Last year I had a missed miscarriage - it was picked up at a 9 week ultrasound and discovered the baby had died just before 6 week.s
Now I'm pregnant again, I'm 5 weeks, and I'm terrified of miscarrying again.
I feel completely numb and stuck in limbo.
I have an ultrasound scheduled for next week, at the 6 week mark. I just can't forget having the ultrasound last year, seeing the look on the midwife's face and knowing that something was wrong even before she said anything.
I just can't bare the thought of having to go through this again, but I don't want to let myself feel confident about the pregnancy.
Has anyone else experienced this, and if so, how did you deal with it?
Also - I don't feel any pregnancy symptoms - is it normal not feel anything at 5 weeks?
hunnie please be kind to your self and as a loss momma i felt the same way and i did not have any symptoms with my rainbow baby till i was about 9 weeks along so yes it can be normal we do have a thread for moms like us http://www.mothering.com/community/t/1396863/expecting-our-rainbow-babies-february-chat/80#post_17577439 this thread is very help full please check it out
So sorry for your loss! I am in the same boat as you...a little further along but first pregnancy after a loss. It's terrifying. Every day is a choice to pick love over fear. It's impossibly hard.
I found some great resources on www.stillstandingmag.com. They have a specific section just for pregnancy after loss. The pieces are written by fellow moms who have suffered losses. It was nice to read something that I could relate to.
Sending you peace.