I've been searching through the LOA threads I've found and they are very helpful in many areas. I am just realizing a specific area where I have been really stressing myself out (and my children as well) - time. I have been presuming that I don't have enough time. I have made this presumption such a habit that it affects all of my daily activities. I want to live in a frame of mind that acknowledges the reality that there is enough time!
For example: I am preparing to teach a course at the university this fall, one which I have only taught twice and neither time recently. I need to re-tool the course for an updated textbook and new ideas I have. My thinking has been that I do not have the time to do this. The REALITY, however, is that as I go about whatever I'm doing with my children or my life, I am thinking and planning and dreaming about this class, and the fact is that it's pretty well planned already. And class doesn't start for two months. But the main things I want to do in the class I already have sketched out in my mind. So there has been plenty of time. I just have not acknowledged this.
Another example: my MIL helps me a great deal with the girls. As this time of change (going back to teaching, transitioning the girls to preschool) approaches, the girls want more time with me. I, presuming I do not have enough time (for anything), distance myself from them when I'm with them and then drop them off in a way that says I can't wait to be gone. This gives them feelings of insecurity and they cry for me when I'm away (with grandma, who has been with them every day of their lives!!). But I have plenty of time with them. I have plenty of time for myself. I have plenty of help. I have no need to create in them a sense that I wish them away - even a short distance away. I'm not talking here about creating space for allowing new people into our lives as students (mine) and caregivers (theirs). I'm talking about an attitude that says "We have to hurry and get used to not being together so off you go now! There's not enough time!" Really there's plenty of time.
I have an abundance of time. An overflowing spring of time cascades through my days and nights, giving me all the spiritual space I need for connection to myself and re-connection to my children and family.
Thanks for reading if you've taken the time to read this far.