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Still nursing all day here too. Luke and Jaz are 19 months old. They nurse just as often during the day as they did when they were newborns (though, thankfully, not for as looooong at each nursing). We are still nursing everywhere we go. They mostly nurse tandem because it is too hard for them to watch each other nurse and not get in on the action. They are just starting to express a preference over which side they nurse on, and will tell each other to take the other side. And sometimes they will both agree to switch sides. . .
There is no question that nursing is their absolute most favorite thing in the world. I cannot imagine life without it. At the same time, I really don't feel like I enjoy nursing them that much anymore. I often get the skin-crawling feeling while they nurse and really can't stand it when they want to nurse for longer than 10 minutes and the milk is pretty much gone. I feel like I spend the whole day trying to distract them and then giving in and nursing them. They do eat solid food, but not enough to sustain them. Nursing is still their main source of nutrition. I have tried to introduce cow's milk as a supplement to nursing, but they aren't big fans of that idea.
I have left them for 3+ hours several times in the past month or so, and they didn't ask for me or ask to nurse at all during that time. But, of course, when I am with them they want to nurse at least every hour, often more than that. It felt so good to have those few hours without nursing.
I feel so torn between what I believe in (nursing them for as long as they want to nurse) and how my body is feeling (like I don't want to nurse them at all anymore). I sort-of think that if they were only nursing 2 or 3 times a day then I would enjoy it more. And I actually don't really mind just nursing them one at a time. But that is such a rare event, and I can't figure out a way to insist on nursing them only one at a time that wouldn't involve the non-nurser sobbing and pulling on my shirt.
I am committed to nursing them until they are two, but I'm not sure how much longer than that I will be able to stick with it. I really wish I was enjoying it more. . .
Charmarty, you are AMAZING!
Mindfully mothering SIX kids (ages 5, 6, 8, 9, 11 & 11) in a small house with a lot of love.