Just wanted an opinion here
I have primarily been a SAHM for nearly 5 yrs since my older daughter was born. During that time I went to grad school, got my Masters degree, did an unpaid internship, have done some volunteering &, starting a yr ago, have been working "relief" at our local hospital which amounts to about 2 days/month of work.
My older daughter starts kindergarten in the fall & the younger one pt preschool. I have been looking for a 20hr/wk job b/c we are struggling financially & I would like to make use of my education before it is so far in the past that I seem out of touch with the work world.
As fate would have it, nothing half time has come along, but a full time position has come along that is literally my ideal job & a really good match for my background. I have not been offered the position yet - I am just hopeful - but have been feeling terribly guilty w/ the idea of leaving the girls that much, especially the younger one.
When I talk to working moms who went back right after having their babies they imply that I have been 'wasting my time & education' staying home as long as I have & that they didn't have a second thought about going back to work. I basically get the - you sit around eating bon bons all day spiel.
My SAHM friends, on the other hand, for the most part are making me feel like an awful human being for considering putting the kids in day care & "having someone else raise them." One has even told me that my kids don't mind it when I leave b/c I am basically not raising them right now anyway b/c I work at all (currently I am working no more than 15 hrs per month!) Guilt, guilt, guilt!
The point is, that I do not know if I am going to be overwhelmed w/ guilt if I go back full time at this point, or not. I know that it is going to be a lot of work as far as juggling home & work life, but want insight into how my emotional health & the kids emotional health might stand up. Any insight would be appreciated!