* EDD: August 30th give or take....
* Age: 36
* Location: Missoula Montana* What number child is this for you:
We have five beautiful living sons
. We've had three miscarriages and lost twin sons
to stillbirth Spring 2009.* Family (partner, other children, and/or furbabies):
My husband is a therapist and author, my eldest is 21...yes I AM too young to be his mother
....we have one son in high-school and the rest are being home-schooled happily. I am also the best friend of the most amazing Old English Sheepdog that ever lived...sweet Ferdinand,
how could I manage without you?!* Birth plans/preferences:
We are opting for a birth center birth instead of a home birth this time, because during our loss process I died twice, and my husband is not keen on the idea of losing me or even taking a chance in that direction, even though it all happened IN A HOSPITAL...
...so a birth center with a CNM is where it's at. I am excited about their birthing tub ...it's amazing; and I love my CNM. I used to teach Bradley method classes, so I'm 100% natural in my birth plan which is a good thing because the reason I died the first time was because the doc dealing with our stillbirth decided I was crying too much and pumped me up with morphine which I am, it turns out, severely allergic to...deathly allergic to. Nice. We'd looove to have a water birth. But mostly...we'd just like to have our baby...I really can't take more loss.* Anything else you'd like to share:
...I really really really really don't want anything horrid to happen again. It's hard when you know all that can, and does, go wrong. It's hard to turn a blind eye to that. But...I AM trying to be positive...and I really need support and understanding.