Update: I gave my 30 days notice 2 weeks ago and they found someone quickly! Today is my second day home and I'm so happy again! I feel like I've been traumatized by the experience and I've reacted physically - I haven't had a gout flareup in years and naturally it's rearing it's ugly head again... Anyway, I just wanted to thank each and every one of you for your support and suggestions! Now I need to start a thread about frugal living, because are we ever going to be poor! My folks are going to pay for COBRA insurance, which helps tremendously... I know there aren't many people who would even have a choice and would simply have to work. I feel so blessed. I learned a major lesson about what is truly "valuable".
Your insights have been wonderful...
I just started alternative licensure to teach high school biology, and I think I may have made the worst decision of my life!
If you teach, please tell me things get better if they do, but be honest because I need to make a decision.
I really want to be able to work for a couple of years at least because we're trying to build a house on our property, but I'm wondering if I'll make it even til Xmas!!
I teach at a low income school. I came from a much different situation - I was teaching at a university part-time so I only went in for an hour every other day, taught my class, and left. I never even went to a public high school, I attended a private boarding school. SO, I had no idea what to expect.
The kids are awful, I'm pretty tough but I can hardly teach anything! I teach a college track class (biology 1) and a vocational type class that still requires students to pass the gateway to graduate. It's supposed to be more hands-on, but I can't get any experiments done because there are major behavioral issues with some kids. Many of them are special ed kids with specific requirements - I really don't have a problem meeting those requirements. It does take a bit of extra work, though, and many of them can't seem to settle down in class. Actually, I like teaching them the best because they're often so humble and many of them are downright sweet.
I coach, also. We're in the early part of our season. I went from basically being a SAHM to leaving my house by 6:20 a.m. and not returning until after 9:00 p.m. 3 days a week. The other 2 days I get home at 6. I miss my babies (3 and 1) so much I could just about die. DS is still breastfed but of course that has become much reduced. My DD is panicky every time I get near the door! I've seen them for a total of 4 hours this WEEK! That is really killing me. Whenever I see a baby at a game or at school, I want to cry, once I almost did cry in front of everyone.
I'm sure things will be better once the season is over. I never have time to be with my family because even on the weekend I have to work on my lesson for the next week. I have to get everything done at once since I can't do it during the week due to my coaching obligations, and on Monday morning I try to get to school before 6 am so I can photocopy things for the week. I actually like coaching because I get to work with some good girls, but teaching those classes really challenges me almost beyond my ability. I've been told that the kids are just testing me but I'm at my limit.
Also, the other faculty (with a few wonderful exceptions) just aren't very nice. My mentor teacher actually seems threatened by me since I have much more education than her and she's always making "you'll get fired if you do this or that" statements. She keeps telling me I'm going too fast because she has only done 1 chapter in the 3 weeks school has been in session. I'm in line with the other bio teacher who is going the same route as myself and also was a "real" biologist. My mentor teacher has a shockingly small amount of knowledge about biology, and she knows it. And frankly, she's really annoying.
Is administration always standoffish? At the university level, I'm accustomed to people treating each other with professional friendliness and courtesy at the very least, but here I can barely get anyone to even look at me when I'm asking a question. Everyone - faculty and administration - act like they never left high school themselves or something - everyone in their own gossipy little clique. I feel like I'm going to another planet every day. I wonder if I shouldn't try to get on with another school, but I don't have anything to compare this to so that's why I'm looking for your advice. Does this seem normal?
Oh, and this week a kid brought a huge gun to school so he could kill another student. Fortunately he was caught quickly, but it's really scary. The building was identified as being overrun with black mold, but they may renovate in a couple years. There are no windows in the classroom, and the school smells bad. It's so unpleasant!
Sorry to write so much - I went from posting on MDC everyday to not even logging on. This is my first time back in weeks! I miss you mamas.
Please help me keep going or let me know if I'm being unreasonable! I need the job but not at the cost of my family's happiness! I haven't even been given a contract yet, so I still have time to get out... but I want to try to stick it out for a couple years. Will it really get better with time, or does my school sound atypical????