I can feel the potential for the "best of both worlds" scenario--I already like being back in the place where I make a little $$. Even though it's not nearly what I used to make, I feel like I'm a little more in control of finances. I also like the external feedback--pats on the back, lunch with the boss, etc--that my $$ job gives me. I just having a hard time "giving up" some of my standards for the house and our food, and I am having to reach waaay down inside me to find the energy for it.
So, for now, I feel some guilt--although, honestly, while I love being with ds more than anyone, I have found he has learned a lot (good stuff too) being around a house full of little kids (my sister keeps him ~20hrs/week, and she has 4 of her own and plently of play dates). And I do feel less burned out about being Momma.
So, I do feel like this is the best set-up for us, but I feel as though I have yet to succeed in realizing our potential.