I finally did it.
I have been thinking about it for the last year it seems. Everytime we had a round of layoffs, I would think okay this is my chance. But it never happened. I have survived three rounds of layoffs since my dd was born. This time I just had to do it. I asked if I could be layed off. The gruop was not even planning on any additional layoffs, just some restructuring between groups.
So it looks like they are going to do it for me. I haven't gotten any specifics yet but I guess it looks promising.
I want to be laid off instead of resigning.
I am still a little depressed about the decision.
I am afraid that I won't be able to find another job when the time comes.
Plus I am a little aprehensive about being a SAHM.
I want so much to be an AP Mom, and lately I have felt very detached from my dd. That is what finally did it for me.
I read this one post and a woman said " detachment breeds detachment". Meaning that once detachment sets in you don't even know wht you have lost. That was just so scary to me.
I am good at what I do I am an Electrical Engineer for an International Semiconductor Company. The company has been very good to me.
This has been one of the most dificult decisions I have ever had to make.