My husband is a stay at ome dad, but not by choice, you see I'm in the Navy and I have a 5 month old son. I could get sent out to sea any day so we thought rather than worry about quality child care my husband would just stay home. Child care here in Norfolk, Va is so expensive and to be honest I don't trust care givers for the most part (I used to be one and worked with a lot of people in child care and trust me if you knew what I knew...)
So my husband stays at home and HATES IT. As if it's not hard enough being the "bread winner", I have to deal with breast pumping in a dirty female birthing aboard my ship, I have to ask permission from my superiors for a "pump break" where I get heavy sighs and eye roles, I wake up at five am to PT with my division after being woken up at least 3 times by my son to BF, and then, THEN I come home, make dinner, do the laundrey and listen to my husband complain about his day and how bored he is. Arhh! I'm loosing the joy of motherhood here!
I love my son so much but I feel like my circumstances are sucking the joy out of it. So here's the thing, I can get out early because of some Navy loop holes, but I feel like I have and obligation to finish my enlistment. What should I do? Every night I go to bed worried sick about leving my son behind if I'm deployed. I don't think I can do it. Especially after we've AP'd this whole time. We're so connected...I think it would literaly break my heart. And to top all this off I have one of the most dangerous jobs in the navy, I work on the flight deck directing aircraft...I have to have my head together. I'm so lost, I feel like I'm being forced to choose between whats best for my son, me or my husband, I don't know how I can make a choice that's good for all of us.