Thanks for the posts. I did talk to him and he said he was okay with either option. He said that me going PT sounded like our lives would be easier and that he would have no problem having them on Saturdays.
I am lucky that he is a very hands on hubby and sometimes is more the momma than I am.
To answer your questions, this is actually my second pregnancy. I have an almost three year old. I did go back FT after having her. It was hard and pumping was even harder but I did make it with her and we were able to nurse for 18 months. I am very proud of that bc we never did need to supplement. I know alot of moms on here nurse a lot longer..... and I know for alot that was probably too young, but she was ready to wean. She did it on her own.
I really felt strongly that the only way I could justify going back was to know that the childcare situation would offer her opportunities that even I couldnt.
She went to a Reggio Emilio center that was amazing... very pro BF, very AP. (she is still there) Sadly there is no way I can afford for all three to attend. They do not do anything but FT spots.
I know I have to bring in a certain amount of $$ just to cover bills. We have a lot of SL debt from getting degrees (which I don't regret) but it does tie you to needing to work to a point. I could make it work being PT.
I guess Im just wanting a plan, bc with my daughter, it was so clear what we were doing. It seems so different this time bc twins are so different and Im looking for control.
I do know that if they make an early apperance (hopefully not!!!) I will make my schedule so they dont need childcare. I wouldnt want them exposed to germs, etc.
It worries me not having too much family time together though if I go PT bc I know twins are stressful and don't want my husband and I to get resentful of eachtoher in the process. I think sometimes that can happen... I dont know.
I guess everyone is right to just see how things go... I am laid back about alot of thngs, but for long term things, I LIKE A PLAN. Sorry for the caps... I guess I am just venting in general..
Thank you everyone for listening and your suggestions