I can really relate to these posts in some ways, but in some ways its different. My mother isn't just crazy, shes evil and seems to have a multiple personality or two. Mother screams (in the most hateful way) for hours on end at me-she does it no matter what I do or do not do, if nothings wrong she flat out makes it up in ways that are reminiscent of the twilight zone (saying something is sitting on a counter when NOHTING is there-when you're both standing a few feet from the counter- and STICKING to it screaming about it for hours??
My mother has a stable job, no drugs (accept speed for a while which no one knows about) she obsessively volunteers as a charity worker and is constantly doing things for her extended family. Outside home and inside it she pretends (or goes into the personality of?) a very niave, trusting sweet person beyond what is even possible to be real-then she transforms into a beast-snarling (literally), attacking, biting (a month ago she bit me and drew blood)-she denys the really psycho stuff and blames her anger on other things when its purely related to her insanity. Immediately after attacking me and as soon as i defend myself or become really aggressive back to her she snaps into another personallity CRYING and WIMPERING and saying I'm abusing her and how could i do this-the other day she actually dropped onto the floor into a ball covering her head liek i was doing something to her and wimpering "no no please no"
I'm disabled and have no where else to live, upon arriving i have listened to constant accusations of child abuse that are psychotic fantasies in her head....as well as the constant threat that she will have me commited to a mental hospital (i have fibromyalgia and she has convinced hords of people its all in my head), she has threatoned to have me arrested for defending myself from her, threatons to make up allegations of me attacking HER and get me thrown in jail--she has money i have nothing. she has a HUGE family and they all believe her insanity, how can you blame them? she has a video camera and tape recorder as well now and goes through elaborate plots of manipulation and HORRIBLE threats, etc. to try and get me to scream cuss, push her away from me or do things that make me look crazy and then get it on tape, in fact, she already has done this acouple times.
My reactions to what i go through are normal but if you never see the attacks she does, I LOOK INSANE. I am so afraid i want to go to another state (ohio) but it would take a while after moving to get on assistance so I can't right now, i PRAY i can because my son is terrorized and i live in constant fear of her hateful realatives(some of whom i'm sure have similar psychiatric disoreders of her -8 siblings) I pray i get out of here without her coming to my house causeing me another nervious breakdown so that I AM incapable of taking care of my son, then she can call cps and i'm dead meat.
I have no car though so i'm trapped which is how she wants it...i have alot of anxiety, paranioa about people and deathlike exaustion from PTSD from her and i just hope i get out with my son someday...i'm working on filing for disability so i can get away from here and maybe recover some of my health...
yes i understand a crazy motehr....
if i were any of you, had the money, i'd just leave the state and change my name and NEVER EVER look back (as well as a restraining order)
PS I think the only way i will be able to safegaurd is if i find a way to video tape her...cause when i cut her out of my life she will immediatelly call them with all her family(who dont really know jack about it) to back her up and her tapes and who knows what else (she has tons of contacts because of the charity work she does). Anyway the only way i can prove shes a maneuevered everything (sounds paranoid) is to get a tape of her and maybe hopefully she'll bite me, scratch me again and i can take pics this tiem, i wihs i had...
its really long sorry but where else can i talk about my mult personality abuser- no one beleives me accept the ex step dad/children and my exboyfriend whom she revealed the beast to and said "no one will beleive him he doesnt even have a job"