A good job has come up in New England.
Those of you who followed "do you love your job but hate..."
will know my dilemma.
DH's family lives in southern MA. This job is in Burlington, VT--about 5 hours north. REALLY north.
I guess I'm going to apply for it & see what happens--what's the harm, right? I know Burlington's supposed to be a good place to live, and maybe we could finally get the old house in the country we've been daydreaming about. But I'm feeling REALLY conflicted. My library is about to move into a beautiful, brand-spanking new building. DD is 1 year old, and we have tons of ties to the community now, mostly through my prenatal yoga, but also some college friends who live in the area, and we just got a plot in the community garden...
We want to live closer to family, and my parents live in PDX. I guess I was starting to think maybe we'd end up back in the northwest. My parents are very youthful & healthy, but they both just turned 70, and all 3 of their kids would be on the East coast. It'd be nice if one of us were closer to them.
OTOH, my parents travel--the ILs (also in their 70s) don't. So I know my parents would come see us often, and we'd be close enough to the ILs that we wouldn't have to take huge amounts of vacation to go see them.
I know that I've never thought of us as ending up in Madison for more than 5-10 yrs. But I just don't feel ready to leave yet. And when we DO leave, I want it to be the last move for a long time. And I just don't know if I want northern Vermont to be our long-term home.
And what if we get out there, buy our dream home, and the job turns out to be worse than this one? The climate here is really collegial--what if I lose that?
Sigh. I guess I'm getting ahead of myself, since I haven't even written the cover letter. I think this would be a good job, but I just can't get excited about it.
Thanks for reading my ramblings...I hope it all makes sense...