No words of wisdom here, I actually came to this forum today hoping to find a thread with people talking about how I am feelng - namely isolated (and frankly a little resentful).
I too did ART (ivf) to concieve these babies and feel like I should just be grateful.
I am lucky to be in a city where I have lots of people to talk with, hang with, etc. However, I feel like the world around me, including the women I normally spend time with, are wizzing by at warp speed and I'm on the outside. As you allude to, caring for twinfants is just so much constant work and I find it tough to do the kind of outings I used to do with DS1.
I should be trying to live in the moment and accept that this too shall pass, but mostly I feel lonely. I tend to need tons of social interaction and am finding it tough to get what I need. When I do go out then I am sacrificing the babies sleep (they only sleep at home in a quiet dark room,but that's a whole other post
) and I have to rely heavily on other people to hold and care for my babies with me. In all of this my DS1 is getting lost in the shuffle and so I feel guilty about that. No end to the guilt around here, actually . . . I am experiencing delayed bonding with the babies and sort of feel like i have someone elses two little babies living in my house.
Sorry, I'm being so self involved here, making my reply all about me. Just wanted you to know you aren't alone in feeling worn out. Thanks for the opportunity to get this all out!
Oh, what I would give for a night out by myself. I'm starting to resent DH (even though he is great) since he has things in his life that he enjoys (golf, working out, jogging, reading, lunches out, etc) and I no longer do any of the things I enjoy (going to crossfit, reading, going out with the girls, taking DS1 to movies, etc). Life feels out of balance. Blah. I could just cry, only I don't even have the energy for that.