My new babe is nearly five weeks old and I go back to work when she is 12 weeks. I'm only back from May 5-June 19 before school gets out and then I have 10 weeks off.
I've been doing a lot of soul-searching about this work thing and leaving my dds. The problem is that my job is so taxing. I am there at 7 am (leave at 6:30) and during productions (I am a drama director) I don't leave until nearly 5pm. I sware to the goddess that I can't do it with two kids. With just Violet, I could have someone bring her to me and she could hang at rehearsals. There is no way I can have two kiddos running around the theatre, nor would I want that. And I simply cannot bear leaving for that long of a day. I just can't do it emotionally.
So, what to do? I pretty much have my dream job right now. I am in charge of developing my own curriculum, I teach what I want to teach, I direct what I want to direct. I have a substantial following of artsy, thoughtful, talented, smart students who love the theatre and spend every waking moment there. I have a good budget and my shows are well-attended. I don't want to give that up, but can't see reducing my hours or not directing.
So here's my plan: I am going to drop my directing gig in favor of having my dh (also a theatre professional) direct for the department. My day would end at 2:30, dh would bring Z and V to me and he woudl direct the shows! My activity stiped woudl go to him thereby staying in the family, he woudl have a creative outlet and the kids woud get both of us.
I just need to convince my administration that this is feasible. If they don't go for it, I will be looking for a new job
If you've read this far, thanks. It helps to just get it down and out of the whirlpool of my head.
Mama to Violet and Zoe
Born at home!