Thank you for this thread and thank you, mods, for recognizing that this is a personal growth issue.
I'm definitely going to pick up the book or reserve it the next time I'm at the library.
I started the anxiety/panic attacks at about 36, but did not know they had anything to do with perimenopause and attributed them various stressers in my life: the bush(TM) administration, 9/11, being excommunicated from my church, losing my child support, being evicted, etc. They seem to have gotten a lot better in the past year or so, with my dd's help in improving my diet and her gentle and loving support, but they are still there.
I don't have much of an appetite and my dental problems make eating many foods painful and difficult, so I have to be careful to eat enough food. When dd was living away from home a bit over a year ago, I accidentally lost so much weight that I had to wear my 13 year old son's clothes. I giggled at the thought that so many rich young women seemed to act like they wanted the body of a thirteen year old boy and I had it, but when I see photographs of how unhealthy I looked, it scares me.
It's nice to know that the sleep issues are normal. I'm going to try the "sleep fairy".
My cycles seem to have shortened (25 days natural, 26 with OTC progesterone creme which I hate) but perhaps I just wasn't as aware of them before I began to TTC for my final baby; dd and I have always cycled together and she recently experienced a 23 day cycle, which is not normal for her at all.
I still ovulate according to my temperatures, but I don't have much CM at all so conception may be impossible, or at least impossible without a lot of high tech procedures which I can't afford.
For the most part, the "drying up" is a positive for me: I don't need to wash my hair more than once a week or every two weeks, don't seem to have as much body odor, and generally feel cleaner and in less need of any "products", although I do still take an interest in my appearance. I appreciate being able to look like "me" instead of what others want me to look like. I have been celibate for over fifteen years so I have no sexual issues and no issues with discomfort resulting from vaginal dryness.
I take 2800 Mg of Evening Primrose Oil during my follicular phase for TTC and was wondering what dose you gals took to help with perimenopause symptoms, and also what dose of B6.
I have a lot of sadness about the might-have-beens and the never-wases and I so wish I could have another chance at raising children and being part of a family. I never did have that romantic heterosexual relationship I dreamed about as a little girl and I find myself becoming increasingly at peace with that. I positively adore my teenagers and am so proud of the people they are becoming even when we don't always get along and when they don't seem to love me very much. They are every bit as bright and clever and fascinating and infinitely beautiful to me as your infants and toddlers are to you.
I just wish there could have been/could still be more of them.