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I've been thinking about this a lot lately. The type of life I want, and what steps I need to take to get there.

Ideally, I would love to live out in the country somewhere, maybe with a family of like-minded friends living nearby, but otherwise several miles from other people. I would like a simple, clean, uncluttered home. Not too large, but enough room for our family of five to live comfortably. Ideally, it would be an old, remodeled/renovated plantation style house. I want a pond for fishing. I want a big porch with a swing and rocking chairs. A screened-in porch big enough for a bed so we could sleep there would also be wonderful. I want a huge playroom for the kids, complete with an art table, easels, tons of books, a big dollhouse & kitchen. I want to have at least one more baby. I want to not have to work. I'm envisioning our family having this beautiful, simple, unmaterialistic, peaceful, restful existence.

The steps I need to take to get there:
1. get to a point where I can quit my job (probably going to happen in the next year!)
2. start looking for a house like I described that we can actually afford
3. make a friend that has children that might want to move out to the country with us (ha! long shot)

Okay, share your ideal life with me now.
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I'd like to be more financially stable for starters. Not rich, but able to not worry about whether or not the car is going to break down, or who needs what clothes. A nice vacation every year, $$ in the bank for the kids colleges, $$ to give to charity. Able to continue to stay at home and do occasional birth work. Find a suitable church for us.

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nak...subbing...will be back to share.
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I just want to be comfortable, like a pp mentioned, to be able to buy healthier foods(organics) pay the bills, buy needed clothes, fix a broken car etc. I want a small to medium house, with a big backyard, in a town we love, with enough space for the four of us . I want to take vacations, and have a good career that i'm passionate about. Having money for savings, kids school, kids cars and retirement is also starting to become very important to us.

The steps i'm taking to get there:
right now i'm in school, so is my dh. When we both graduate, starting we should make combined around 80-100k a year. My youngest will be five when i finish school and i can focus more on my career.
When i graduate, we will continue living on just dh's salary and save mine for two - three years to pay off debt and save for a large down payment on a home. His income alone is going to be more than we've ever lived off of.
We really are looking forward to owning our own home, but we aren't going to settle, or buy before we are ready just to "own".

I"m excited to get to this place in our lives. I feel like its so close. We hope to be there in the next 5-7 years.

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I'd also love to be able to buy my own cottage in the country. But with house prices how they are in England right now, I'd have to win the lottery first. There is no way I'd be able to afford a mortgage.

Sometimes though, wanting something different or more can have an adverse affect upon me, not sure how it is for other people. When I focus too much on what I want, or don't have, then I become disatisfied with all the things that I do have. And this can lead me to feeling depressed.

So while I would love a cottage in the country, I don't pressure myself about it. Right now, I live in a clean and comfortable home, I earn enough to live comfortably and save a little each year for a holiday to the coast with my son. Life isn't bad for me.


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subbing...not able to respond right now. Am interested in what steps people are taking and what their ideal life is, though.
Same here.

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I've been thinking about this a lot lately. The type of life I want, and what steps I need to take to get there.

Ideally, I would love to live out in the country somewhere, maybe with a family of like-minded friends living nearby, but otherwise several miles from other people. I would like a simple, clean, uncluttered home. Not too large, but enough room for our family of five to live comfortably. Ideally, it would be an old, remodeled/renovated plantation style house. I want a pond for fishing. I want a big porch with a swing and rocking chairs. A screened-in porch big enough for a bed so we could sleep there would also be wonderful. I want a huge playroom for the kids, complete with an art table, easels, tons of books, a big dollhouse & kitchen. I want to have at least one more baby. I want to not have to work. I'm envisioning our family having this beautiful, simple, unmaterialistic, peaceful, restful existence.

The steps I need to take to get there:
1. get to a point where I can quit my job (probably going to happen in the next year!)
2. start looking for a house like I described that we can actually afford
3. make a friend that has children that might want to move out to the country with us (ha! long shot)

Okay, share your ideal life with me now.
Oh, we are SOOOOO alike! I would totally be the friend with kids who moves to the country with you.

Currently I am a home daycare provider living in the city. I like the city. It is a nice city where we live. Friendly people, clean neighbourhoods etc. BUT in my PERFECT world:

I too would live in a house in the country. It would have a wrap around porch with much porch furniture and a swing. I would get up in the morning and drink my coffee on the porch and watch the sun come up. Then I would walk barefoot in the dewy grass and smell the flowers in the garden. After breakfast and a shower I would weed the vegetable garden ( a HUGE one so I could eat all the fresh organics I wanted all summer and can the rest for winter, making jams and preserves and fruit wines). I would take a long walk in the wooded lot behind us with my faithful doggy. My kids would be homeschooled and they too would benefit from fresh country air and many walks.

We would lay in the hammock on hot afternoons and listen to music and read. We would end the days on our porch sipping green tea or wine. And go to bed with the windows open and the breeze tickling the curtains. And the next day we would get up and do it all again.

Now that would be blissful.

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I think about this a lot. And I try to keep the dream in focus while being satisfied, and grateful with what I have now...

THE DREAM~

live in a rural, hilly or mountainous area near lots of wooded land and rivers
somewhere that is progressive , would like to be able to go to the nearest city/ town and find sushi and nice coffee, bookstores, healthfood shop, and like-minded people.

live in an eco-friendly way-- solar panels and /or wind turbine, organic veg and herb garden, a few chickens and a couple of sheep (for eggs, milk, wool)
apple and pear trees, berries
simple, uncluttered home...on a big piece of wooded land with a yurt or tp or something similar for summer living

continue working as a holistic therapist but be qualified as a craniosacral therapist, perhaps working part time from home also in a clinic in the nearest town. Maybe do some teaching as well-- astrology, massage... have plenty of time to enjoy my home and family and love my work

find a homeschooling network or something similar...have ds' education be about plants, animals, the natural world and how to live in harmony with it-- music , crafts,skills development, creative expression, spirituality...

As a single mama I would like to meet the right man who wants all this,too and would love my son as much as me. Someone who would be an equal partner with similar ideals and aspirations and values. A hard worker who knows how to have fun...And then and only then have another child...

-----ok so how to make it happen???~~~~~~~~

THE REALITY~

I am currently in England and as the pp said to have this life in the UK requires A LOT of money...or a move to the deeply rural places like Wales/ Scotland ....so for me moving to the States is part of the deal-- not far- fetched as I grew up there and my parents and brother are still there. North Carolina seems the best place I've seen to live this dream... so I'm working on that one and am hoping in the next couple of years I'll be Stateside.

I'm studying cranioscaral therapy and will hopefully qualify in 2009/ 2010...

planning a trip to the US to visit family and will attend a women's herbal conference in NC in the fall of '08...and hopefully will meet people on my path that will help the dream fall into place in whatever way.

as far as the man/ lifepartner thing goes-- hopefully by the time I get the rest in place I will be open to meeting a man as currently I'm too wary of another "Mr. Wrong" coming into my life and I'm done with that! (I split w/ ds Dad while pregnant due to him getting into major drug addiction and haven't had any interest in men since --ds will be 2 in a couple of weeks---I realise this is a whole other post)

Sorry so long-winded, thanks OP for letting me visit the dream!

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Oh, we are SOOOOO alike! I would totally be the friend with kids who moves to the country with you.

Currently I am a home daycare provider living in the city. I like the city. It is a nice city where we live. Friendly people, clean neighbourhoods etc. BUT in my PERFECT world:

I too would live in a house in the country. It would have a wrap around porch with much porch furniture and a swing. I would get up in the morning and drink my coffee on the porch and watch the sun come up. Then I would walk barefoot in the dewy grass and smell the flowers in the garden. After breakfast and a shower I would weed the vegetable garden ( a HUGE one so I could eat all the fresh organics I wanted all summer and can the rest for winter, making jams and preserves and fruit wines). I would take a long walk in the wooded lot behind us with my faithful doggy. My kids would be homeschooled and they too would benefit from fresh country air and many walks.

We would lay in the hammock on hot afternoons and listen to music and read. We would end the days on our porch sipping green tea or wine. And go to bed with the windows open and the breeze tickling the curtains. And the next day we would get up and do it all again.

Now that would be blissful.
Awesome! BTW, my hubby is gonna be a chiro too!
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Well I won't say perfect because that's not what the thread title says. There's no perfect life or perfect world, but ideally:

We'd finally have enough money to rent a real, live house (and not an apartment) by beach, in Cardiff, Encinitas, or Leucadia (all my favoritest beach towns), and have enough to start considering buying. We'd have enough breathing room that we could buy all our food from farmer's markets, CSA's, and Seaside Market (the closest place to get raw milk and the best organic meats). DD would be in school, in this district, which is a great district that I know and trust. I would be working towards my BA in CompSci or Web Design. We'd have enough room to have a big dog, a small dog, and a cat. We'd live so close to the beach DD and I could go for runs on the beach at the crack of dawn before school and work. DH would finally feel at peace living in our own home, and take pride in himself for the family he helped create and holds together on a daily basis. We'd be happy and content with our simple, uncluttered, and uncomplicated life.
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What I want to have has changed so much as I've grown.

I want to have enough of everything to have enough. And to sometimes have to go without to remember what it's like to go without.

And, I already have that. I am blissfully happy.

I know that having more wouldn't make me happier. I don't want to be part of some elite. I want to live modestly and work on developing community among my, well....community.

I came from very little and I appreciate what we have now, even though we think we sometimes don't have enough. We do. We truly do. It's amazing how gratitude = happiness.

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I feel that right now I am living my ideal life.
Ive always dreamed of living on a small farm....now we are
my family is happy and healthy
my dh is earning more than I ever imagined possible.

how did it happen? I have to say God. I am living the life I have prayed for my entire life.

BUT...just last year we had to get food from the food bank....just a few months ago we found out the house we had been renting was in foreclosure and our LL was MIA.

then, everything just fell into place. Did I have moments of panic through it all...YES, most emphatically YES. Getting here involved some of the BIGGEST struggles. But, dh and I had a shared vision....and only knew that continuing on the path we had taken, in spite of the difficulty, was the way we needed to go...to learn lessons, and to wind up where we are now.
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Wow, Alana - your place is so beautiful inside and out. I never thought about wanting to live in the country (dh does though), but your home and surroundings would be awesome to be living in.

I'll come back and post more later.

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I feel that right now I am living my ideal life.
Ive always dreamed of living on a small farm....now we are
my family is happy and healthy
my dh is earning more than I ever imagined possible.

how did it happen? I have to say God. I am living the life I have prayed for my entire life.

BUT...just last year we had to get food from the food bank....just a few months ago we found out the house we had been renting was in foreclosure and our LL was MIA.

then, everything just fell into place. Did I have moments of panic through it all...YES, most emphatically YES. Getting here involved some of the BIGGEST struggles. But, dh and I had a shared vision....and only knew that continuing on the path we had taken, in spite of the difficulty, was the way we needed to go...to learn lessons, and to wind up where we are now.

I posted some photos of our new place. In the spring we are getting some animals, and will have a nice garden...and hopefully nothing dies and the vegetables grow.
Absolutely gorgeous!
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This post has made me think a lot, thank you for that.

I'm at a crossroads right now.
The ideal life I'm looking at up one fork looks like this:

My partner and I are walking along the river with our little one between us. It is autumn, and the air is crisp, the river swollen. We are bundled up in scarves and mitts I've knitted less than perfectly, but proudly. Little one is collecting rocks, pointing at the eagles, hoping to see a bear. When we get back to the little house we built, we make a beautiful meal from neighbouring harvests, with meat my partner hunted. When the sun goes down, we light the fire and read stories, first to the little one and then to each other. The moon is high, and I can see her from our bedroom window. She lays a cool glow across us, like a blanket, so I can watch the faces of my little one and lover while they sleep.

The other path is cloaked in mist. I'm not sure what's up that one. If we can't have a baby (and we very likely may not) maybe it's the same life, without the little one? Or maybe it's a b&b in Costa Rica, or a restaurant in Quebec ... something far, far away so it doesn't hurt whenever I think of that day on the river. Or do we stay here, with so much of that ideal life already in place, and wait for Little One to join us, however that may be?

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I lost my job a couple months ago, and am not really digging the fulltime SAHM thing. But I hate working Fulltime, too, since I feel I don't have enough time for DS and other things. So I would love...


1. A part time job, ideally 3 days/week, doing something I love, that has insurance and stuff like that.
2. Freedom and flexibility to travel during the summer. I want desperetely to take a 2 month road trip w/ my family across the US.

That about covers it I guess!
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This is a helpful thread for me right now as some of this is just coming into focus

What would I like for my family, ideally?

-A bigger house, still close to downtown, where we could still only have one car and walk most places.
-A great teaching job for my very talented partner who graduated teacher's college 3 years ago and is still looking.
-Me as a SAHM/WAHM, doing some combination of doula, cbe, daycare, or consulting. Enough to stay connected, and bring in some money, but leaving me lots of time for dd and our new babe. (currently I work 40 hrs/wk in a job I hate) or maybe a part-time gig...very part time.
-a bigger, closer community of family-like friends, since our actual family is a bit far away
-time to write, sing, cook with my dd & babe2 and on my own...
-oh, and curly red hair, since we're talking ideals
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very good things to think about...i will be back to say more later

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I ALMOST have it but I am missing a big part. I work in theater and due to a serious dance injury in my early 20's my performing career got derailed then I went through infertility and then happily! 2 babies. I am lucky to still occasionally work and most people I know think I have it great but recently especially I have been thinking,"Wait! I ws supposed to be a well known actress!" So now all I want is to be cast in a reputable theater so people know that I am not just a behind the scenes girl! Thanks- i needed to get that out!
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Well hi there, you're in good company! I want the same thing! Luckily for me we are almost there. I work intermittently as a musician, also go to school full time, but DH is the breadwinner. He is going to finish his master's degree next December. After that he hopes to quickly land a position at a university, we expect to reach our house-in-the-country goal soon after that. I would like to stick around our current house for at least another 18 months-2 years to save some cash for a downpayment. I think for me the hardest part is being patient, having faith in the future and having faith in my husband. We have endured a lot of hard times, and sometimes it seems like "We'll never get there". But now that we're so close to getting there, it doesn't seem so hopeless. But you REALLY have to be patient.
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I'm so sad for you. I've been through infertility and it is so painful.

I also have the fantasy vs. reality thing going. It stinks.

I would love to be self-sustainable, living in a small house, growing food, etc. The reality is that my health will never permit it. I'd love to be off medication, but I may never be. I'm also hindered by the fact that my dh will probably always work abroad.

I am very, very unhappy right now with our situation. I have no spiritual outlet (I'm bad at practicing alone; I need structure). My kids have very few enjoyable activities, even on weekends. I have no intellectual outlet. I'm living in a huge, smoggy, trafficky city that I pretty much despise right now. I need nature more than anything right now.

So, I demanded change.

Here are my steps:
Got on Prozac and Valium to see me through these next few months here;
In February, visit our new town/country of choice;
Enroll in the local university, which has incredibly interesting courses taught in English, for Fall 08;
Visit the local zen center; already contacted people there, and they are lovely;
Visit houses (with fireplace!) near the forest (town is surrounded by forest), so my kids can run outside and frolick and do nature walks;
Visit the local hatha yoga center;
By March get off the Prozac/Valium;
In March, dh is giving me a trip to the US (alone!) to do mind-body work, which I hope will help both my condition and the personality changes it has brought about;
In July, move and then go home to visit mom and friends in the US -- and stock up on thrift store steals for the girls!

This isn't my ideal. But it's the best I could come up with the reality I face.
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I also have the fantasy vs. reality thing going. It stinks.

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You'll get there ... you have such a clear, doable path, Mama. The universe is listening! You can do it!

ps. Thanks for the words of support.

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first of all, i want to live in a city, and i need a good enough income that i can have kids and do that. i also want to be known enough that i don't have to pay for anything when i go out (but not known enough that anyone outside my world cares what i do), and i'd love to get paid to take pics instead of having to pay admission to get in and take them. some magazine work would be nice, as well as being able to take erotic pics. i'd love to have a studio. i don't want to be married, maybe i'll have a lover or two--but no one living with me except my kids. i want a 20' discoball in my home, lots of colorful LED lighting, and a big dining table, cuz i've never had one. then, i'd have lots of dinner parties with the kids and my friends...of course, i would serve them organic vegetables that i grew in my container garden on my deck :

edited to add: i didn't include what i see myself doing photographically, but i want to be very involved in LGBT issues and work with various organizations to build and strengthen community. additionally, i plan to be a still photographer when my best friend starts making films (LGBT related, of course).

what am i doing to get there? well this week, i'm submitting my work for an exhibit--my very first one i'm going to take some photography classes this year, as well. i found a camera shop that has courses that are less than what i'd pay in the city and i'm working on getting a divorce this year

also adding that i have the same issue as lilgreen. stbx is NOT OKAY with me pursuing my dreams if they involve me being away from the house for more than a few hours, much less traveling, being away on location, or (especially) taking erotic photos of men
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This has really been on my mind.

What I don't like: our house. It represents my poor decision making skills. It's in a neighborhood of big show houses. Neatly landscaped yards, rich green lawns. If I'd been thinking clearly I'd have realized before we bought, that the kind of house that would suit me is a bit more rural where it's normal and acceptable to look slightly run down, and where no one would think twice about having big rangy tomatoes in the front yard. I hate the pressure to look neat and tidy.

The house is on a third of an acre. Lots of room for a garden, a play set and maybe a lawn to play on, right? Nope. It's on a hill and most of the yard is in the front of the house, where it's supposed to be landscaped (hence, no rangy tomato plants). There is NO lawn in the back yard. It's all deck, patio, pool and a big, ugly expanse of concrete that was probably an RV pad. My blood pressure is rising just thinking about it. That rv pad gets up to 115 degrees in the hot Sacramento summers. No f-ing trees on that side of the house.

My eight y.o. son still doesn't know how to ride a bike, because our street is on a steep hill, with no side walks. It's not inviting for a little kid to learn how to ride a bike. I'm so sad that my kids don't play outside much. We do love the pool, though.

I've only recently been slogging my way out of a deep depression. I've been digging really deep (I'm proud of myself!) and I found that a whole lot of it is because I hate this house and am so annoyed and disappointed that I chose to move here.

And, of course, I'm very angry and resentful to discover that dh left the whole decision up to me. $300,000! You'd think he'd have wanted a say! I feel totally betrayed. I had no idea he had left it up to me, I thought we'd both chosen this house.

After we moved here Dh took a cut in pay to take a more stable job. I'm so glad his job is stable and we'll have excellent retirement benefits. But we cannot afford to do much renovating right now. I feel stuck. And I feel ashamed because I'm providing my kids such a lousy house to grow up in. Lousy, all dressed up and elegant with vaulted floor to ceiling windows.

As I'm crawling out of the depression my resolve is growing. I think we'll tear out the concrete pad this spring. Put in a veggie garden, a patch of grass and a couple of trees. I'm going to do it, come hell or high water.

Lindsey THANK YOU for this thread to help me gather my thoughts and inspire me!! This post is mostly complaint, and my solution isn't ideal, necessarily. But to achieve this one goal (tear out concrete, put in something living) would go a long way towards making a better life.

Someone moved my effing cheese.
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My ideal life:

I'm single, yet with one more child. I will have my PhD and I will be working for an organization that deals with international development, aid or conflict resolution analyzing policies. I will travel. I will be engaged with activist and/or intellectually challenging groups that seek to shake the way the world and society is perceived. (how idealistic does that sound??)

How to get there:

H and I are struggling and as of today he knows I don't love him, but we're still together... baby steps (long story involving past domestic abuse), but we are tentatively still planning for one more child. My PhD applications are being submitted today. If I'm single and custody allows it, I will study where the kind of jobs I want are. I will apply for the internship at the IDRC, and if that doesn't go through, I will volunteer. I will seek out like-minded people through my school and volunteering/internship.

It all hinges on leaving H. If I don't I can't get the kind of job I want. I will still have another child and I will still have my phd. But I'll likely end up as a prof and I won't be able to engage with like-minded people like I would like.

This is a good exercise. Thanks for this! Now off to drop off my applications.
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I feel that right now I am living my ideal life.
Ive always dreamed of living on a small farm....now we are
my family is happy and healthy
my dh is earning more than I ever imagined possible.

how did it happen? I have to say God. I am living the life I have prayed for my entire life.

BUT...just last year we had to get food from the food bank....just a few months ago we found out the house we had been renting was in foreclosure and our LL was MIA.

then, everything just fell into place. Did I have moments of panic through it all...YES, most emphatically YES. Getting here involved some of the BIGGEST struggles. But, dh and I had a shared vision....and only knew that continuing on the path we had taken, in spite of the difficulty, was the way we needed to go...to learn lessons, and to wind up where we are now.

I posted some photos of our new place... www.xanga.com/orthodoxpilgrim1 In the spring we are getting some animals, and will have a nice garden...and hopefully nothing dies and the vegetables grow.
They were wonderful photo's. Your daughter is beautiful. And I especially liked the photo of the red bird on the tree.

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it's funny how they say you can either have love or money, because in my opinion you really need both!

i left money for love (or rather, two steps over broke for love!) and i found out how very unprepared i was to deal with true financial struggle. like, no food money indefinitely. not having furniture. running out of things to sell for money.

we are doing better now, but it's a two steps forward, one step back process, and it really gets ya down after so long.

i want to finish college, find a work-from-home job for a company i respect, be a better homeschooler, find more like-minded friends for all of us.... we also NEED a real home, not an apartment--a home i can decorate, and play in the backyard, have furniture and a few things that i love, a huge full pantry. i want dh to be able to go to college, for him to get a job that doesn't work him to the bone all week and kick him in the teeth as a thank-you. i want a big-enough vehicle that isn't on its last legs.

all these problems come down to money and education, both of which are influenced by where we live. so we're trying to move. our tax refund should cover the cost of moving, but it's pretty iffy from there.

dh needs to get his citizenship before he can even apply for a pell grant to start college, and that costs more than we have.
so until we can save for that he's stuck with luck-of-the-draw jobs around here, where the job market is horrible and a "good-paying job" is seen as more than 8 bucks an hour.

moving.....at least we'll be moving to where a lot of friend-support is. and then i can re-start college finally... sometimes i just feel so daunted by it all. i'm turning 27 next week, adn i guess that is adding to the frustration. i'm not getting any younger, and meanwhile my kids are growing up with memories of not being able to buy this or that at the grocery store, memories of me stressing about paying the rent, memories of not being able to go bum around town cause we don't wanna spend the gas...sigh.

/whine

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You'll get there ... you have such a clear, doable path, Mama. The universe is listening! You can do it!

ps. Thanks for the words of support.
Thanks for the encouragement!

And no thanks needed for me. That river image tore my heart open!
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