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#61 of 98 Old 12-21-2002, 04:05 PM
 
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oatmeal baths help my ds. once the rash is bad, cream seems to irritate it even more.

good luck!
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hey momcat.

letting bebe go diaperless as much as you can possibly deal with would be my vote. here are some get well soon vibes

and welcome to the world of electricity, mamakarata. six days!

merry solstice, everyone. the days of light are just ahead of us. we've made it through the time of the densest dark.

off for a solstice moonwalk

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Hi, friends -

Just a quick update - I thought of letting ds go w/o a diaper, but the problem is explosive diarrhea... I just can't bear the thought of cleaning it up every 1/2 hr to hour!!! Thanks for the suggestions - I'm using Mylanta now and it seems to be helping. You all are the best!

For the record - the Norwalk virus is what hit all of those cruise ships a little while back... I haven't been this sick since I had malaria ten years ago (that's a whole different story!!) - I was taken to the hospital by ambulance Wed PM and given three bags of fluids. Ugh. I managed to keep ds hydrated earlier this week by nursing 'round the clock (thank heavens he got it first, not second). At any rate, I dearly hope none of you get to experience this particular *joy* of a virus.

Happy solstice, everyone (a bit late, but it always makes me happy to celebrate the return of the sun!), and enjoy your holidays. We're on the mend!

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I think it would be kinda cool to be w/out power for a few days as long as it's not too cold. It would be a bonding experience in our house. Growing up near the Gulf of Mexico I experienced some powerless days as a kid b/c of hurricanes and it was always a fun time to spend with family talking and being thankful for what we did have...like a house that wasn't flooded or blown away.

I'm enjoying our little break from the discussion to catch up on some things and enjoy the holiday festivities. I hope you are all well and I am glad that the dark days of winter are getting shorter! That is news to celebrate.

Breathe~I'm not sure when the teething pain will end. I am feeling the pain on that end. It seems like ds is never going to get his eyeteeth (1st molars). He's been teething on those for three months.

Karen~ I'm glad all is getting better. And I hope we don't get that virus either.
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hey there,

Just wanted to send support & hugs to you all as we struggle to at least not be totally *mind-LESS* during holiday festivities.

We do a two-family thing, alternating, so this year it was last weekend at my folks, now dh's family over tomorrow. Each year I think we're really going to do something alternative, gift wise, but dh overrules me because he thinks I'm being stingy at Christmas.

There are so many things I'd like to vent about a little right now, but I've got a long to-do list as I"m sure you all do, and Sophie's getting tired of my lap. Mostly it's just that I feel I can do basically one thing *well* at a time -- so it's EITHER be a good mom OR get ready for Christmas! Let her sleep in my lap or clean the downstairs?

I am grateful she's not sick and the tooth that was coming finally came and at least we have power and no norwalk virus here! And when I think of mothers in Iraq & elsewhere who haven't enough food for the day, I am humbled and remember that I can go this this week gratefully, awake and with awareness.

Blessings to all of you in whatever you're doing this week.


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Hello my mindful friends~I am feeling very rejuventated but sorta blue [reason for the blue font color] after such a wonderful time with dh and ds the past week. Dh had to go back to work today and the holidays are over. But tonight dh's favorite team, the Iowa Hawkeyes, are playing in the Orange Bowl in Florida. So it will be an exciting evening here.

BTW, HAPPY NEW YEAR to you all!!! Also, I just wanted to let you know that I have found some time to read "Wherever You Go There You Are" by Jon Kabat Zinn. I'm not even half way done with it but I'm finding it helpful in understanding more about mindfulness and how to put it into practice since it has a lot of examples. I hope it will help me in our discussion of Part IV, since I am still rather new to mindfulness and meditation.

How are you all anyway?? All the MDC threads have been very calm so I hope that means everyone is enjoying their holidays and family time. The Norwalk virus has made its way into Iowa but we have been healthy and had nice weather.

, , and s to all!!!

P.S. Is anyone ready to continue our book discussion this coming week or do we need another week to read Part IV? I need to re-read Part IV again since it's been about three weeks and it's not feeling fresh.
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i'm back, and would love to have this week to read part IV. I started it, but you know, the holidays....

happy new year to you too heather, and all. i am very ready to pick up and go again. there were lot's of opportunities to practice mindfulness this holiday. and so far, part IV has been good.
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Hey Mamas,

I'm back too. Finished the semester and then dropped out of school and am feeling SOOOOOO excited about starting the new year with no burdens hanging over my head. It's just me, ds, and dh and from here on out, and that should be PLENTY to keep me challenged and busy!

Hope you all feel rested after the holidays -- we are pretty darn exhausted and are looking forward to returning to a normal routine, even tho we will miss dh terribly when he returns to work. (((((((((Heather!)))))))))))

I would love it if I could have next week to read part IV. Maybe Heather could just get us all rolling again this weekend, and then we'd have all next week to discuss -- if that's okay with others.

This will undoubtedly be an AMAZING year to watch our children grow. I'm so glad to have you all to share the journey!
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Feeling very unmindful here. I am soooo tired and I have mixed feelings about having to go back to work. I love my work and I feel really cooped up and impatient, but I am sort of in a groove and I do enjoy some aspects of being home, like having the laundry not be an enormous mountain in my garage! and being able to dig around in the back yard more. But I confess that we watch a video every afternoon now because I am too tired to deal with things. Well, DD hasn't been napping well at all and so she is really tired and clingy. Plus I am tired of thinking up things to eat for her and games for her to play. I don't want to play in the play kitchen anymore, and I don't want to stack the stacking jack again and again even though it is fun to see him fall.

Gotta go brush some teeth. I'll feel better in a week.

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Congratulations, El, and Happy New Year to everyone! I, too, have a celebration - I am now just two short weeks away from the end of one of my jobs! HOORAY! This will mean more (and much-needed) time with ds. I'm really excited and am counting the days!

I'd love some extra time to re-read Part IV. I'm also feeling overwhelmed by the expectations of the holiday season, particularly as a musician. Ugh.

Thanks, Mamabutterfly, for reminding us again how fortunate we all are. That has been part of my mindfulness practice over the last months, too... and I've been SO thankful for health care since our little bout with that virus... and thankful for food, and thankful for shelter, and thankful for friends who helped us out... we are so blessed. We really are all part of that interconnected web.

Blessings, all!
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Mmmm,

everyone seems so excited and sure about being at home FT and here I am with mixed feelings. Funny thing is that I didn't even know how ambiguous I felt till I started to post. THen it sudden;y came out of my fingers. Now I am at work and I am so happy here but I miss DD so much too and wondering what she is doing. She was SOOOOO happy when she same the DCP and all her friends this morning though.

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Hello mamas!

I have been missing this circle a lot! The past couple of weeks have felt hard -- filled with beautiful moments but also just been pulled in different directions. I feel like now at 10 months pp, the sleep deprivation is catching up with me, becoming a deep exhaustion that doesn't really go away after a good night's sleep. But I did just re-start (albeit a very small & pitiful) yoga practice which I am very excited about. Right now it's 10 minutes a day but it has made a HUGE difference in these 3 days and I NEED to keep it up. (remind me of that please! )

Jaqueline I definately have days I wish I worked outside of the home. I do feel bored or restless a lot. I feel like I didn't get to explore many things I wanted to do before my unexpected pregnancy last year. Realistically, we still EBF and don't even leave dd to go to the movies, and if one of us changes our work right now it will be dh (from work in the home to working outside). But I do feel that longing..... and I'm *sure* that if I worked outside I would spend every minute feeling a longing to be home with Sophie!!

Ummm, so much for living in the now?! :

Well, more to vent about but I better go take this nap to do that yoga session instead of writing about it, lol.

happy new year to all of you,
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(p.s. One update from here - our houseguest of 5 months and her ds have moved at last! she has a job and is renting a room with an elderly woman and honestly, while I'm glad we could offer her hospitality when we did, this development was my best Christmas gift of all!! It's so beautifully quiet around here.... )

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Hey All -- Coupla quick thoughts . . .

Thinking about MB's 10 min of yoga each day: I would love it if during Part IV we could start supporting each other to do just a few minutes of either yoga or meditation each day -- at home or elsewhere. Would that kinda fit in with this section? You know, like putting the theory to practice and helping each other to do it. Should that go on the other thread?

Also, congrats MB on getting your house back! I hope you all are enjoying each other in the peace and quiet and familiarity!

Jacqueline, I just wanted to support you in feeling happy about working outside the home. I hope you don't feel isolated by the SAHM-ness of this thread . . . please remember that what Naomi needs is a WHOLE mom and you have been very clear over time that you NEED your work to feel whole. Your wholeness is not the same as anyone else's, and you know in your heart how to work toward it. Just want you to know that you are supported in choosing to be whole, wherever that takes you and the nugget!

And momcat, congrats to you on lightening your load! I hope your free-er schedule will allow you to rest and spend lots of QT with ds!
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I'm so tired today this afernoon, but I really feel the need to say how much I have enjoyed reading your posts even tho' I haven't responded until now, I've been lurking...been busy w/ ds and a meeting today that we had. I the way we all support (hence the name of the thread) one another and allow one another to find our own way in such a non-threatening way.

And I love El's idea about supporting eachother on our meditation path thru Part IV. I think sharing what we are each doing, as some of have been doing anyway, is helpful to others. I enjoy learning what is working for you...it gives me hope for myself and ideas for down the road. I'm still doing daily yoga or pilates and quiet meditation a few times a week before or after the yoga. I do my routine to a yoga video or I do the stretches I need and try to focus on my breath and try to quiet the mind as much as possible. Every time is different...sometimes I am more into it than other times. When I cheat myself I notice pay for it. But live and learn...ehhh??

I have re-read the first chapter of Part IV (for the 4th time and I'm still learning from those two pages) and I'll post my favorite quotes today or tomorrow from that chapter. I'm glad we all agree about moving slow.
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Jacqueline - I have to be clear, here, about exactly what I mean by freeing up my schedule a bit... I am leaving one job out of three, which means that instead of working 50-60 hours per week outside the home, I'm working closer to 40. I'll actually be home two extra nights per week to put ds down to sleep. Make you feel better?

I, too, struggle with the need/desire to work in my profession and the need/desire to be with ds. I was able to be home with him exclusively for the first 9 months, and, while it was really wonderful for both of us, I definitely felt a gap in my life. I wish I could feel completely fulfilled as a SAHM, but it just didn't work for me. Push came to shove when dh had a job change and we lost our health benefits - it meant I really did have to go back to work. As "alternative" as I tend to be with meds, etc, I just can't go without health insurance for the family. It's simply too risky.

So, I think about ds often at work, but I know he is in a wonderful care situation (an AP caregiver with no children of her own and a maximum of two other children at any given time - sometimes it's only ds, sometimes it's one other child), and I know I'm doing what's best for all of us by meeting my own needs professionally (I can then feel "whole against the sky"... there's that quotation again!) as well as providing health insurance benefits. It isn't easy, though. I often feel as though I can't do either thing well (working or mothering) as I am trying to do both. Argh! But we still bf, co-sleep, etc, so I think we're on the right track.

So, lots of hugs to you as you navigate all of these questions - I know I'm not the first or the only mom ever to feel these doubts, but it doesn't make it any easier!
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O.k. now today makes every other day seem like a cake walk!! Dh was layed off for the second year in a row! I am o.k. but he was really bummed when he came home! He sat in the car for half an hour b4 he came in! He was and so depressed! But b/c off my mindfulness training and realizing "what is important here" I was able be very calm and stable. He's been on the phone networking and now he is laughing and realized everything will work out! We have no nest egg since we used it the last time he was layed off around 9/11! But we will survive! Thanks mamas for support here and I know in a pinch that I can be mindful .

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Oh Heather, I am SO sorry for you and your dh! How incredibly frustrating and scary that must be. It sounds like you are both very strong people and you know can get thru this bc you did once before. In the meantime, feel free to come here for support. I'm sending hugs and positive (job-searching) vibes to all three of you!!
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(((Heather and family)))
That sounds so hard! I'm so sorry. Just when the new year was starting out, too. Hopefully it will feel like a time of new opportunity for him & all of you. I'm sure your support will help him keep this loss in perspective & to move forward. Good luck in the next steps...

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Thanks for the empathy and compassion, mamas! Your kind words mean a lot to us!! We'll make it through but it really does bite the big one! He was looking for another job anyway but it just isn't happening quick enough. He was not happy there even tho' he put in 50-60 hour weeks over the last year and did the work of three people and went in on one of his vacation days last week. But we do see this as a new opportunity and a little vacation in a way. I find it ironic that the chapter we are discussing is "...The Full Catastrophe." Life REALLY IS the full catastrophe. I'm so glad I have you all!!!!! My fairy mamas give me happy vibes!
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Have to be quick, our move went well, we are house hunting, Heather I'm sorry about your DH.

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Heather, I am so sorry about your DH, and I am glad to see that you are taking things in stride and looking at the positive side.

BTW I got "transitions" by Julia Cameron for christmas and it is really good. If I had it here I wwould send you some good inspirational quote from it. But I don't, and I don't know if I would be able to find a good quote anyway.

Sending out good vibes to you all.

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Whew, dd just went to bed & I've been wanting to come chat a bit. I was lying in bed with her nursing and thinking about living "in the moment." So often in the past couple of weeks I've been feeling restless and wishing I weren;t so "trapped" at home. Bundling up in the cold, crying babe in the carseat, all just makes it easier to stay in. But I've also been feeling wistful about doing "other things" with my days, or maybe with my life.

I had two friends visiting last week, and found myself doing a lot of "what-if" thinking about what I'm *not* doing. Then tonight, as I lay there nursing next to Sophie, I ahd an image of what we (my sisters and I) must look like to my Mom, now that we are grown women. My younger sister is on a semester abroad, my older sister & I married, we are all living lives we are happy with and all close with my parents... anyway, I was thinking of Sophie as a grown woman, and imagined thinking back to these evenings snuggled up together on our mattress on the floor in our messy room, or the hours spent watching her practicing standing up alone. It was enough to make me cry, and really bring me back to this preciousness of this time.




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that's great mamabutterfly. you had an inspiring mindful moment. i also wonder if my parents look back at those times and think, how fast it went by?

i have a 12yo dd and realized that in the last 5 years in our new home which just blew by, she went from 7 to 12, and at the end of the next 5 years, she will be 17!!!!!!

i told her, "aaack!, you are almost graduated and off to college!!!"

she just laughed because that probably seems like a million years from now.

i am lucky to have the perspective of my 13mo ds, and 12yo dd (11 yrs apart). It is a daily reminder of how fast it goes by, and in the grand pie of their life, that we really only get a small portion to ourselves.

figure, live to be 90, and we get 5 years before school, and then only another 15 years or so if you try and include college and the typical teenage/young adult mooching factor.

sorry, i took over your mindful moment.

you can tell it's been on my mind lately.

El, i forgot to agree with your idea that in part iv we could support the daily meditation or yoga. though i do meditate, i can always use the extra boost.
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HI all,

I wonder how we can best support each other in our daily meditation. Lately I have been trying to "drive mindfully" meaning that I try to stay in the right now and focus on my breath (and on traffic) It is really nice actually.
I saw in another post in this forum something about a book called "the power of now" Anyone interested?

Also, I had a nice moment the other day. Naomi and I were walking to the playground and she was stopping at every rock and leaf. Finally we get to the playground and she is amusing herself, and pretty soon I got bored with hangin around waiting for her to climb and go on the slide, so I tried to get her to leave. Suddenly I realised that if we go home, then I have to entertain her at home and she is happy here right now. So we stayed and stayed and suddenly, she was ready to go and walked home. This was a day that she napped forever. I realised, that I often have an idea of what we have to do next and I am already in the next moment, but there is really only right now. Five minutes from now doesn't matter. OK, I realise that we have been descussing this at great length, but I really realized it in myself suddenly. So I have been letting her stay in the bath as long as she wants. I let her take her time brushing her teeth. I start the bedtime routine earlier, but it really is more relaxed because I am just letting her move through the routine at her pace. She does know what the routine is, and I think she's been in a good mood because she feels that she has control over her life.

All that said, last night I didn't manage it very well. I was tired, hungry and I had to pee. I got stuck in traffic on the way home from work and was late picking her up (well, later than I intended). She had received a balloon at a birthday party and first she was holding two balloons, but she had to give one back. I never want to rip things out of her hands, and we managed to trick her into holdiong just one balloon because the other one was someone elses and they were crying for it. Then she has to let go of the balloon to get buckled into her carseat, but she won't and I am hungry and tired and I have to pee even more. I should have gone and the DCP's house, but I wasn't thinking. Well, I finally get her in, we get home and then she won't let go of it to get out of the car. Luckily the neighbours were just getting home, so I asked them to keep an eye on her while I go pee. Then I finally cajole her out of the car. At some point she really wanted to get out of the seat, and was crying for me to get her out, but would not let go of the balloon. So here is my lowest moment (up to mow the balloon exchanges happened without crying). I just ripped the balloon out of her hand. I felt myself getting really angry and I knew she was getting hungry because it was dinnertime and I just ripped the balloon out of her hand. She was pretty upset, but of course as soon as she is out of the carseat she can have it back, but she stayed upset for a while.

I had been reading articles from the "Natural Child Project" recently and I felt sooooooooooo awful because it was the absolute opposite of what they advocate. Not that I buy into what they say totally either, but it ties into the need for validation. I often get caught up in the perfectness of what I read KWIM? I read the perfect way to handle things and I try and then I have a total meltdown. One thing that is very validating about EB is that they accept that we are human and that we will have moments like this where we are truly ugly. But since we are moving through life with positive intent always, most of the time we are "doing the right thing" and the times that we don't get it right are just small times. They really admit that parenting IS difficult and that we are not perfect and are not expected to be perfect and how we really can make the best of it.

Finally (and then I will stop, I swear), I am trying to send out good vibes all over the place and it is making me feel good (except last night). I saw a woman riding her bike without a helmet this morning and usually this upsets me, particularly because it was a busy street. Rather that gesturing to her for the helmet, or saying something, I just sent her a good vibe hoping she wouldbe safe and would learn the importance of helmets. I did the same for a guy who cut me off, I sent him a good, be onl time vibe, and hoped for his life to feel less stressful and for him to have more joy, and not to get into an accident. ANd I was no longer upset about being cut off, about the dangerous situation he caused in a high traffic timea nd place. So here are good mindful vibes to you all. I really love being able to come here and chat with you and your support means a lot to me. I want you all to know that I support you in your good times and your ugly times.


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Well today started off great. Then I blew up at dh. Then we hugged and made up. Then ds and I went to somewhere and he is zonked out and I am on my baby break and happy as can be!

I'm loving all your thoughts on this thread and the book club side too!! I want to respond to everything and "validate" and commiserate with your feelings and thoughts so bad! Why do I feel so compelled to be that way when I don't expect or need the constant validation? Just know I am with ya all the way!!!!

s to everyone! Especially Jacqueline, Analisa, Mamakarata, and MB on your last posts. I thought Jacqueline trying to send out good vibes to all is so coool and for trying to stay in bloom/present ephipany is awesome too...but I've never heard of that book you mentioned...sounds like the theme of my life! And to Analisa on your move and having to re-adjust yourself as a mom! I'm sorry about your Doc friend. It's hard when you really care about someone and want them to understand you so bad...for your benefit and theirs. And I enjoyed the thoughts about trying to appreciate the small slice of the pie (as in time) we have w/ our little ones! That is so true and so hard to remember, day in and day out!

And s and warm thoughts to Tara and Angie who we haven't heard from in awhile on this thread. I hope you two are o.k.

Well I've got to get some stuff done so I can go to the grocery store later and cook din-din. Sorry to rush in and out like this! I hope my post made sense!!!!
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Heather!! I've not checked in since Monday, and now I see the news. I hope that you and dh are doing okay. My dh lost his job last yr and ended up starting his own business. It was such a stressful time for us, though, with a little one and with the stress that adds to your relationship. Just remember that there are lots of creative ways to get an income. I know something will come through for you. Best wishes!!
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Hey mamas! Anyone still reading this thread? I've been following the book club one once a day but am just feeling too far from mindfulness to even post there. I do need to pick up the book this weekend, maybe take a bath and and read some...

But I came here just to vent a bit. I had an awful night last night. After almost a full week of low-level fighting with dh (more like withdrawing from each other than any screaming or anything which would probably feel better), and being stuck in the house by the cold weather, I finally called my MIL and asked her to take a trip to the mall with me. It's not a place I go a lot, but I needed to go somewhere besides my house, and Sophie had a ball.

Thing was, we got home at 10 pm and I was so exhausted. Dh had gone out with a long-time buddy he hasn't seen in a while. When they hang out he usually comes home really late. I expected dd to just go to sleep as usual though, and I wanted an early night.
.... but after sleeping in the car on the ride home, Sophie just stayed awake until AFTER 2 am! Oh it was so awful. Something must have been bothering her, I tried to empathize but I was in pain I was so tired. I don't know what I would do as a single mama! I always give her to dh when she can't sleep at night.

So after all that she woke at 8 am anyway, so here we are. And dh didn't come home at all. I'm sure he just crashed at his friend's, but it probably means no help with dd for me today. I just feel so sad & tired.

okay, thanks for listening.

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Anne~I'm so sorry about your night!! Dh and I have been that route before...but not since ds has been here so I can imagine how frustrated you must be today! Funny thing that you posted here b/c I was just getting on-line to post on this thread!!!!!! I hope tomorrow will be a better day for you. I have given dh the green light on doing stuff with friends thinking ds would go to bed early or that I could manage and it has come back to bite me at times too. Such an annoying situation! And it makes me resentful that dh was out getting a break from us while I was at home begging for sleep or a "break". When I am really tired and frustrated I order a pizza, don't set any house cleaning goals, and pamper myself as much as possible!! Then when dh is rested up (heehee) I ask him to do the bulk of the housework, grocery shopping, or laundry for a few days so I can get myself back to feeling somewhat "whole." We're not in this mothering thing to be martyrs, IMHO. Even tho' it seems like it on occasions.
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Please read this post!!!

Sat., Feb. 1 to Fri., Feb. 7, I will be unplugging my computer and TV b/c our family is going on a "retreat" w/o leaving our house!!!! Therefore I am hoping someone will fill in for me on the book club that week. The chapter will be "Breathing" on page 110.

This has prompted me to consider asking if our group would be interested in rotating weeks as the moderater of our book discussion. There are nine of us that are active in the discussion and I would be willing to make a schedule with dates and the chapter for that week. What do you all think???? I have been so impressed with everyone's thoughts and I think taking turns would bring a lot more to our discussion. If you're interested please reply here or on the book club thread. Thank you!!!!!!
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heather, that sounds like a great idea. you have done such an awesome job, and we have been lucky that you have been willing to take it so far as it is.

el has put out a schedule on the toddler activities thread, and if you did something like that maybe? i could follow that. although it probably doesn't need two to each week like the activities idea does.

for some reason, i always get confused about when sunday starts, if we begin discussing the chapter of that week, or reading it to discuss it on the next sunday.

i know it's me and having some kind of mental block. but if you would like to include me in the schedule, i am more than willing.
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