I'd been thinking about this for a while. Somehow when a new year starts and the balloons are lying on the ground, everyone gets a little melancholy
There's this definate feeling of drudgery to things. And I was feeling a little anxious about it all. Not necessarily here on the boards, but in the news, and around town. I understand it, I could list things to be down about, but that's not the point, here.
I was feeling - good. I am feeling good. Optimistic. About life, and the future. I can't explain it. It is probably because I'm moving into the 2nd half of my pregnancy and everything is looking so much rosier than in the beginning, and I'm just, I'm sorry, happy.
And I wish everyone could be, too.
One of the meditation philsophies I worked with went like this; all energy moves around the universe. And when you need energy, you borrow it, and when you have energy you send it out; dedicate your practice and your high spirits back out to the universe.
I think a lot of people borrow energy when they need it. And perhaps forget to send it back, or don't know to dedicate their good energy back out.
One time, something fabulous happened to me, and I was BURSTING with this delicious good energy about something so wonderful. And I thought, I'm so happy, and I'm just bursting with this energy, it's almost embarassing to be so bulging with this positive spirit. And I said, I should let this energy go back out to the universe - and I let it go, and I felt so relieved, wonderful, calm, connected, giving. It was even better than the original good feeling. I gave back the good energy that I was bursting with, and it was so right.
Anyway - I just wanted to send out this extra optimism I'm feeling to the universe, so it can swirl around and perhaps help relieve some of this gunky feeling that seems to be dampening everything. And encourage anyone who has got some extra energy or can muster some up, and send it on out there, too.