twinmamma, it does get better. in the meantime, get any and all help available. if someone offers to cook a meal or run errands, say yes yes yes. if you can ask friends or family to help with anything, do it!
i just introduced myself yesterday on another thread, but my twins are not babies anymore, they are both seniors in college. i just stumbled across this forum because now, at 41 and recently remarried, im looking for advice on the ttc forum! agh! that sounds crazy everytime i say it, even to me.
but back to breastfeeding twins, lack of sleep, etc. it is possible! i bf mine until they weaned themselves- 1 at 20 months and 1 at 22 months. however, the first few weeks were harrowing. they were not great eaters at first, and even my mom, bless her heart, was telling me i was going to starve those kids if i didnt supplement (she of course was from that generation- they didnt bf, she didnt know.)
i got a lot of encouragement from a pamphlet someone passed on to me called, i think, 'mothering multiples' put out by la leche league. if you havent already, you might want to google their website- almost every area has a la leche league network. a lactation consultant might be available through your local hospital. a really breastfeeding experienced girlfriend might also be able to help you with latching on etc, things to get your milk to let down like warm compresses, positioning, giving you encouragement.
like someone said earlier- it gets easier, sooner rather than later, if you can just hang in. i am not sure i would have gotten through those early days and nights if it hadnt been for the fact that the times i actually did try to give formula, my stubborn little babies refused it!! i had no choice.
and like someone said- sleeping is the most important thing you can do. i was so sleep deprived in those first couple of weeks, that i actually would hear the babies crying when they weren't! like auditory hallucinations! i wanted to feed them strickly on demand, but it wasnt practical. if i had to do it over, i would try harder to feed them simultaneously (it was so hard when they were so little though, they always would fall off the breast just as my milk would let down, and milk would be spraying all over all of us, and they'd be trying to catch their breath and i'd be sweating, we'd all be crying, oh, the memories!) but i would try to do that more, or at the least feed one when he cried, change him, burp him, and wake the other one up and do the same, so i could get a little time in between feedings.
((HUG)) congratulations on your babies! it is so tough in the beginning, but this too shall pass. just hang on and do the best you can, what ever that is. things will settle down and you will get into a manageable routine. twins are such a beautiful gift.
Every good and perfect gift is from above.