i just started back to school a few weeks ago, and wowzers, i am a REAL wreck. i'm a 4th year PhD, just teaching and taking a dissertation seminar. but i've had debilitating insomnia and neck and head pain for a couple weeks now (mostly corresponding to when teaching got going) and can only sleep at night by taking ativan. even that is not working so well.
i'm getting regular chiro adjustments, working with a regular MD, getting blood tests, and going for acupuncture (first time) on friday. so i'm trying to get better.
but i am stressed beyond belief. i keep telling myself i'm only teaching one class, i can do it, it's not that hard. people do it all the time (then i feel like a failure, comparing myself with them). but it apparently IS that hard because i am very close to not functioning at all. we have a babysitter 6 hours a week (2 of which i'm in lecture/staff meeting for teaching)...so i have 4 hours per week to do work in, and i usually end up using part of that to exercise or run an errand for myself.
so i end up trying to do most of my teaching prep, including reading, and anything else i need to do for school while DD is napping, or when DH is home. if she doesn't nap, i get really stressed and fear i'll end up in front of the class totally unprepared. DH is very supportive but he works FT, a regular 9-5 job, so he can only help so much during the day.
and i try to keep my evenings low-key so i can actually sleep so don't work after about 6-7.
financially, it would be tough if i took the semester off, but we could swing it. i could re-evaulate in the spring. i might lose part of my fellowship money. i don't know.
any other ideas of what i could do to make this easier on myself? i need to take care of myself and DD, first and foremost. i already have PPD and symptoms of PTSD from the birth and am pretty darn close to as messed up as i've ever been