This is the most stressful part of working for me... I never feel more torn or more ashamed than when I have to decide between "not doing what's best for my daughter" and "disappointing the people at work and having an unknown effect on patients" (I'm an audiologist, and the only one in this office, so if I call in, all my patients need to be rescheduled.) Notice that it's framed in the negative, either way.
I want to be totally responsive to my babe, but when push comes to shove, she's the one who's suffered.
It makes me sick to admit it.
I've sent her with sniffles and on cough suppressant.
Somehow it's even harder for me when I know she just needs a "Mama Day" and I can't give it to her. (She really loves "going to school", so usually she's fine when I leave her...) I feel like, "I'd love to keep you home and cuddle all day, but I'm too afraid to say that my child's needs come first. So, sorry babe."
If she's really sick, DH has stayed home with her. I'm afraid to miss since I only work 20 hours/wk.
I thought I would always put my daughter's needs first, but I turn out to be more responsive to strangers.
Anyone else feel this way?