 - ChesapeakeBorn :angel :angel :angel
28 - Lindsey608 :angel
31 - sarah2881 :angel

Due November 2008
Kgrands :angel
punkrawkmama27 :angel
Sioko :angel :angel :angel
3 - hannybanany :angel
4 - Bella Catalina :angel
11 - fallriverfox :angel


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[momoftworedheads]

Hello all,

Please post any changes to the 1st post in bold.

Remember, I usually try to get on the computer really early in the AM or after 8 pm.

Last month we had over 500 posts! Let's keep the BFP's coming and a big Welcome to any new mamas!

Take care,
Jen

[dani76]

I am waiting to o. It should be on Monday. :)

[veganmama719]

Seafox, and all the other newly preggos, I am thinking about you. I know how stressful it is to be PAL. I've got my fingers crossed for all of you and your beans!

yummymummy2hannah and apmama2myboo, I hope you both get your BFPs!

[zejh]

Hi, I think I'd like to join in... I'd be waiting to O... had a miscarriage at a little after 6 weeks last month... It was my first pregnancy, as well as pretty much our first time TTC, and, well, it seemed almost too easy, y'know?

[dani76]

I'm sorry for your loss. :(

[SarahDC]

Happy (well, sort of!) to be joining you all. It's so weird to be moving through the different MDC boards (TTC, pregnancy, loss, now this one).

We are in our first TTC cycle since the miscarriage (8/1/08). I'm on CD 8 right now, waiting to O.

[BlissfullyLoving]

Hi, I think I'd like to join in... I'd be waiting to O... had a miscarriage at a little after 6 weeks last month... It was my first pregnancy, as well as pretty much our first time TTC, and, well, it seemed almost too easy, y'know? Welcome! :hug I am sorry for your loss.

Happy (well, sort of!) to be joining you all. It's so weird to be moving through the different MDC boards (TTC, pregnancy, loss, now this one).

We are in our first TTC cycle since the miscarriage (8/1/08). I'm on CD 8 right now, waiting to O.Welcome! :hug I am sorry for your loss.

Jen, thanks for all your time on the thread last month and thanks for hosting it again! :love

me: 4 weeks!

[MommyinMN]

Hi, I think I'd like to join in... I'd be waiting to O... had a miscarriage at a little after 6 weeks last month... It was my first pregnancy, as well as pretty much our first time TTC, and, well, it seemed almost too easy, y'know?

:hug
Welcome. I am so sorry for your loss.

Happy (well, sort of!) to be joining you all. It's so weird to be moving through the different MDC boards (TTC, pregnancy, loss, now this one).

We are in our first TTC cycle since the miscarriage (8/1/08). I'm on CD 8 right now, waiting to O.

Welcome to the group! I am so sorry you have to be here. :hug

Bliss Congrats on 4 weeks!! :joy:

Me I think I may be Oing. Of course Dh has been gone with work, but he will be home tonight :fingersx:

[veganmama719]

Welcome Sarah and Emily. I am so sorry for your losses but happy you found us.

Vanessa, maybe we will be O buddies and then due date buddies, :)

Faeriemom, I read your very sweet last post on the September thread. Thank you for that.

Nice pre-O temp dip this morning..........

Yay Bliss!

[Quate]

seafox, I just wanted to tell you that none of my symptoms have been very consistent until I hit about 6 weeks. Even breast tenderness comes and goes for me at first. And I'm at least hopeful that this isn't a bad thing. I know at least one person who claims she feels better when pregnant than at any other time in her life. So try not to worry. :hug

[Quate]

Oh, and I happened to look at the list-- shantiani and matilda_z are both in the May DDC.

[yummymummy2hannah]

(I accidentally posted this in Sep)
My period was due yesterday and it' still not come today. I took a test yesterday morning and got a BFN and today and got a BFN. I'm feeling discouraged. I'm loosing hope that I might be pregnant this month, but where is my period. Is it possible my HCG is just too low yet? I do ovulate about 5 days later than most women.

[heatherh]

Hi, momoftwo! Hope you're doing well.

zejh and SarahDC - Welcome. I'm very sorry for your losses but I hope you'll find support here with us.

BlissfullyLoving - Woohoo for 4 weeks!! I was just waiting for your ticker to change.

MommyinMN and veganmama719 - :fingersx: that this is the month!

yummymummy2hannah - Do you know how many DPO you are? It could just be too early - it ain't over till AF shows!

[yummymummy2hannah]

yummymummy2hannah - Do you know how many DPO you are? It could just be too early - it ain't over till AF shows! I am 12 DPO. Is that too early to see a BFP? My period was due yesterday.

[heatherh]

That is still a little early. It also depends on the test you're using and how sensitive it is. My last pg, I got a BFN at 12DPO and a BFP at 13DPO.

[BlissfullyLoving]

Me I think I may be Oing. Of course Dh has been gone with work, but he will be home tonight :fingersx::dust


Nice pre-O temp dip this morning..........
:dust

me: I just found out my midwife is not going to practice anymore. :( That was a curve ball I did not expect.

Dh is returning home tomorrow morning. :joy:

[yummymummy2hannah]

Well, I tested again and I got a BFP! :+:1sttri::belly
I am so excited and so scared. It doesn't feel real. I'm also being reminded of my pregnancy with Nathaniel and it's like my innocence is lost. I want to be so innocent and excited. I don't want to be scared.

[BlissfullyLoving]

Well, I tested again and I got a BFP! :+:1sttri::belly
I am so excited and so scared. It doesn't feel real. I'm also being reminded of my pregnancy with Nathaniel and it's like my innocence is lost. I want to be so innocent and excited. I don't want to be scared.
Congratulations!!! :jumpers::jumpers:

[MommyinMN]

Well, I tested again and I got a BFP! :+:1sttri::belly
I am so excited and so scared. It doesn't feel real. I'm also being reminded of my pregnancy with Nathaniel and it's like my innocence is lost. I want to be so innocent and excited. I don't want to be scared.

:joy::joy::joy::joy::joy::joy:

Congrats!!!

[seafox]

seafox, I just wanted to tell you that none of my symptoms have been very consistent until I hit about 6 weeks. Even breast tenderness comes and goes for me at first. And I'm at least hopeful that this isn't a bad thing. I know at least one person who claims she feels better when pregnant than at any other time in her life. So try not to worry. :hug

thanks :) I did just go over some old emails from when I was pregnant last time (another girl I know had gotten pregnant at the same time) and around this point last time I also said that my breast tenderness had gotten much better, so I figure maybe its normal for me!

I got a blood draw today and will have another on Monday, so that would also clue me in if I was to have a much earlier m/c than last time. So Ill try and not over analyze too much! Ironically, my breasts felt a little sore today anyway!


and congrats yummymummy!!!! I hear you completely on the innocence. Last time I tested right around now (period 5 days late) and was on a cloud. Now I keep thinking of the so many things that can go wrong (and of course reading this forum clued me into one I didn't know about!) but I am still a bit innocently excited (probably since I have no kids yet) so I am trying to focus on that feeling and not the fears :)

[Amydoula]

Well, I tested again and I got a BFP! :+:1sttri::belly
I am so excited and so scared. It doesn't feel real. I'm also being reminded of my pregnancy with Nathaniel and it's like my innocence is lost. I want to be so innocent and excited. I don't want to be scared.

Congrats!:joy:

[veganmama719]

Congratulations yummymummy2hannah! That is great news!

[apmama2myboo]

welcome to any newbies...you'll love the women here, they're great!

yummymummy2hannah congratulations! Very glad you took another test, that's great news!

I am at cd26, which is to say 14dpo. I have been sick as a dog with this cold, me and dd both, and haven't tested again since yesterday's bfn. I have a few tests, and if no AF by tomorrow morning, I'll test again. I don't know what to think at this point, because i'm so sick and i have mixed feelings if i did get pg, because frequent colds and illnesses were likely what was to blame with losing my son at 19 1/2 weeks...but we'll see what fate has in store for me.

Bliss that really sucks your mw is out of the game...i hope you can find a new one who is really good that you're comfortable with. anyone seen Olerica? hope she's ok

[BlissfullyLoving]

I am at cd26, which is to say 14dpo. I have been sick as a dog with this cold, me and dd both, and haven't tested again since yesterday's bfn. I have a few tests, and if no AF by tomorrow morning, I'll test again. I don't know what to think at this point, because i'm so sick and i have mixed feelings if i did get pg, because frequent colds and illnesses were likely what was to blame with losing my son at 19 1/2 weeks...but we'll see what fate has in store for me.

Bliss that really sucks your mw is out of the game...i hope you can find a new one who is really good that you're comfortable with. anyone seen Olerica? hope she's ok
:hug I hope you feel better soon. Do you see a ND?

Olerica is on a little trip this weekend. She left on Wednesday and will be back on Monday. I am sure she is having a lot of fun. :) I think (my understanding), she is not going to be participating on this thread anymore.

[momoftworedheads]

Welcome! :hug I am sorry for your loss.

Welcome! :hug I am sorry for your loss.

Jen, thanks for all your time on the thread last month and thanks for hosting it again! :love

me: 4 weeks!

Congrats on being 4 weeks!! WTG mama!!!:joy::joy:

I really like hosting this thread and I appreciate the thanks! All of the women here ROCK!

Congrats Yummymummy2hanna!!! Wishing you a wonderful 9 months with a beautiful babe to snuggle!

Take care!!!!
Jen

[east carolina]

Wow! Bliss, seafox, heatherh, yummymummy2hannah congrats! I hope I haven't forgotten anyone:o

This is so amazing! I was so happy to see the new thread and there is so much positive energy on it. Woohoo!

Temping is going well, I'm only on DC 7 today, so I'm waiting to O, hoping I'll O and hoping we catch the O :D You girls give me hope!

[heatherh]

Aw crap, BlissfullyLoving! I hope you're able to find someone you love with minimal work. I wonder if I should call mine yet...

Yeah, yummymummy2hannah! Be excited!

seafox - I'm glad you got a little reassurance about the bb pain.

apmama2myboo - Still crossing everything over here for you!

Got a bit worried today for no good reason. Just a little freak out. 13 weeks just seems so.far.away. I haven't been sleeping well, so I think that's wearing me down a bit. I did get a good walk in at lunchtime, so I'm hoping that burned off a little stress and will help my sleep tonight.

[SarahDC]

I am so excited and so scared. It doesn't feel real. I'm also being reminded of my pregnancy with Nathaniel and it's like my innocence is lost. I want to be so innocent and excited. I don't want to be scared.

Congrats!!!! Sending you lots of good thoughts for a healthy wriggling baby in 9 months :) I so understand how you're feeling though, and that's what I know will happen when I'm pregnant again - we'll never have that blissful innocence that comes with the first pregnancy. Hugs to you.

[BlissfullyLoving]

Got a bit worried today for no good reason. Just a little freak out. 13 weeks just seems so.far.away. I haven't been sleeping well, so I think that's wearing me down a bit. I did get a good walk in at lunchtime, so I'm hoping that burned off a little stress and will help my sleep tonight.
:hug I hope you slept better last night. My confidence goes up and down too. I feel like I am waiting until it is safe to feel confident. When exactly is safe though? I have designated 8 weeks a good safety zone and 12 weeks carefree, ha ha. I am excited and happy, and not waiting for a problem or worrying, but I just cannot seem to commit to feeling confident. Two months is not far away though. I waited that long to O before. :lol

[mmpmelmack]

Hi, My name is Melissa, and we just had our 6 th M/c starting yesterday, so technically I am waiting to O. I hadnt joined before, b/c i didnt feel like talking about it, now well, I do want to talk about it, I am so frustrated with this whole thing, its so annoying. I'm just so sad. all the time. I just cant even get excited bout TTC anymore. on top of everything else we are going to the beach today with Dh's whole family...and I cant even go in the water, and they dont even know I was PG. I dont know, just having a hard time this time more then the others I guess. heck of an intro.....

Melissa
DS 7/14/06
angel 4/22/02
M/C 2/04 8/04 12/04 12/07 8/08 10/08

[BlissfullyLoving]

Hi, My name is Melissa, and we just had our 6 th M/c starting yesterday, so technically I am waiting to O. I hadnt joined before, b/c i didnt feel like talking about it, now well, I do want to talk about it, I am so frustrated with this whole thing, its so annoying. I'm just so sad. all the time. I just cant even get excited bout TTC anymore. on top of everything else we are going to the beach today with Dh's whole family...and I cant even go in the water, and they dont even know I was PG. I dont know, just having a hard time this time more then the others I guess. heck of an intro.....

Melissa
DS 7/14/06
angel 4/22/02
M/C 2/04 8/04 12/04 12/07 8/08 10/08
:Hug I am so sorry. :Hug

[joeys_mom]

I'd like to join the list. I had a 16 week m/c (9/20/08). I'm not sure if I am TTC at my next cycle or not. It is hard to commit and open yourself up to potential loss again. We don't use birth control so I guess we've made or decision in a way...

[veganmama719]

Melissa and joey's mom, welcome to this thread. I am very sorry for your losses but happy you foundus. The support here is wonderful.
Melissa, I think your reactions are totally normal. Have your careproviders been able to come up with any explanation for the recurrent m/cs???

My family don't knw we were PG either.

[yummymummy2hannah]

Please help! I'm so confused and worried now. Yesterday, I had the positive BFP. It was very positive, no question. Well, last night out of fun I took the last test I had and it was negative. I didn't stress too much since I know HCG is lower at night. I found another test this morning and still got a negative? So, did I get a false positive yesterday? I am having no bleeding or anything to make me think it's a missed miscarriage or whatever. I was honestly surprised yesterday to even get a BFP since I was only 12 DPO. Today is 13 DPO. Should I consider it still a positive and that the test was very sensitive or should I consider it a negative? I'm so lost and scared now. Please help.

[apmama2myboo]

yummymummy, i don't have any advice, other than to test again tomorrow morning with FMU...and a big :hug i know how scared you must feel.

welcome to newbies...

as for me, this cold is kicking my a$$ and i have a nasty cough, and cd 27 and started spotting, so i guess, can you please move me to waiting to O? because, you know, having a chapped nose and coughing up a lung every 20 minutes isn't fun enough, AF has to visit to pee on my parade as well..along with my 4 1/2 yr old dd having a cold but not as bad as mine. not fit to do more than lurk today. hope you all have a good weekend, and good luck to you yummymummy, you're in my thoughts :hug

[BlissfullyLoving]

I'd like to join the list. I had a 16 week m/c (9/20/08). I'm not sure if I am TTC at my next cycle or not. It is hard to commit and open yourself up to potential loss again. We don't use birth control so I guess we've made or decision in a way...Welcome. :hug I am sorry for your loss.

Please help! I'm so confused and worried now. Yesterday, I had the positive BFP. It was very positive, no question. Well, last night out of fun I took the last test I had and it was negative. I didn't stress too much since I know HCG is lower at night. I found another test this morning and still got a negative? So, did I get a false positive yesterday? I am having no bleeding or anything to make me think it's a missed miscarriage or whatever. I was honestly surprised yesterday to even get a BFP since I was only 12 DPO. Today is 13 DPO. Should I consider it still a positive and that the test was very sensitive or should I consider it a negative? I'm so lost and scared now. Please help.:hug Were they different tests? Perhaps it was just different sensitivities. I agree with apmama and test tomorrow with fmu. I have my :fingersx: for you.


as for me, this cold is kicking my a$$ and i have a nasty cough, and cd 27 and started spotting, so i guess, can you please move me to waiting to O? because, you know, having a chapped nose and coughing up a lung every 20 minutes isn't fun enough, AF has to visit to pee on my parade as well..along with my 4 1/2 yr old dd having a cold but not as bad as mine. not fit to do more than lurk today. hope you all have a good weekend :Hug I hope you are feeling better soon!

me: Dh returned home today. Yay! It is freezing :cold: in our house. I refuse to turn on the heat already!

[heatherh]

I feel like I am waiting until it is safe to feel confident. When exactly is safe though? I have designated 8 weeks a good safety zone and 12 weeks carefree, ha ha. I am excited and happy, and not waiting for a problem or worrying, but I just cannot seem to commit to feeling confident. Two months is not far away though. I waited that long to O before. :lolYeah, I dunno. I'll feel mighty good when I make it into the 2nd tri and have a HB. Never had a HB before...

mmpmelmack - Welcome! Good grief. You've been through more than anyone should have to. :hug I hope your trip to the beach goes better than you are hoping. I'm also curious if you know the cause of your m/cs? Lots of mamas on here with experience with testing and dealing with some causes.

joeys_mom - Welcome! It is hard to take the plunge and try again. :hug

yummymummy2hannah - I agree that you're stuck in limbo. False positives are rare. Did you check out the HPT test brand at peeonastick.com? Maybe more info there... You should probably test again in another day or two. When is AF due? :hug

apmama2myboo - I really hope you're feeling better soon! Yuck.


me: Dh returned home today. Yay! It is freezing :cold: in our house. I refuse to turn on the heat already!Yeah! Hey, it's getting pretty cold in our house. I'm able to ignore it during the day, but it's cold if I have to get up at night... say to pee every few hours! Bed's nice and warm because I turn into a heat source when pg. Can hardly cuddle DH!

[chel]

Please help! I'm so confused and worried now. Yesterday, I had the positive BFP. It was very positive, no question. Well, last night out of fun I took the last test I had and it was negative. I didn't stress too much since I know HCG is lower at night. I found another test this morning and still got a negative? So, did I get a false positive yesterday? I am having no bleeding or anything to make me think it's a missed miscarriage or whatever. I was honestly surprised yesterday to even get a BFP since I was only 12 DPO. Today is 13 DPO. Should I consider it still a positive and that the test was very sensitive or should I consider it a negative? I'm so lost and scared now. Please help.


:hug
that does sound very odd. Were they all different brands? I agree, test tomorrow.

move me to waiting to O I'm going to try and get Dh's swimmers tested soon, now that the met has regulated my cycles

[yummymummy2hannah]

Thanks everyone. Yes, they were different brands (I had a stash. lol)
I am feeling so very pregnant today and really think I should go with the positive. I bought two more tests today and will take one tomorrow with FMP.

My period was due on Thursday. Today I am feeling typically pregnant. I'm tired, nausious, and sensitive to smells and no appetite.
The BFP was so very positive. I am thinking it was just a super good one at detecting early HCG. I'm only on day 13DPO (I ovulate later in my cycle) but AF was due on Thurs.

[heatherh]

Yeah, I think you're going to have to test tomorrow. Hopefully it was just an inadequate test. Tis a good sign that you feel pg right now. What brands do you have left? Make sure you use the best one tomorrow am.

[momoftworedheads]

Welcome to Joeys mom and Melissa. I am sorry for your losses and hope that you find comfort here.

Chel -I moved you. There is a home test you can do for sperm count and motility. I think you can even purchase it at local drugstores.

Take care!

Jen

[yummymummy2hannah]

I am pretty sure I had a "chemical pregnancy". I started spotting today and have cramps. I guess it could be implantation bleeding, but for some reason I really feel strongly this is AF/miscarriage coming. I was only 4 weeks along.
Strangly, I'm really okay. I'm not terribly upset. I know this happens to soooo many women. I once heard something like 80% of all pregnancies end in a miscarriage and most of those are "chemical pregnancies" where the woman didn't even know she was pregnant but just though her period was "late".
I think the next 2 days will tell me if it's really a miscarriage or implantation bleeding.
Anyways, I'm really embarrassed I said anything on here. I should have waited longer. I will be trying again though.

[veganmama719]

yummymummy2hannah, fingers crossed for you.............

[momoftworedheads]

yummymummy2hanna -

hoping and praying that this is implantation for you.
Please let us know. Take care!

Jen

[MommyinMN]

I am pretty sure I had a "chemical pregnancy". I started spotting today and have cramps. I guess it could be implantation bleeding, but for some reason I really feel strongly this is AF/miscarriage coming. I was only 4 weeks along.
Strangly, I'm really okay. I'm not terribly upset. I know this happens to soooo many women. I once heard something like 80% of all pregnancies end in a miscarriage and most of those are "chemical pregnancies" where the woman didn't even know she was pregnant but just though her period was "late".
I think the next 2 days will tell me if it's really a miscarriage or implantation bleeding.
Anyways, I'm really embarrassed I said anything on here. I should have waited longer. I will be trying again though.

I am hoping for the best for you. I had a chemical pregnancy last cycle. I had several faint positives then a "positive" blood test but at that point my HCG was 7. A few days later I started bleeding. I hope this is not what is happening for you.
:fingersx:

Me: Can you move me to waiting to know please? Our timing wasn't great this cycle but at least my body seems to somewhat back to normal.

[momoftworedheads]

I am pretty sure I had a "chemical pregnancy". I started spotting today and have cramps. I guess it could be implantation bleeding, but for some reason I really feel strongly this is AF/miscarriage coming. I was only 4 weeks along.
Strangly, I'm really okay. I'm not terribly upset. I know this happens to soooo many women. I once heard something like 80% of all pregnancies end in a miscarriage and most of those are "chemical pregnancies" where the woman didn't even know she was pregnant but just though her period was "late".
I think the next 2 days will tell me if it's really a miscarriage or implantation bleeding.
Anyways, I'm really embarrassed I said anything on here. I should have waited longer. I will be trying again though.

Don't ever worry about what you post here. We are all here to help and support one another. Please take care and update us when you can.

Hugs!
Jen

[apmama2myboo]

good morning, ladies :)

nothing great to report here. waiting to O and still getting over a cold (which moved to my chest, joy) and then yesterday from the coughing i pulled a problem spot in my back (years ago i hurt it when i fell on the ice, and it flares up at least once a year from either another fall or something). So I was going to start working out again today and now I can't, which irritates me. I miss kickboxing. Got a wedding this coming weekend out of town (SIL), and dd is a flower girl and dh is a groomsman, so i will be busy helping and keeping my dd in line and on task. Rehearsal dinner is friday, so we'll be taking off Friday morning. Should be a fun party. I already have my dress and heeled boots to wear, and I knit myself a shawl to keep warm ;)

other than that, nothing new here. just the back injury. Hope to see a bunch of BFP's in here, i need inspiration ;)

[RABITGRL]

Hi everyone.

yummymummy :hug

apmama hope you are feeling better soon.

:wave Welcome new members

I'm still waiting to O. I'm thinking in the next few days. I've been kind of stressed lately with work and school. Because of school dh and I will take a break from trying if we don't make a baby by next month. :fingersx: hoping this is the month.

:stillheart: and best wishes to you all

[heatherh]

yummymummy2hannah - Thinking of you! :hug

MommyinMN - I'm glad to hear your body's getting back to normal. That's good news. :fingersx:


still getting over a cold (which moved to my chest, joy) and then yesterday from the coughing i pulled a problem spot in my back (years ago i hurt it when i fell on the ice, and it flares up at least once a year from either another fall or something). Well, yuck! I hope you're feeling better before the wedding festivities get going.

Because of school dh and I will take a break from trying if we don't make a baby by next month. :fingersx: hoping this is the month.I'm hoping, too :fingersx:

[veganmama719]

Hey ladies, to swamped at work for a long post today but thinking of you all.

Redjen, it looks like I can be moved to waiting to know, please and thanks.
I am not loving our timing though, I generally get PG if we DTD the day before O.

[skybluepink02]

Hi guys,

I have been reading here, but not posting as much lately as I move over to the Pregnancy after Loss thread. I just wanted to let you guys know that I've hit the second trimester! I am now 13 weeks! I am finally starting to feel a bit more hopeful that these babies will stick around. I look forward to seeing all of you in the PAL thread soon!

[momoftworedheads]

Hi guys,

I have been reading here, but not posting as much lately as I move over to the Pregnancy after Loss thread. I just wanted to let you guys know that I've hit the second trimester! I am now 13 weeks! I am finally starting to feel a bit more hopeful that these babies will stick around. I look forward to seeing all of you in the PAL thread soon!

Congrats to making it to the 2nd tri!!!! Grow babies grow!!!

So excited for you!

Take care,
Jen

[Katica]

Hi guys,

I have been reading here, but not posting as much lately as I move over to the Pregnancy after Loss thread. I just wanted to let you guys know that I've hit the second trimester! I am now 13 weeks! I am finally starting to feel a bit more hopeful that these babies will stick around. I look forward to seeing all of you in the PAL thread soon!

Wow, so exciting :joy:

Me: I had my post m/c follow-up appointment yesterday. My body is doing fine, everything looks good. Now if I can just wait until next month..:irked:

[yummymummy2hannah]

I am waiting to O now. I lost my pregnancy, it was a "chemical pregnancy". Can you please remove my name from the Pregnant congrats list. Thanks.

[RABITGRL]

skybluepink glad the pregnancy is going well for you. So happy about your little ones, twins are exciting!

heatherh thanks for the :fingersx: How are you doing? I'm so excited for you and your wee one!

yummymummy thinking of you :Hug

Katica glad the appointment went well, best wishes too you for your next cycle.

Well I'm still waiting to O, but I did get my first +opk yesterday. This is my first time using opks. Theres something really satisfying about getting a positive, even though it's just an opk.

[heatherh]

yummymummy2hannah - :hug

Katica - Glad to hear things are OK physically. Did your doc recommend waiting a month to TTC? Is that why you're :irked:?

Well I'm still waiting to O, but I did get my first +opk yesterday. This is my first time using opks. Theres something really satisfying about getting a positive, even though it's just an opk.:lol Yeap, at least *something's* turning positive that way!

I'm doing good so far. Different than previous pg. I swear my bbs grew faster, but maybe I'm just remembering wrong. I suspect I'll upsize in the next week or so. Just a few vague waves of nausea so far at 5.5 weeks. Scared and all that but trying to remain positive as we wait and see.

[MommyinMN]

Wow, so exciting :joy:

Me: I had my post m/c follow-up appointment yesterday. My body is doing fine, everything looks good. Now if I can just wait until next month..:irked:

I'm sorry you have to wait one more cycle. Is there a reason you are waiting or just trying to have a little more time after your loss? Either way, it sucks.

I am waiting to O now. I lost my pregnancy, it was a "chemical pregnancy". Can you please remove my name from the Pregnant congrats list. Thanks.

:hug



I'm doing good so far. Different than previous pg. I swear my bbs grew faster, but maybe I'm just remembering wrong. I suspect I'll upsize in the next week or so. Just a few vague waves of nausea so far at 5.5 weeks. Scared and all that but trying to remain positive as we wait and see.

:fingersx: I hope your LO continues to grow.


Well I'm still waiting to O, but I did get my first +opk yesterday. This is my first time using opks. Theres something really satisfying about getting a positive, even though it's just an opk.

There is something exciting about a bright pink/blue line...it doesn't matter if it is a OPK or a HPT.

Hi guys,

I have been reading here, but not posting as much lately as I move over to the Pregnancy after Loss thread. I just wanted to let you guys know that I've hit the second trimester! I am now 13 weeks! I am finally starting to feel a bit more hopeful that these babies will stick around. I look forward to seeing all of you in the PAL thread soon!

:joy: Congrats on making it to the second trimester!

[momoftworedheads]

I am waiting to O now. I lost my pregnancy, it was a "chemical pregnancy". Can you please remove my name from the Pregnant congrats list. Thanks.

I am so sorry mama! :hugs. I have moved you.

Take care and hugs!
Jen

[Katica]

I am waiting to O now. I lost my pregnancy, it was a "chemical pregnancy". Can you please remove my name from the Pregnant congrats list. Thanks.

I`m so sorry :Hug I remember it was so hard to ask for my name to be removed from the success stories. I hope and pray that this is your month..


Well I'm still waiting to O, but I did get my first +opk yesterday. This is my first time using opks. Theres something really satisfying about getting a positive, even though it's just an opk.

Yes, anything positive is exciting at this point :thumb

I'm doing good so far. Different than previous pg. I swear my bbs grew faster, but maybe I'm just remembering wrong. I suspect I'll upsize in the next week or so. Just a few vague waves of nausea so far at 5.5 weeks. Scared and all that but trying to remain positive as we wait and see.

My boobs grew so little with ds that I didn`t need to buy new bras. Every pregnancy is different..don`t worry :)

Me: I was told to wait a couple of months before trying but since my appointment went so well I thought they would say it`s OK to try sooner. Nope. I was told if I try too soon I could lose that pregnancy as well. That`s not the kind of guilt I`d like to have if I miscarry. My body is still taking it`s sweet time to O. I`ll be better once my O date is passed and I can`t do anything about getting pregnant this month. I`ve been too depressed to even visit the TTC boards on MDC. Save for a few people everyone got pregnant already and have moved on. Do you ladies get jealous sometimes??

[SimplyRochelle]

I'd like to be removed from the list.

I am putting myself first for a while. Try and find myself first. I feel too lost right now to think about starting a family. Thank you guys for your support over the past few weeks. It would have been much more difficult without you.

[BlissfullyLoving]

Me: I was told to wait a couple of months before trying but since my appointment went so well I thought they would say it`s OK to try sooner. Nope. I was told if I try too soon I could lose that pregnancy as well. That`s not the kind of guilt I`d like to have if I miscarry. My body is still taking it`s sweet time to O. I`ll be better once my O date is passed and I can`t do anything about getting pregnant this month. I`ve been too depressed to even visit the TTC boards on MDC. Save for a few people everyone got pregnant already and have moved on. Do you ladies get jealous sometimes??:hug Yup, got/get jealous. How can you not when it seems like it is happening for everyone else except you? :hug


nothing great to report here. waiting to O and still getting over a cold (which moved to my chest, joy) and then yesterday from the coughing i pulled a problem spot in my back (years ago i hurt it when i fell on the ice, and it flares up at least once a year from either another fall or something). So I was going to start working out again today and now I can't, which irritates me. I miss kickboxing. Got a wedding this coming weekend out of town (SIL), and dd is a flower girl and dh is a groomsman, so i will be busy helping and keeping my dd in line and on task. Rehearsal dinner is friday, so we'll be taking off Friday morning. Should be a fun party. I already have my dress and heeled boots to wear, and I knit myself a shawl to keep warm ;)

other than that, nothing new here. just the back injury. Hope to see a bunch of BFP's in here, i need inspiration ;)Hope you feel better soon. :hug Have fun at the wedding!

I am waiting to O now. I lost my pregnancy, it was a "chemical pregnancy". Can you please remove my name from the Pregnant congrats list. Thanks.:Hug I am so sorry.

I'd like to be removed from the list.

I am putting myself first for a while. Try and find myself first. I feel too lost right now to think about starting a family. Thank you guys for your support over the past few weeks. It would have been much more difficult without you.:Hug You are in my thoughts!

me: 5 weeks! I am not posting much here, but keeping up on all of you. You are in my thoughts.

[threadbey]

Hi. Is it ok if I lurk for a while rather than actually joining?

I am pretty sure I had a "chemical pregnancy"....
Anyways, I'm really embarrassed I said anything on here. I should have waited longer. I will be trying again though.

Please don't be embarrassed. I love the forums here because I can just express myself and get some support but not worry really what anyone will think of me. I'm pretty sure I had a chemical pregnancy a year before I got pg with my son (healthy, happy, 1.5 yrs old now :)). It was really hard for me. I didn't take a test until too late and never got a positive. But I had really really strong symptoms for the few days my period was late and then continuing for pretty much the whole month after that until my next period. I was so nauseous I had to stay home. And I had no explanation. I felt I couldn't grieve a loss because I had no "proof" I had ever been pg (and because I thought I might possibly still be pg until that 2nd period). And I didn't tell anyone (except dh, obviously, and my parents because I was so sick). I did go to the doctor but they could only tell me that I wasn't pg and gently imply that the symptoms might be in my head (at any rate, they had no explanation for me). :eyesroll And to top it off dh and I hadn't decided to ttc yet, although I really wanted to, and we weren't in a position to given how our lives were at the time, so I couldn't try again for a long time and I was very sad about it (and JEALOUS when my younger sister got pg with her second *accident* a few months later!). Thankfully, the next year things changed and I got pg very quickly and everything was fine and my son has a great cousin only 4 months older. :) (My 8 wk loss this week has shaken my confidence again, though. :gloomy:) Anyway, I just wanted to share that in the hopes it might help you a little. Just because a pg was "only" chemical doesn't mean you can't be upset. You still knew you were pg and you were still excited and you still were thinking about a baby coming at a particular time and all that. :Hug

[apmama2myboo]

yummymummy, a big :hug to you, please know you're not alone. i'm here, too, waiting to O. and we're both artists. good company :) i'd like to see your work btw, if you have any online. mine is here if you're interested: http://darkestartist.redbubble.com/

been sick as a dog with this cold...back is still tweaked but getting better. got that wedding this weekend and we're taking off Friday morning for that. trying my best to chill out and rest so i can be better. dd still has a bad cough as well, so getting a 4 1/2 year old to rest and chill out is NOT an easy thing to do...but i'm trying my hardest :)

[yummymummy2hannah]

Just because a pg was "only" chemical doesn't mean you can't be upset. You still knew you were pg and you were still excited and you still were thinking about a baby coming at a particular time and all that. :Hug:Hug
Thank you. I needed to hear that. I was just starting to accept that I was truly pregnant the day my bleeding started. My sister then had her baby the very next morning and we were due at the same time. I feel like right now I'm mourning my due time of my son who should be in my arms now or in my arms soon and the loss of the baby I never even got to feel inside my womb. Honestly just yesterday all the grief from the chemical pregnancy made face. I feel like I'm walking around with a dark cloud over my head and that I have to pretend to be okay. No one at work even knew I was pregnant and I don't want anyone to know. I have to smile, pretend to be okay and try to work. I really just want to go home to bed and not deal with life at all. :gloomy::loss

[veganmama719]

I am sorry to be a downer today.

My EDD for my first loss was yesterday. My children's caregiver left the country for 5 weeks yesterday too and I am struggling to juggle our alternate arrangements. I left my 4 year old sobbing at my friend's house this morning.
My high maintenance parents arrived for a 2 week visit yesterday too.
Plus work sucks! (I am a wealth manager).

I am feeling very sorry for myself today.

[BlissfullyLoving]

I am sorry to be a downer today.

My EDD for my first loss was yesterday. My children's caregiver left the country for 5 weeks yesterday too and I am struggling to juggle our alternate arrangements. I left my 4 year old sobbing at my friend's house this morning.
My high maintenance parents arrived for a 2 week visit yesterday too.
Plus work sucks! (I am a wealth manager).

I am feeling very sorry for myself today.
:Hug I am so sorry. I found my due month so difficult to get through. It sounds like you have a lot going on right now. Any way to take a little vacation time at work (probably not with the craziness) and just relax with dd for a few days. Are your parents staying with you? If so, maybe you can not tell them you are taking some vacation days and spend the days elsewhere with dd. I am thinking of you and keeping you in peace and light. :Hug

[apmama2myboo]

vegan, hang in there. sounds like things can only get better, and i hope they do, soon. :hug

[MommyinMN]

I am sorry to be a downer today.

My EDD for my first loss was yesterday. My children's caregiver left the country for 5 weeks yesterday too and I am struggling to juggle our alternate arrangements. I left my 4 year old sobbing at my friend's house this morning.
My high maintenance parents arrived for a 2 week visit yesterday too.
Plus work sucks! (I am a wealth manager).

I am feeling very sorry for myself today.

Hang in there! :hug

[Kayda's Mom]

BlissfullyLoving,

I haven't been on here much....just trying to divert my attention from the obvious...

but I just saw your ticker...HIGH FIVE!!!
Congratulations *hugs*

[BlissfullyLoving]

BlissfullyLoving,

I haven't been on here much....just trying to divert my attention from the obvious...

but I just saw your ticker...HIGH FIVE!!!
Congratulations *hugs*
Thanks! :love

[momoftworedheads]

I'd like to be removed from the list.

I am putting myself first for a while. Try and find myself first. I feel too lost right now to think about starting a family. Thank you guys for your support over the past few weeks. It would have been much more difficult without you.

All the best to you! Please take care.

Jen

[momoftworedheads]

I am sorry to be a downer today.

My EDD for my first loss was yesterday. My children's caregiver left the country for 5 weeks yesterday too and I am struggling to juggle our alternate arrangements. I left my 4 year old sobbing at my friend's house this morning.
My high maintenance parents arrived for a 2 week visit yesterday too.
Plus work sucks! (I am a wealth manager).

I am feeling very sorry for myself today.

Thinking of you today. Take care and best of luck with all you are doing. I wish I could give you some help and a hug IRL. Here's a virtual hug :hug for you.

Huge hugs,
Jen

[Prism]

:(Please put me in the in our thoughts category with 3 angels now, since I am waiting to miscarry twins. I am a "missed miscarriage" since they are gone but nothing has happened yet.

I am done. I am going to be 40 soon and am calling it quits. I have 2 beautiful children to raise and am going to concentrate on that.

I will probably continue to mostly lurk here, but thank you all for your support.

Much love.
Prism

[Katica]

:(Please put me in the in our thoughts category with 3 angels now, since I am waiting to miscarry twins. I am a "missed miscarriage" since they are gone but nothing has happened yet.

I am done. I am going to be 40 soon and am calling it quits. I have 2 beautiful children to raise and am going to concentrate on that.

I will probably continue to mostly lurk here, but thank you all for your support.

Much love.
Prism

I`m so sorry for your loss. :Hug

[momoftworedheads]

:(Please put me in the in our thoughts category with 3 angels now, since I am waiting to miscarry twins. I am a "missed miscarriage" since they are gone but nothing has happened yet.

I am done. I am going to be 40 soon and am calling it quits. I have 2 beautiful children to raise and am going to concentrate on that.

I will probably continue to mostly lurk here, but thank you all for your support.

Much love.
Prism

I am so sorry. Please take care. :hugs

Light and love,
Jen

[momoftworedheads]

Hello all,

I have updated the first post. If there are any other changes, please let me know. It has been pretty quiet and it seems that some of us have been having a tough week. :hugs :hugs
Lots of love and hugs to everyone! Please take care and let me know if there is anything I can do. (pray, hold you in my thoughts, send you special vibes, etc).

Take care,
Jen

[Katica]

Thanks Jen, you are so sweet. :love I`ve been having a tough week. I feel like an emotional basketcase. The emotional ups and downs are killing me. One day I`m fine and the next..I`m avoiding everyone in plain sight. We are still on hold with TTC until next month and my body just doesn`t want to O already. I`ve been having a LOT of EWCM for a week or so and it just doesn`t want to happen. I guess, I really am waiting for Flo so we can try again. Is there an *impatient* category?:o

[momoftworedheads]

threadbey - Welcome. Lurk or post all you need. I am sorry you had to join us but glad you are here with us. We will support you and listen, do whatever you need to here.

Prism - lots and lots of love to you. Please take care of yourself.

Blissfullyloving - great to "see you"! I am so excited for you, Happy 5 weeks! Almost 1/2 of the 1st tri down!!!!!
Keep growing that baby mama!!!!!

Heatherh - how are you doing?

Has anyone seen Kimberly or Olerica? They have both been too quiet. I now someone posted about Olerica, I hope she is ok.

Take care!!!!

Jen

[momoftworedheads]

Thanks Jen, you are so sweet. :love I`ve been having a tough week. I feel like an emotional basketcase. The emotional ups and downs are killing me. One day I`m fine and the next..I`m avoiding everyone in plain sight. We are still on hold with TTC until next month and my body just doesn`t want to O already. I`ve been having a LOT of EWCM for a week or so and it just doesn`t want to happen. I guess, I really am waiting for Flo so we can try again. Is there an *impatient* category?:o


I'll keep you in my thoughts! I know that this is such a roller coaster to be on. Maybe we should add a waiting for Flo category to the 1st page (not trying to upset anyone but it might be a consideration).

I think most of us are impatient about the process after a loss. I know I am, I'll admit it.

light and love!
Jen

[BlissfullyLoving]

:(Please put me in the in our thoughts category with 3 angels now, since I am waiting to miscarry twins. I am a "missed miscarriage" since they are gone but nothing has happened yet.

I am done. I am going to be 40 soon and am calling it quits. I have 2 beautiful children to raise and am going to concentrate on that.

I will probably continue to mostly lurk here, but thank you all for your support.

Much love.
Prism:Hug I am so sorry for your losses.

Thanks Jen, you are so sweet. :love I`ve been having a tough week. I feel like an emotional basketcase. The emotional ups and downs are killing me. One day I`m fine and the next..I`m avoiding everyone in plain sight. We are still on hold with TTC until next month and my body just doesn`t want to O already. I`ve been having a LOT of EWCM for a week or so and it just doesn`t want to happen. I guess, I really am waiting for Flo so we can try again. Is there an *impatient* category?:o:Hug


Has anyone seen Kimberly or Olerica? They have both been too quiet. I now someone posted about Olerica, I hope she is ok. I talked with Olerica today, and she is doing good. She seems at peace and happy. Hopefully she will pop in to say hello.

[RABITGRL]

Prism~ So sorry :hug Sending you lots of love :Hug

Vegan~Thinking of you. Sorry things are so rough for you right now.

Apmama~ Hope you are feeling 100% soon. That cold needs to leave you alone already!

Katica~ Sending you O/AF vibes :goodvibes:

Welcome Threadbey,:hug sorry for your loss.

Bliss~ So nice to hear from you, glad everything is going well:love

Momoftworedheads~ Thanks for the love and hugs. Can you please move me to waiting to know.Thanks and love too you.

[apmama2myboo]

:hug Prism, I am so sorry. I am happy you have two beautiful children to focus your energy on. I know it doesn't make it any easier to endure, but they are wonderful.

vegan, i hope your day is better today. hell, i think all of us need a better day to happen!

today i'm going to make some blueberry muffins and zucchini bread. Tomorrow morning we're leaving town for the wedding and going to be living at a hotel for the weekend due to my SIL's wedding, and I need to have some decent snacks around. dd and I both got trims last night. My cold is on the way out and my back is feeling better, so today i'm working out and getting stuff done around here. Woke up at 3 and couldn't sleep again til after 4...insomnia is still the monkey on my back lately but I'm dealing with it. Glad that AF will be gone so we can swim in the pool at the hotel :)

hope you all have a GREAT day. and i mean that, because we all NEED it. life has been too crappy to too many of us, and it's time for that to end NOW.

[heatherh]

Oh, Prism I am so so sorry to hear about your twins. Lots of :hug

Ladies, I'm doing just fine! 5w5d and last night I got up 4 times to pee. Once was right after I went to bed and got comfy.

[MommyinMN]

:(Please put me in the in our thoughts category with 3 angels now, since I am waiting to miscarry twins. I am a "missed miscarriage" since they are gone but nothing has happened yet.

I am done. I am going to be 40 soon and am calling it quits. I have 2 beautiful children to raise and am going to concentrate on that.

I will probably continue to mostly lurk here, but thank you all for your support.

Much love.
Prism

I am so very sorry for the loss of your twins. Take care of yourself. :hug

[dani76]

Can I be moved to waiting to know please?

Hugs to all that need them, and high fives for those that need them too!

[Olerica]

:(Please put me in the in our thoughts category with 3 angels now, since I am waiting to miscarry twins. I am a "missed miscarriage" since they are gone but nothing has happened yet.

I am done. I am going to be 40 soon and am calling it quits. I have 2 beautiful children to raise and am going to concentrate on that.

I will probably continue to mostly lurk here, but thank you all for your support.

Much love.
Prism
Prism, I'm so sorry about your twins... and you too. :Hug

Has anyone seen Kimberly or Olerica? They have both been too quiet. I now someone posted about Olerica, I hope she is ok.

Take care!!!!

Jen

I'm not around much. It's funny that I stopped in today. Things are going well. I'm doing acupuncture and am really enjoying it - my stress level has reduced so much it's like I'm not even TTC. I'd recommend it to anyone. In general, life is good. I'm hoping/praying/expecting sticky BFPs for each of us who is seeking them and :joy: to those of us expecting.

[momoftworedheads]

Oh, Prism I am so so sorry to hear about your twins. Lots of :hug

Ladies, I'm doing just fine! 5w5d and last night I got up 4 times to pee. Once was right after I went to bed and got comfy.


So good to hear from you! Happy almost 6 weeks! Please take care!


Olerica - Good to "see you" too! I will have to PM you sometime about the acupuncture if you do not mind. Lots of love to you!

Jen

[veganmama719]

Hi ladies, my 3.5 year old cousin Finn died of cancer last night. So that puts pretty much all the other stuff I was whining about earlier this week in perspective.

[BlissfullyLoving]

Hi ladies, my 3.5 year old cousin Finn died of cancer last night. So that puts pretty much all the other stuff I was whining about earlier this week in perspective.:Hug I am so sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts. Love, light and peace to all of you. :Hug

[heatherh]

Hi ladies, my 3.5 year old cousin Finn died of cancer last night. So that puts pretty much all the other stuff I was whining about earlier this week in perspective.

That is just so incredibly sad. I'll keep your family in my thoughts. What an awful week for you. :hug

[dani76]

Hi ladies, my 3.5 year old cousin Finn died of cancer last night. So that puts pretty much all the other stuff I was whining about earlier this week in perspective.

I'm so very sorry for your family's loss.

[MommyinMN]

Hi ladies, my 3.5 year old cousin Finn died of cancer last night. So that puts pretty much all the other stuff I was whining about earlier this week in perspective.

I am so sorry for the loss of your cousin. :hug

Dh's cousin's 2 yr. daughter has been fighting stomach cancer for since June. My heart goes out to your family.

[veganmama719]

I am so sorry for the loss of your cousin. :hug

Dh's cousin's 2 yr. daughter has been fighting stomach cancer for since June. My heart goes out to your family.

Thank you ladies for all your support. It is very hard, we considered him our nephew. I cannot even fathom what his parents and siblings are going through.

MoomyinMN, I am so sorry your DH's cousin's LO is going through this. I wish her and her family all the best and hope she comes through this, it is devestating.

[MommyinMN]

Thank you ladies for all your support. It is very hard, we considered him our nephew. I cannot even fathom what his parents and siblings are going through.

MoomyinMN, I am so sorry your DH's cousin's LO is going through this. I wish her and her family all the best and hope she comes through this, it is devestating.

Thank-you. It is so unfair that LO's have to sufffer. I said a prayer for Finn and his family.

[momoftworedheads]

Hi ladies, my 3.5 year old cousin Finn died of cancer last night. So that puts pretty much all the other stuff I was whining about earlier this week in perspective.


I am so sorry! Praying for your families. Please take care.

Jen

[east carolina]

veganmama719 and MommyinMN Big hugs to all of your los during this sad time. You will be in my thoughts

I'm sorry I haven't been around much on this thread. I o'ed this week, it was so satisfying to see my temp spike. We` dtd about three days pre-o, so we'll see if anything comes of it. Even if I don't end up becoming pregnant, I am so overjoyed that I actually o'ed, because I was a bit fearful that I've been having anovulatory cycles since I was diagnosed with ovarian cysts on both sides, which I decided to take care of with acupuncture (Olerica I know of what you speak!) and castor oil packs. I also dumped my gyno, with whom I was very dissatisfied and haven't been back to see if the cysts are gone. But my chart seems to prove that everything is alright with me.

[RABITGRL]

Just checking in. Hope everyone is doing ok, there's not a lot of action around here lately. How is everybody?

Vegan :hug so sorry about your loss, you and your family are in my thoughts.

Mommyinmn :hug thinking of you and your family.

Dani 76 and East Carolina :fingersx: hope you caught those eggs.

afm doing pretty good :shy

[zejh]

Just checking in. Hope everyone is doing ok, there's not a lot of action around here lately. How is everybody?
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I'm doing pretty well. (haven't really said anything since I first introduced myself) My cycle so far this month has been a combination of perfectly normal and kinda-wonky... If we managed to get the timing right this month, that'd be great, but I'm not going to worry if it doesn't happen just yet. (Especially since dh is just finally getting over a nasty case of the flu, and wasn't feeling up to much of anything for over a week.) That said, in the past few months it seems like half the people I knew in high school and college have been having babies, and I'm still feeling a little impatient about getting my turn, y'know?

[yummymummy2hannah]

Hello ladies,
I haven't been around in a few days, but wanted to pop in. We went camping this weekend which was great fun.
I have been dealing with some uncontrollable emotions since I lost my 2nd little one last week. I started seeing a grief counselor last week and I hope that helps. I also plan to join a group in my town of moms who have lost a baby or pregnancy loss. I am really at a low point right now. I am safe to say I am depressed.

[east carolina]

yummumummy2hannah :hug Sending you healing vibes. The time after a miscarriage is so hard. I am really at peace with my last failed pregnancy. te fact that things didn't work out doesn't upset me, but the emotions after the actual physical loss were really strong and it took me a long time to feel normal again. I think having someone to talk to is a great idea and am keeping my fingers crossed that you click with your grief counselor.

I'm just chilling, temping every morning, still riding on the happy feeling that I ovulated, a bfp would be like the proverbial icing on the cake.

[heatherh]

yummymummy2hannah - I just wanted to say that what you're experiencing is totally normal. I'm glad you're taking steps to help yourself work through this very difficult experience. We're here for you, too and things *do* get better in time. :hug

[apmama2myboo]

so sorry to see so much sad news on here. i hope you are all doing better now and your families heal.

just a quick update, here. we had my SIL's wedding out of town, and it went well but i was still sick. went into the doc this morning and he put me on zithromax, flovent, and albuterol so i can breathe better. i've never had inhalers before. i am hoping i can finally kick whatever this is and get better. thinking of you all and off to go rest. take care, ladies :hugs to all of you

[SarahDC]

Hugs to all today - some days are just so hard. I'm so grateful for this board of supportive friends who actually totally understand what you're feeling (unfortunately).

yummymummy2hannah I am so, so sorry for your loss. I am so glad though that you've recognized your depression and you're seeking help - that's the absolute best thing you can do for yourself & your little one.

Still waiting to O here, day 20 and I usually O at 21. I'm temping and doing the OPK's every evening at 8 pm, no positive yet. Last time, we got pregnant the first cycle I started using OPK's because we were able to really time it right (I am pretty irregular). I am just hoping that I do O this cycle, so soon after the miscarriage. I've had 2 periods since, but they were very crazy - not sure if I O'd.

Again hugs to all - wishing you peace this week.

[momoftworedheads]

It's been so quiet here!

APmama2myboo - I really hope you are feeling better!!!!
Sending you tons of healing vibes!

To anyone who is Oing - enjoy the BDing!

To anyone who is in the 2WW - lots of BFP vibes to you!

To anyone who is testing - BFP vibes to you as well!

To everyone who needs it - a :hug and lots of :love to you!

Hugs and good thoughts,
Jen

[veganmama719]

Sorry Jen, I am here, just haven't felt like posting. But I am reading and wishing you all well.

The only good thing about how lousy everything has been the last little while is that I am not focussed on my cycle. I am either 11 DPO 0r 7 DPO and I don't really care so I am nont stressing about it.

[RABITGRL]

Hello ladies,
I haven't been around in a few days, but wanted to pop in. We went camping this weekend which was great fun.
I have been dealing with some uncontrollable emotions since I lost my 2nd little one last week. I started seeing a grief counselor last week and I hope that helps. I also plan to join a group in my town of moms who have lost a baby or pregnancy loss. I am really at a low point right now. I am safe to say I am depressed.
Glad you were able to go camping. I hope you get some comfort with the grief counselor. I'm so sorry you have to go through this :hug



Sorry Jen, I am here, just haven't felt like posting. But I am reading and wishing you all well.

The only good thing about how lousy everything has been the last little while is that I am not focussed on my cycle. I am either 11 DPO 0r 7 DPO and I don't really care so I am nont stressing about it.

Sounds like you have a positive attitude in spite of all your facing. I hope things get better for you soon :hug

Apmama~Get well soon :flowersforyou:

:hug s and :love to everyone! Good luck in your waiting to O or Waiting to know.

[Katica]

The only good thing about how lousy everything has been the last little while is that I am not focussed on my cycle. I am either 11 DPO 0r 7 DPO and I don't really care so I am nont stressing about it.
You are going through so much right now:Hug I hope the rest of this month will be less stressful.

Hello ladies,
I haven't been around in a few days, but wanted to pop in. We went camping this weekend which was great fun.
I have been dealing with some uncontrollable emotions since I lost my 2nd little one last week. I started seeing a grief counselor last week and I hope that helps. I also plan to join a group in my town of moms who have lost a baby or pregnancy loss. I am really at a low point right now. I am safe to say I am depressed.
:hug

I finally ovulated. It was later than usual, but then I`m not sure what *usual* is any more. We are not TTC this month but at least there is something to look forward to. We can try next cycle and that alone is making me happy. :p Just trying to figure out how to get rid of my annoying *what if`s*..

[yummymummy2hannah]

Hey everyone,
I hope everyone is doing well today. I am still waiting to O after my loss over a week ago. I hope this time it's a sticky baby. I am making myself NOT test this time until I am at least a week late. I can't handle anymore heart ache like the "chemical pregnancy" I just had. :(

[veganmama719]

Hi ladies, just bumping us up and sending some good wishes for you all. I am still waiting to know at 8 or 12 DPO but I am not that hopeful.

[MommyinMN]

Hi ladies, sorry I have been absent. Can you move me to Waiting to "O"? Today is CD1. I am a little bummed but my cycle does seem to be regular now so I am thankful for that. I though my CP in September would screw everything up but it seems like it didn't.

Big hugs to everyone and I will make a better effort to check in daily.

[RABITGRL]

Hi everyone.
Today I'm 7dpo and an anxious mess, I really want this to be the month. My cycles are usually around 30 days so that would make af late on monday or so. I really don't think I can wait that long to test. I have a really positive feeling about this cycle, but I hope I'm not setting myself up for a big disapointment.

I hope you are all doing well. Sending you love and positive thoughts :blowkiss:

[dani76]

Your chart looks good. :) Rather than the cycle days being the same, your number of post-o days should be about the same. So, your cycle could be longer because you o'ed later in the month.

I am 8-11dpo, I have no idea. I didn't opk this month. We dtd plenty, so we'll see. I only have one fallopian tube though, so even on the months when I time it really well I could O on the other side. Grrr....

[zejh]

It looks like I ovulated maybe a week ago... Today I had some very light spotting, but I'm not sure if it means anything, or maybe I'll just get my period in a few days. I'm definitely going to wait a while before letting myself test--I think I'll set the end of the month as when I can think about testing...

[KinseysMom]

Waiting to O. Please keep us in your prayers...this is going to be so emotionally taxing. Kinsey will be with us.

[momoftworedheads]

Waiting to O. Please keep us in your prayers...this is going to be so emotionally taxing. Kinsey will be with us.


thinking of you and praying. :hugs


All changes have been made to here!

Hugs and Love to all,
Jen

[veganmama719]

Hi ladies, it seems many of us are having a tough time right now and it has been a little while since our last streak of BFPs on this thread.

So hopefully one will start soon!

I am either 9 DPO or 13 DPO. Usually I O CD 12/13 and I did get crosshairs then but then they got taken away and reappeared at CD 16. I never O that late but maybe it being the first cycle after m/c pushed it back? It didn't last time though, I o'd at a normal time back in March.

[yummymummy2hannah]

Waiting to O. Please keep us in your prayers...this is going to be so emotionally taxing. Kinsey will be with us. You are in my prayers. :hug

[RABITGRL]

Thinking of you Kinseysmom, and wishing you well :hug

[SarahDC]

Grrrr I am on day 23 with no signs of ovulation (temping/OPK). I have to leave tomorrow for a conference, without DH, so am dearly hoping to O today or tomorrow so that our BD'ing tonight will cover us... argh. I really hope I O this cycle.

[MommyinMN]

Waiting to O. Please keep us in your prayers...this is going to be so emotionally taxing. Kinsey will be with us.

Thinking of you. :hug

It looks like I ovulated maybe a week ago... Today I had some very light spotting, but I'm not sure if it means anything, or maybe I'll just get my period in a few days. I'm definitely going to wait a while before letting myself test--I think I'll set the end of the month as when I can think about testing...
:fingersx:

Hi everyone.
Today I'm 7dpo and an anxious mess, I really want this to be the month. My cycles are usually around 30 days so that would make af late on monday or so. I really don't think I can wait that long to test. I have a really positive feeling about this cycle, but I hope I'm not setting myself up for a big disapointment.

:fingersx:



I am either 9 DPO or 13 DPO. Usually I O CD 12/13 and I did get crosshairs then but then they got taken away and reappeared at CD 16. I never O that late but maybe it being the first cycle after m/c pushed it back? It didn't last time though, I o'd at a normal time back in March.

I O'd late after the chemical pregnancy last cycle so it could be a late O. M/c can really screw with your cycles.:(

Grrrr I am on day 23 with no signs of ovulation (temping/OPK). I have to leave tomorrow for a conference, without DH, so am dearly hoping to O today or tomorrow so that our BD'ing tonight will cover us... argh. I really hope I O this cycle.

:fingersx: that you O today or tomorrow!

Me: Just hanging on, trying to be positive about this cycle.

[zejh]

...

:fingersx:

...
Me: Just hanging on, trying to be positive about this cycle.

Alas, it looks like this is just my period. (We did kind of miss some crucial, um, "activity days" due to illness...) So, on to worrying about next month.

I'll keep the :fingersx: for then! And best of luck to everyone else!

[MommyinMN]

Alas, it looks like this is just my period. (We did kind of miss some crucial, um, "activity days" due to illness...) So, on to worrying about next month.

I'll keep the :fingersx: for then! And best of luck to everyone else!

We can be cycle buddies this cycle!

Best of luck to you!

[dani76]

I got a BFP last night! Well, more like a light positive but it was two lines. :) I'm not quite ready to go to a DDC yet, so I'll be hanging around here for a bit. Think sticky thoughts!

[Olerica]

:joy: :joy: :joy: Congrats Dani!! :joy: :joy: :joy:

Me? Oh yeah, I'm still waiting to O.

[heatherh]

Congrats dani76!!! Are you due in June or July? :carrot

[dani76]

Late June. Actually it's almost the same due date as my daughter. But she was born at 36 weeks.

[RABITGRL]

Congratulations dani76!!!!
Sending you lots of :sticky:sticky:sticky:sticky:sticky:sticky thoughts!
:joy::joy::joy::joy::joy::joy::joy::joy::joy::joy: :joy::joy::joy:

[momoftworedheads]

CONGRATS!!!

Wishing you a H&H 9 months!!!!!
:joy::joy::joy::jumpers::dust:carrot:broc::carrot: :balloons:-wool:-wool:-wool

Take care!
Jen


I got a BFP last night! Well, more like a light positive but it was two lines. :) I'm not quite ready to go to a DDC yet, so I'll be hanging around here for a bit. Think sticky thoughts!

[apmama2myboo]

way to go, Dani!!!! :joy::joy::joy::joy::joy:

I just hit O...still finishing up on meds for pnuemonia and bronchospasm so we'll ttc tomorrow night as that winds down....i hope to see a bunch more bfp's in here!
keep them coming!

[yummymummy2hannah]

Congrats Dani! :joy::joy::joy:

[momoftworedheads]

Hello all!

Lets see lots of BFP's soon! Anyone testing this weekend?

Lots of hugs to all who need them!

Take care,
Jen

[MommyinMN]

I got a BFP last night! Well, more like a light positive but it was two lines. :) I'm not quite ready to go to a DDC yet, so I'll be hanging around here for a bit. Think sticky thoughts!

YAY! :joy: Congrats!!!:joy:

[Guinevere]

Hi there, everyone,

I've been lurking a little on this thread, but thought I might dip my toe in, so to speak, and officially say hello. I hope you don't mind me rambling a little; I tend to do that... :o

Early last month -- I was 9 wks. along -- u/s revealed I had a blighted ovum. :( If not for the u/s (and some cramping which made me wonder and ask for it in the first place), I would not have known there was a problem. I waited another week to see if I would m/c on my own, but I didn't, still had all my pg symptoms, in fact, so I had a D&C.

At first, after finding out about the blighted ovum, both DH and I were pretty philosophical about our loss. It felt much more like the loss of an opportunity, the loss of a beautiful dream we had both wanted, than the loss of an actual child, since, after all, no baby had developed. But as more time passed and I had the D&C (which went fine, btw, almost no cramping or bleeding, which was surreal; in many ways, it felt like I'd imagined the whole pg) and yet STILL continued to feel pg (b/c the hcg wasn't fully gone), I began to feel alternately very sad and angry about the whole situation. To make matters worse, it's like DH went back to business as usual, emotionally, but I couldn't (and still can't). That's been hard, b/c he's always been my go-to person for emotional support.

Things came to a head last Friday, when we were supposed to take a family trip for the weekend to visit various friends we haven't seen for almost a year. One of them has a newborn baby. And I suddenly realized that I just couldn't handle that right now. :( But it took me completely melting down into a screaming, blubbering mess for DH to get the message that I'm really not doing that well. :irked: I didn't go, btw -- stayed home with my two youngest girls, while DH took the three older kiddos. And I can't manage to feel guilty about it, either. I'm actually impressed with myself that I put my foot down; I'm usually much more the type to "suck it up" and go through things that aren't good for me, rather than rock the boat.

On Tuesday, exactly 4 wks. after the D&C, I got AF, so I'm on CD4. That's been bittersweet -- I'm relieved that my body is finally getting back to normal, but it also means I need to come to terms with what is coming next -- TTC again. I desperately want to. But I'm now afraid to, which is new for me. And I don't particularly even like my DH right now, either, which isn't helping. :p I suspect you ladies can well understand my ambivalence.

According to my OB and hb MW, I should wait another full cycle before TTC again. I was wanting to get my progesterone levels checked, anyway, so I think it's good advice, but there's another part of me that is still so frustrated and angry at how much time is passing. I got pg in July and here it is October, four months later, but I'm not pg anymore, and have no idea when I might be again or if it will work out. And my bday is next month (37), which is just making me feel even older and more urgent about the whole thing. Ugh.

Looking back, I naively thought that the D&C would bring me closure. I didn't want to wait weeks "in limbo" with a non-viable pg, waiting to bleed; I wanted to move on. But closure is very elusive, I've found. Instead, you simply move on to another stage of "in limbo" -- waiting for AF. Then, it's waiting to O. Waiting for a +. And if you're lucky enough to get that +, it's waiting for signs that everything is okay. Or not. More time spent in limbo, holding your breath. It doesn't really ever end, does it? Do you ever get to let out your breath and sigh in relief, or does holding your breath become your new normal? I don't know; I just know that I'm here, holding my breath, turning blue, and am very confused.

Guin

[BlissfullyLoving]

I got a BFP last night! Well, more like a light positive but it was two lines. :) I'm not quite ready to go to a DDC yet, so I'll be hanging around here for a bit. Think sticky thoughts!
Congratulations!!! :jumpers::jumpers:

[dani76]

Thanks! I took this pic last night. (http://i148.photobucket.com/albums/s7/daniellejmarshall/Eleanor%20pics/100_2911.jpg) I think you can see the positive a little clearer. :)

[BlissfullyLoving]

Looking back, I naively thought that the D&C would bring me closure. I didn't want to wait weeks "in limbo" with a non-viable pg, waiting to bleed; I wanted to move on. But closure is very elusive, I've found. Instead, you simply move on to another stage of "in limbo" -- waiting for AF. Then, it's waiting to O. Waiting for a +. And if you're lucky enough to get that +, it's waiting for signs that everything is okay. Or not. More time spent in limbo, holding your breath. It doesn't really ever end, does it? Do you ever get to let out your breath and sigh in relief, or does holding your breath become your new normal? I don't know; I just know that I'm here, holding my breath, turning blue, and am very confused.

Guin
:hug I am so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the group. This is a great group of women.

I agree with you that after a loss we are forever in a state of limbo, and I thought that you articulated it so well. I am not sure if we ever get to exhale...maybe when this part of our life journey is over?

[heatherh]

Guinevere - I totally hear where you're coming from. Limbo is a state I'm quite familiar with. It sucks. I just want to say that what you're going through is totally normal. It pains me to think that I was originally "supposed" to have a baby in Aug 2007. With any luck, I'll have one in my arms next June. That *is* a long time to hold my breath. Emotionally, I don't think the type of m/c necessarily matters. A loss is a loss. :hug

[zejh]

Guinevere - I totally hear where you're coming from. Limbo is a state I'm quite familiar with. It sucks. I just want to say that what you're going through is totally normal. It pains me to think that I was originally "supposed" to have a baby in Aug 2007. With any luck, I'll have one in my arms next June. That *is* a long time to hold my breath. Emotionally, I don't think the type of m/c necessarily matters. A loss is a loss. :hug

"holding my breath"! That's what I've been trying to describe, I think. I thought I was doing well the past few weeks, and suddenly the past day or two, having my period again (along with the usual emotions I get this-time-of-month) it's all been rushing back to me, especially the fact that I have to wait that much longer... And I know I'm quibbling over details--I was barely more than 6 weeks along, so if things go smoothly this next month, it'll only be a 2 or 3 month difference from what it was "supposed" to be--early May vs late July, or something like that. Or maybe August. It's weird, though, how much I'd been thinking about having my first baby in the spring--that was actually the first thing that upset me. It's silly, isn't it?

[bdoody11]

Hi Everyone,

I'm sadly joining you after a miscarriage last week at 5w3d. My bleeding has dwindled to brown spotting so I would like to be added to Waiting to O.

I have a beautiful 20 month DD who is helping me through this by letting me squeeze her anytime I need a pick me up. :p

I'm going to follow up with an OB/GYN in a few weeks and hopefully get a 7 day progesterone test. I've had a short LP for a few years (but was able to conceive and carry my daughter to term) and I want to see if that could affect future TTC. I'm scared I won't get pregnant again, but also scared I could suffer another loss. Ah the emotional rollercoaster of TTC after loss!

Congratulations to Dani! Have a happy and healthy nine months!! :joy:

[bdoody11]

Thanks! I took this pic last night. (http://i148.photobucket.com/albums/s7/daniellejmarshall/Eleanor%20pics/100_2911.jpg) I think you can see the positive a little clearer. :)

:rotflmao

[dani76]

Well, I had to have fun with it. lol

I'm really sorry about your loss. Unfortunately, we've been there. Vent away. :hug

[Junegoddess]

(Ssshhh, I should not be here... I haven't pinned my dh down for that talk yet... but my IUD is gone now, so... anything could happen, right?)

I've had three losses and two living children. Our last loss was a stillbirth at 22 weeks, probably due to antiphospholipid antibody, and it has been such an incredibly long 10 months. During the pregnancy I actually said (I can't believe it now) that it would be our last pregnancy, no matter what. No matter if things went wrong. How stupid.

Right after we found out she had passed, I said I would probably not want another one. Dh agreed. Then I said I might, but not for at least 2 years. (I also found out about a host of very serious food allergies while pregnant, and felt a little beat up and sick... felt I needed a long time to recover.) Then I said at least one year.

10 months... and I've been whole-heartedly ready since May. But I'm waiting. Because last time I mentioned it to dh, he freaked out. He still felt done.

But now my IUD is out. And last night we had a nice, relaxing evening for a change, and even talked about baby names we'd like. Hmmm...

I'm sort of in a 2WW now... although I might not have ovulated yet...

I shouldn't be here. But I am. I'll just hide under the table if he comes in. :D

[yummymummy2hannah]

For those of you who are ovulating or close to it, how often are you trying to do the deed? I think I am Oing today. We DTD yesterday and 2 days before that. Do you do it daily, or every 2 or 3 days or what? I'm just curious? It's sooo difficult to slip away when you co sleep and have a teenager living with you.

[RABITGRL]

We dtd everyday, but not sure if this was successful. Lots of people believe in every other day. If you think you are Oing I would dtd today and tomorrow if you can. Hope this helps and good luck :thumb

[momoftworedheads]

For those of you who are ovulating or close to it, how often are you trying to do the deed? I think I am Oing today. We DTD yesterday and 2 days before that. Do you do it daily, or every 2 or 3 days or what? I'm just curious? It's sooo difficult to slip away when you co sleep and have a teenager living with you.


We try to follow the Sperm Meets Egg Plan (every other night from day 8 on)
However, we also co-sleep with our almost 4 yr old and that can make it difficult sometimes.

All the best to you!

Take care,
Jen

[momoftworedheads]

my cycle is strange this month. I was due for AF yesterday. I started spotting and then saw some red on TP in evening, figured Af would show today. Today however, have had no signs of it arriving. So it is just wait and see over here.

BFP vibes to anyone who is testing!

Take care ladies!

Jen

[famille_huggins]

Please move famille_huggins to Waiting to Know... thanks!

[yummymummy2hannah]

Please move me to Waiting to know. My O came early this month. I think last months chemical pregnancy changed my cycle up some.

[momoftworedheads]

Changes have ben made to here! What a quiet group this weekend!

Anyone have anything exciting to share????

Take care all!

Jen

[veganmama719]

Congratualtions Dani76! I am very excited for you!

Welcome to the newbies. I am sorry you all ahve a reason to be here but happy you found us.

RedJen, I can be moved to waiting to O please.

CD 2

[apmama2myboo]

can i please be moved to waiting to know? thanks!

so today i had a followup after my clinic visit last week for pnuemonia and bronchospasm, and i'm doing much better but still have a lingering cough that is slowly going away. the zithromax wiped out whatever it was that had plagued me. I've raked leaves for 3 days in a row now, rather ridiculous and not even done yet, but today I'll be working out and maybe bagging more leaves once I get a double-batch of salsa made and canned. dh has band practice tonight so once I get dd to bed I will try to get down to my studio and paint...that's about all my news. sick of being sick and getting sick and ready to be healthy already! we've been ttc since like March, and I'm getting really annoyed now.

welcome to newbies, sorry you're here but you'll love the ladies here; they're sweethearts.

[momoftworedheads]

Congratualtions Dani76! I am very excited for you!

Welcome to the newbies. I am sorry you all ahve a reason to be here but happy you found us.

RedJen, I can be moved to waiting to O please.

CD 2

Veganmama - We are cycle buddies, I am on CD 2 as well!!!!

Hopefully we can get BFP's together soon!

Take care!
Jen

[momoftworedheads]

Hello ladies!

apmama2myboo - hope you feel better soon and sending you lots of BFP dust!!!! I hope this is your month!!!

Veganmama719 - I am really not liking AF this month:angry

Take care all!

Jen

[KristaH]

Hi all! I have such a hard time keeping up with these long threads, but I'm thrilled to see so many BFPs since I last checked.

I tested yesterday and today. Yesterday's looked pretty darn negative to me, but today's, both dh and I thought we saw a faint line. I may wait a couple days to test again. AF is most certainly late.

It's been a weird cycle. I didn't even ovulate until day 34!! I'm more terrified knowing I am pregnant than I was before knowing. Does that make sense? I feel like, with my history of 2 miscarriages, my age (mid-30s), and a balanced translocation (genetic disorder from my husband's side), it seems only realistic to expect a miscarriage. Boy, am I ever "glass half empty".

I just am too cautious to be excited. And terrified to have more lost babies. :(

[momoftworedheads]

Krista - hoping for you that it is a sticky BFP! All this TTC and then the longing for a BFP then the hoping that the baby sticks. It does make it so much harder! Being PAL is tough!!!!

Take care and :hugs,
Jen

[Kayda's Mom]

I'm still kicking around. This is our first month of Clomid with the hopes of popping out two eggs to double our chances.
Got some bad news on Friday...
I have MS. I don't even know what else to say.

[KristaH]

I'm still kicking around. This is our first month of Clomid with the hopes of popping out two eggs to double our chances.
Got some bad news on Friday...
I have MS. I don't even know what else to say.

:hug I'm sorry about the MS. I hope you will find the right treatment for it. My dad had MS. It would flare up for years, but he hasn't had any symptoms of it for over 20 years now. Without medical treatment. There is hope.

And lots of good vibes for those eggs of yours, too. :)

[Kayda's Mom]

:hug I'm sorry about the MS. I hope you will find the right treatment for it. My dad had MS. It would flare up for years, but he hasn't had any symptoms of it for over 20 years now. Without medical treatment. There is hope.

And lots of good vibes for those eggs of yours, too. :)

thanks. That is exactly what I needed to hear. One of my first worries was that I would be told not to have any more children. Since I won't be taking any meds due to TTC I want to find out about nutrition and supplements.

Took my first Clomid pills last night while I was working a night shift. I was worried I would turn into a raving lunatic...LOL But to Jekyl/Hyde happened. Felt a bit sweaty when I went to bed this morning but not sure if that is related.

[heatherh]

I have MS. I don't even know what else to say.I don't either. Crap. :hug Well, in case it's encouraging to hear, my great grandmother lived in her 80s with MS and was mobile mostly on her own until the last couple of years.

[MommyinMN]

I'm still kicking around. This is our first month of Clomid with the hopes of popping out two eggs to double our chances.
Got some bad news on Friday...
I have MS. I don't even know what else to say.


:hug My aunt found out she has MS when she was in her mid 20's. She is now in her late 40's with two children. I know she has struggled but a lot of medical advances have been made in the past few years. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.



I tested yesterday and today. Yesterday's looked pretty darn negative to me, but today's, both dh and I thought we saw a faint line. I may wait a couple days to test again. AF is most certainly late.

I just am too cautious to be excited. And terrified to have more lost babies. :(

:fingersx: I hope you get a nice dark line!! Keep us posted!

[apmama2myboo]

kayda's...i'm sorry you have MS. that is bad news. but they're learning more all the time about it, and hopefully with the good things that Montel is doing along with others, they will make more advances.

nothing really new here, still recouperating, waiting in limbo and back into working out.

[BlissfullyLoving]

I'm still kicking around. This is our first month of Clomid with the hopes of popping out two eggs to double our chances.
Got some bad news on Friday...
I have MS. I don't even know what else to say.:Hug I am thinking of you.

[Kayda's Mom]

I don't either. Crap. :hug Well, in case it's encouraging to hear, my great grandmother lived in her 80s with MS and was mobile mostly on her own until the last couple of years.

Of course that is encouraging to hear!!! Every little bit helps.

[Katica]

Kayda`s Mom- I`m so sorry too:hug

Krista- I`m one of those who usually see the glass as half empty but it sure sounds like you are pregnant :thumb Hoping the hear the good news soon.

BlissfullyLoving- good to "see" you. How are you doing?

Me: nothing new..Waiting for FLO then waiting to O than 2 WW. :o

[famille_huggins]

I'm still kicking around. This is our first month of Clomid with the hopes of popping out two eggs to double our chances.
Got some bad news on Friday...
I have MS. I don't even know what else to say.

I'm so sorry for your diagnosis. I don't know what else to say...

[Kayda's Mom]

Thanks everybody. All I can do is try and be positive and move forward. Talked to the MS Society about having babies etc. and they have lots of women who get pregnant and raise children. I can't take any meds while I am TTC, pregnant, nursing but that's fine with me. I am going to pay more attention to nutrition and supplements for now. We'll see what the doctor at the MS Clinic says when I go. ugh. It's been a sh*tty year. It took me 6 months to emotionally feel better from the m/c and them boom....this.

We got a puppy the other day so hopefully it is the start of a better time for us.

[BlissfullyLoving]

BlissfullyLoving- good to "see" you. How are you doing? Thanks. I am good. Things seem to be ok. It is really hard some days. The fears are so overwhelming, but I am just trying to take it day by day. I am having an ultrasound tomorrow. I really need it for my sanity. I am hoping everything will be ok.

Thanks everybody. All I can do is try and be positive and move forward. Talked to the MS Society about having babies etc. and they have lots of women who get pregnant and raise children. I can't take any meds while I am TTC, pregnant, nursing but that's fine with me. I am going to pay more attention to nutrition and supplements for now. We'll see what the doctor at the MS Clinic says when I go. ugh. It's been a sh*tty year. It took me 6 months to emotionally feel better from the m/c and them boom....this.Sounds like a great plan of action. :hug

[Guinevere]

Hi there, again, everyone, thought I'd check back in, even if TTC still seems somewhat distant on the horizon...

Kayda`s Mom- I`m sorry to hear about your news. Is there the possibility that the MS symptoms could go into remission during a pg? I know that often happens with Lupus, for example, but don't know if the same process holds true.

Krista- Crossing fingers that you get to see a nice, reassuring, dark line soon (and then that you come and tell us all about it!) :D

BlissfullyLoving- I'm sure it's hard to not worry; I already know that will be my nemesis next time around. I hope your u/s is reassuring; please keep us updated on you!

Me -- I'm on CD9 and AF is still sorta here, sorta not. :eyesroll It's been a really weird AF, that's for sure (my first since the m/c). Since the start of this cycle, I'll have a day of heavy flow, then nothing at all, then AF is back in full force again, then nothing. This has been going on for over a week now! :scratch

And then yesterday I started having lots of EWCM and other O symptoms (which, while REALLY early, isn't too unbelievable, since I conceived my last pg on CD10), so I wondered if I could be Oing already. But then today, I'm bleeding and crampy again, darn it! :irked: Yeah, so my body appears to be as confused as the rest of me!

Emotionally, I'm pretty sure I'm depressed -- my sleep schedule is all off, I'm having awful nightmares about my children or DH dying, I alternate between tears or anger ALL.THE.TIME, I have no interest in planning for the future (and I'm a total, type-A, planning, control freak normally :p), no interest in much of anything, to be honest, and I'm totally overwhelmed and stressed by my daily life right now, so if anything gets added on unexpectedly or doesn't go according to plan (which is an almost daily occurrence around here, lol), I can't handle it and end up melting down.

Last night, we were late getting back from a school meeting, I was missing one of the ingredients I needed to make dinner, the kids were goofing around instead of finishing their homework, and then one of them had a disagreement with a neighborhood child down the street. Pretty routine stuff, right? And what did I do? I dealt with it all by screaming at my DH, running upstairs with dinner still only half-finished on the stove, and locking myself in the bedroom, sobbing. :o And I don't know how to "snap out of it." Life just isn't working well right now, and I can't seem to fix it.

Guin

[KristaH]

Thank you everyone for your encouragement. Took my last of 3 tests yesterday, still extremely faint. I've only ever lost babies when the test has been faint like that. And now I'm out of hpt's and don't have money for more. Ha!

It's bizarre. I'm 17 days past ovulation, probably pregnant, but have ZERO pregnancy symptoms. I feel great. Again, that just worries me. I had a tiny streak of pink-ish mucous yesterday. :( Nothing since. Today, I have a bad headache. Headaches are hormonal for me, usually, and both my miscarriages were preceded by really bad headaches. :( I feel this pregnancy doesn't stand a chance and wish the bleeding would just start so I can get it over with.

Sorry, I'm just a bundle of sunshine today, aren't I?

[RABITGRL]

Hi everyone

Jen could you please move me to waiting to O. Thanks.

KristaH~ I'm sorry those lines aren't darker for you, but I wish you all the best. The way you are feeling right now is totally understandable. Sending you sticky baby thoughts.

Kayda's Mom~ Sounds like you have a good outlook on things, I wish you the best of luck with conception and your ms diagnosis. For what it's worth I know a woman with ms who has two beautiful children.

Blissfullyloving~ glad the pregnancy is going well for you and I hope the u/s gives you the reassurance you need.
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