I am a wife and mother and I currently work part time. I have a bachelor of science degree in finance, but I have never been able to advance beyond making $15 an hour. I am unable to stop being embarrassed by this. I worked full time for about 6 years after college, then went to part time after I had my daughter. I'm now at a job with a small company that is not doing well financially, and just cut everyone's pay, so I'm now making the same hourly wage that I made in college 10 years ago and I am just mortified. I have a constant dialogue in my head that goes in circles from being mad at myself that I'm so greedy and that I should be thankful that I have a job at all and that many people would love to be where I am, back to why did I even bother going to college to get a "good" degree just to make such a small amount of money, I might as well not work.
I'm tired of this range of emotions going through my head about my worth as a person because of the money I make or do not make. I know this is not a forum for career development, but because I am most importantly a mother, I wonder if other mothers have felt this way, and how/when do I get to a point where I either figure out what needs to change or I realize that nothing needs to change and I need to be content where I am.
I was definitely, and still am to some extent , in the same position as you.
I finished Uni with a BA, went on to work for a while making my own money.
Met DH, got married, moved, and had children.
We decided that I would be a SAHM, which I was for 10 1/2 years.
Just went back to work 2 days a week, and am making ok money.
I did try over the years to get a couple of jobs, for which I was offered around minimum wage. It was so incredibly embarrassing and humiliating, that we figured it would not even cover childcare for my children. To be honest , neither of us was comfortable with putting our children in child care.
I know many in my state would be glad, and are glad for any job, no matter how small the wage.
I feel ya mama! you are not alone.
Me and Dh , Dd1 Dd2,Ds1, 2, 2and lots of
Hugs. I feel that way at times. Especially when I'm around the very wealthy people in my town. I have to keep reminding myself that how much I make isn't a reflection of who I am as a person.
Mama, Painter, Special Needs Coordinator