Interesting answers. Thank you.
I would just hate to prevent anyone from existing, you know?
That just feels so 'heavy.' I tend to put too much pressure on myself and I think I am doing it in the area too.
For me, it is really trying to be perfect vs. trusting in God's love and grace.
There can be such a Christian ideal in some circles, like HSing all ten little ones that were all born in the water and nursed for five years each, while making their own dresses and grinding their own wheat by hand and milking their own goat... but how much of that all is IN the Bible and how much of it is just man's outward ideal, yk?
I can't give a really good answer why, but I just don't think people can prevent souls from existing. I think that just somehow constains God, and He is too big for that. I think we need to follow His leading thru the Holy Spirit, whether He says yes or no. I don't think He would have given us things like fertility signals, and made a limited time a woman could get pregnant each month, if He didn't want us to have some say.
I think if DH and I only have five, like we do, we were meant from the beginning of time to only have five (as long as we are praying and trying to seek His will).
I used to think all birth control, NFP-type things included, was a sin. But I really think God showed me (that for our family now) it's not. For me, it is a real act of faith to trust Him that He is showing me this, and to actually use birth control (and act under His grace and love and freedom), than to stay where I was and not do anything to prevent a pregnancy (and act out of a sense of having to be perfect and follow all the right rules).
I think it's great to have a dozen stairstep children out of love, but not because one feels like they have to live up to some ideal, you know?
Can you tell I have some baggage here?
We were very legalistic in SO many ways, this is a big step for me.