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#1 of 17 Old 03-30-2011, 10:57 PM - Thread Starter
 
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It has taken me over a week to get enough courage (or to come to terms) with writing this post...and after Sunday, even more so. Although I didn't post too many times, I leaned on this thread for support through my few short weeks of carrying the life of my third baby.

 

I started spotting Sunday before last and found out the next day through ultrasound that the baby and sac had stopped developing at 5-7 weeks... I should have been 11 weeks along in my pregnancy. I wanted to allow my body to release the remains in it's own time- at home- and after a lot of soul searching during the week, Sunday morning I was able to say goodbye. Unfortunately, Sunday evening I started bleeding heavily and passing huge clots and couldn't stop. After beginning to pass out, I ended up being transferred to the hospital via ambulance for an emergency D&C to remove a little remaining tissue and for a blood transfusion due to hemorrage. They put 3 units of blood into me (debating a 4th) and 4-5 bags of IV saline fluids. To say that I almost lost my life is not a stretch of the imagination.

 

So, as I sort through all of these emotions and tramatic events, I am moved by how supportive my friends and family have been... bringing food, taking my boys for a few hours so I can rest, and sending cards/flowers/emails/phone calls. It is a shame sometimes that it takes a tragedy or near tragedy to realize how much love you really do have surrounding you.

 

Much love to you, Mamas. Thank you for being there for me and wish you beautiful, healthy, happy births!

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Sorry for your loss and your traumatic experience. I'm glad you are recovering with the support of friends and family.
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I am so very sorry for your loss. And what a scary, harrowing experience.... I hope you will be able to find peace with what happened, and I will keep you in my prayers. grouphug.gif


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I'm really  sorry to hear of this. Hugs and thoughts.

 


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I'm so sorry to hear this mama. You will be in my thoughts.


Steph, DH Jason (1-1-11), DS Owen (10-3-03) and DS Kai (10-13-11)

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I'm so sorry, mama. I wish you well in your physical and emotional recovery time. hug2.gif


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Santoshamama- I am so verry sorry, sweetie. I am happy to hear you have such supportive friends and family around you to surround you with love. Please be gentle with yourself, now. Love and light comin' to you!


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I'm so sorry for your loss.  Be gentle with yourself.

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So sorry for your loss and tramatic experience. So glad to hear you have loved ones to support you through this time. grouphug.gif


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I am so sorry mama! I am glad you have so much love and support at this time. hug2.gif


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Praying for your healing and for much support and love. Jenny

Jenny-engaged to a wonderful man- mama to 3 rambunctious homeschooling boys, ages 12,10, and 8-doula, knitter, natural food enthusiast, farmer-and expecting number 4 around October 7, 2011 right before I turn 40.
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I'm sorry for your loss, and for what a terrible experience it was. Thank goodness you made it. It's wonderful that you have such supportive people around you. I hope you continue to heal peacefully.


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I am so sorry to hear of your sad loss, and your perilous trip back from the brink.  Take good care of yourself.  hug2.gif


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I am so sorry for your loss. We are keeping you and your family in our thoughts and prayers. Much love, peace and healing to you.

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hug2.gif  I'm so sorry for your loss and the awful experience as well.  You'll be in my prayers.


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I'm so sorry.  What a hard thing.  I'm thankful you have such good support around you.


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I am so so sorry.  Its great to hear you have great support!


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