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but everything has pros and cons
hi all. my intentions for this week are...
...to come up with a really great question to ask Abraham and Esther Hicks when i attend their seminar this saturday!
that's it for now!
|Ok, I know this is going to be *old news* for most of you, but I just can't help it! I finally REALIZED, well, I guess crystallized and put into words my growing awareness over the past month or so. It's amazing... I just feel so FREE. So here it is: (I know I'm preaching to the choir but it is unbelievable how good this feels)
Life is too damn short not to be happy RIGHT NOW. The whole PURPOSE of life is to BE HAPPY. Everything you aspire toward, all your goals, are leading to one thing -- HAPPINESS. So there is NO REASON TO WAIT. No reason to think, "I will be happy when..." or "I would be so happy if..."
There is also no reason to:
a) Be afraid. Ever.
2) Give a flying hoot what anyone ELSE thinks, especially people you couldn't care less about
c) Do things that you don't care about or that don't make you happy and never will.
I have been noticing more and more the sheer amount of people in the world who just plod through their days, trying to get to... what, exactly? Go ahead, start asking people how they are and count how many people say "Ok" or "I'm alright" or "Eh" or "Same shit, different day". And I used to be one of them! At the risk of sounding super-cheesy, I have to say this:
Every day is a gift. I know, call Hallmark, we've got a fabulous new insight here!
But seriously. What makes that elusive day in the future when you're going to be so happy any different from today?? So why not just BE HAPPY TODAY? As my friend Jenny stated so eloquently, "Life is not going to happen. Life is NOW. THIS is LIFE."
I have just started excusing myself from conversations about how miserable anyone is, or how they're just trying to make it to Friday, or anything like that. My co-worker Rose said yesterday, "If you can't go home, lunch is the next best thing." And I thought, "Yeah. I love going home! I love lunch! But I ALSO love every minute that the kids are here. And I love driving to and from work!" People seem to enjoy being miserable. It's becoming an art form in our society. And I'm done with it. I'm done with not feeling absolutely wonderful all the time. There is always something to be happy about. Always something to think of that will put a smile on your face.
When something shitty happens, it's not easy to get over it, BUT YOU DO. Especially if it's something that you can do nothing about. I think it was one of the Abe/Hicks things that said, "If you know you're going to feel better about this in the future, why not just feel better about it now?"
My Endless Crush got MARRIED. He ran away with his adorable girlfriend (who, by the way, looks just like me) and eloped. My cousin (one of the very few who is not already married) just got engaged. Six months ago, these two pieces of information, combined with the job loss situation, would have thrown me into such a tailspin of self-pity and hysterics that I may never have recovered. Now, I just feel GREAT. I am so happy that they are happy. I am THRILLED that I am free of crushing on him and wondering if we'd ever have a future together (he's so not my soul mate, by the way, it's no big loss) and caring about what he thinks. Their happiness does not in any way take away from mine, and in fact it makes mine grow.
I also no longer care to waste time on people who are not nice to me. I am tired of sucking up to people and practically begging them to be my friends when I don't even LIKE them. WHY did I ever do this? I know I'm awesome, and if you don't agree then it's YOUR LOSS. The people who do agree are ALL I NEED.
I am FREE. I am free of stressing. I am free of waiting. I am free of wanting.
LIFE IS GOOD.
I would guess this has to do with the amount of milk you're producing/the nursing and the fact that you are on such a restrictive diet for your little one's allergies.
It seems to me this is an indicator light on your personal dashboard telling you that you aren't getting the proper nourishment for your body and you need to give it some attention. If your aren't nourished, your little one won't be either.
I believe there is a way to balance both your little one's allergy needs and your body's nourishment needs. I'm thinking that some homeopathics, NAET, or some other natural method of allergy elimination (body talk, cranio-sacral therapy), etc. would be good for the both of you and help both of you be a bit more balanced.
"I am guided to the practitioners that can help us the most."
"My body is in balance."
"My body is healthy and strong."
"I receive adequate nourishment from the foods I eat."
"The foods I eat are sustaining me and my child."
I'd also talk to your little one's spirit and get her involved in the healing process. When my oldest ds was very sick as a baby...I talked to his spirit and it helped guide me to our healing. They know.
Wow, I got in on this one on the first page! WOO HOO!
First of, Amris ... I know you are eating all raw. Are you open to adding raw dairy/raw egg yolks, and some coconut oil (or other high quality fat liike what is found in whole, raw dairy)? If you are open to it (and have a source for good raw dairy), you could make a raw smoothie with the milk, egg yolk, fruit, raw honey, and coconut oil which should help satiate you and help you get some weight back. Just a thought I had while reading your posts ... take it for what it's worth.
-Jump back into hs'ing (we are only doing K so it's nothing huge but more of rhythm, circle time/sensory integration activities, focus for the week)
-Finalize clearing out our house and organizing.
-Purchase freezer chest for our side of beef we are picking up in a couple weeks.
-Enjoy our 85-90 degree weather by spending time outside every day with my boys.
-Start walking in the evenings when dh gets home from work - YAY for daylight savings time as I can go out alone and it will still be sunny!
This week I am practicing the living meditation of THANKING everything that comes my way.