I am presented with a once in a lifetime opportunity. My schooling, children's daycare, transportation costs paid for. This offer is only valid until the summer. So I can't put it off and do it later. I've chosen to do the Health Care Aide course, which takes 6 months. 3 days a week, 9 hours a day. In the total of 6 months my kids would need to be in daycare for 42 days. The rest of the time it will be me or daddy who takes care of them.
My sister and I had arranged for her and her daughter (9 months) to come out here and watch the kids in my home. I asked her at LEAST 10 times if she was comfortable with that and she kept telling me yes yes yes yes. Yesterday I told my mom "I keep asking her if she is sure she wants to do it becuase it's going to be a lot of work and she keeps assuring me that it's fine". My mom says "you want me to be honest with you?" I said "well DUH! Of course!". Mom says "well she thinks its going to be way too hard, but she doesn't want to hurt your feelings". So I get off the phone with my mom and I was a bit angry so I didn't want to call my sister yet. Phone rings a few minutes later and it's my sister. She's crying and explains to me that she was going to do it, but she didn't know if she could do it the whole time. So I can't do that because I need someone who is reliable so my sister says she won't do it. So she leaves me high and dry. I need to have a daycare provider in place by MONDAY when I submit my formal application for funding.
Anyways, I call the 3 daycares in town....all 3 are full with a one year wiating list. I call some LNR (licence not required) daycares and all are full with even longer waiting lists. I finally get a hold of a lady who is in the paper looking to babysit and she says sure come meet me tommorow (Sat) and see if the kids and I get along. Great! So I'm feeling a lot less stressed and am just keeping my fingers crossed that it will work out. Two hours after I talk to her the phone rings and it's her saying she's changed her mind and she's going to have to decline.
So now I don't know what to do. If I can't find anyone to watch my kids I'm going to have to cancel my schooling and then get a job flipping burgers when they go to school full time (4 years from now) because I have no employable skills and there are no well paying jobs here.
I'm so stressed out and I can't stop crying! Why does life have to be so difficult. I wouldn't even be in this situation if my sister had been honest with me from the beginning. I could've had more time to look for childcare.