Oh, I'm so sorry. So incredibly disappointing. Maybe you already know this, but be sure to let yourself grieve. You've definitely had a loss.
Thank you for the hugs, thoughts and well wishes. I'm feeling pretty funky. I was up all night with irrational thoughts. My mind was going a bit crazy. I'm better today as far as not having strange thoughts. My hormones must be all over the place. I'm surrounded by friends and family who love me so I know I'll get through this. I feel better knowing that I knew from the get-go. I feel better knowing that I felt my baby's spirit leave me in a moving moment on Monday (though I tried hard to dismiss the experience). My HCG is at 1027 today so it's low. I have to retest tomorrow to make sure it's going down, otherwise, I'm supposed to go to get another US at a different facility to rule out ectopic. I'm sad that I most likely already passed my little embryo baby in its sac without even knowing it. It's possible that I passed it two days ago. I thought it was just discharge :( It literally looked like a big clump of chocolate pudding on the toilet paper. :( So sad, I flushed it. My midwife believes the baby stopped growing in the 7th week given my previous bloodwork and symptoms beginning to decrease in week 8.
Sorry to hear that. That has happened to me everytime I was pregnant. I have been pregnant 3 times before this (on my 4th right now) & that is how it always was with me. With my 3 pregnancies I would spot. Iwould wake up early in the morning with blood inbetween my thighs. Then I would go to the bathroom and everything came out...baby...placenta. it was hard..
But I hope everything is okay and just pray for everything to be okay. Have faith.
I can so relate to this experience as it's almost exactly what happened with my last loss-except I didn't know the baby wasn't even developing until an ultrasound. My heart aches for you-for your disappointment and the processing that will follow.
It's ok to say that sometimes Nature sucks. I (and many of the other women here) will be holding the space for you while you grieve.
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