Here we go off the deep end.
You asked about books - I can talk about these much more than about faith. I am not Christian, and do not believe in any God or any other kind of "higher power."
Books are a labyrinth, a neverending conversation among multitudes. You can start at any point, move from there to anywhere else, but never ever come back full circle. If you imagine "faith" as a fixed point that you can be led to, whatever joy of discovery you have in arriving there will not last long. With or without the further reading. You write that you want to be "directed" to faith, but you also show that you are an intelligent, inquiring individual who does not just swallow dogma (or pomo pseudotheology) whole.
Your present desire and your nature are at odds, and I think you know which one is stronger.
That's not to say that you ought to give up on the idea of finding a community of people who want to discuss the "big questions." It's just to point out that whether or not there is any divine being, any doctrine or practice is the work of human beings, and therefore influenced by culture, politics, economics, and individual psychology.
First example: let's leave aside speculations that Jesus never factually existed and go to the question of his nature: the subject of vicious theological disputes in which thousands have been slaughtered for voicing the wrong opinion. Man? God? Both? For most Christians, the law was laid down by the Nicene Council, a gathering of bishops who VOTED upon his divinity (BY A MARGIN OF ONE!!!) in the 4th century AD. Other tidbits you won't get in Sunday school: Mary's virginity is mentioned only in the book of Luke, and Luke was a Greek. In Greek legends of his day, anybody extraordinary was said to be "born of a virgin." Other sources say that any single Jewish mother was said to have been carrying "God's" child when the real father was not known. Mary Magdalene was definitely not a prostitute, and many scholars of the Gnostic gospels believe she was hot only Jesus' favorite apostle, but also his wife. Some legends say that she bore a daughter named Sarah after his death. The early Church fathers did a lot to tidy the stories up to be more to their liking (i.e.: adjusted them to the patriarchal culture), but not all traces have been erased.
Perhaps these things I am writing are BS, but they are worth investigating. If there is truth in the Bible, it is not completely straightforward. Some people are "blessed" with a "simple faith" that takes the Sunday school stories literally, but they have a different kind of mind than yours. My advice to you is to respect your gifts, and seek others who will help them grow. When you have been spiritually fed, you will then have nourishment to offer the multitudes.
p.s. Check out www.beliefnet.org
They have some quizzes that may help you find a sympathetic group of people to study with.