Update: Had another sono Friday and sadly I did lose twin b. Twin A is doing well. I'm crushed, and like the poster who wrote about miscarrying twins at 10 weeks wrote, I would take back every tear I cried about being pregnant with twins. To get to the point where I'd accepted the twin pregnancy, I'd bonded with both babies, fantasized about our future...this whole experience has been a roller-coaster and now it feels like nothing but pointless punishment. I'm grieving, and it makes it much worse that no one understands--people say, "Oh well, you sort of knew it could happen," (true, but it doesn't mean I'm not sad) or, "You're still having one baby, so that's good" (true, but it doesn't mean I'm not sad), or, "Well, it's for the best, this will be much easier than having twins" (true, but it doesn't mean I'm not sad). My husband says it was just "pixels on a screen" and that if I hadn't gotten the scans I wouldn't even know about it, so it's not a real loss. Sigh.
I know I will out the other side soon, happy for the pregnancy and the family I have, but it's rough at the moment. Thanks for all the support, and I'm sorry I won't be joining the moms of multiples "tribe."