Sometimes being a mother and being a career woman makes me feel like I am two people trying to live in one! KWIM?
After going back to work when dd was 11 weeks old, I realized after a few months that I really wanted to be home more. That feeling kind of took me by surprise because I totally thought I would want to continue my career.
Initially, I thought I was getting bored in my present job and started looking for other full time opportunities. Doing the job searches totally excited me because I really enjoy my career. But, I also wanted to spend more time at home! So, after months of anguishing over what to do, I finally reconciled myself to wanting to work part time. It's like I had to give myself permission that it was ok to put my career on hold and be home more. I was finally able to secure a part time position....not an easy task in my field. I put in my notice and my last day at work is the end of June. Ironically, I recently had to pass up two opportunities for really great positions. The most recent just happened this week. It would have been a terrific move, career-wise. When I first heard about it, I got all excited thinking about how much I would like doing that job. But, then I thought about my overall outlook on working and I realized I don't want to work full time, no matter how great the job. So, I had to call my prospective boss and let her know that I was going to pass on this opportunity. Talk about a huge fork in the road! I don't regret not taking the job, but I worry about the path that I have chosen. My part time position still keeps me in my field, but it is by no means a great career move. However, it is a terrific "mom" move, one that will benefit both dd, me and our entire family.
Does anyone else relate to this???
: Who knows, maybe I'm overthinking all of this......