just so you know.
we will be doing
*long term care
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It was so rough, I felt so much guilt about returning them. It was the worst thing we ever did. My husband could not handle it, and they are his sisters kids. I was really upset that I couldnt spend time with my own baby, it was just insane. Then we had to rearrange all the visits with their mom, it was hard to be around her. We just were not prepared. Everyone ended up traumatized.
So be warned a lot of the kids have a lot of problems they wont tell you about, thats typical. Some people are cut out for it, like some people are cut out to be nurses or teachers. But some people arent. I think its great you are considering it and I hope it all works well for you. Kids need loving people like you
I'd be very careful about making a long term care commitment if you don't have much experience in this area. It's so traumatizing for these kids when so many placements fall through. Ease your way into the system to see if it really is for you.
I think it's great you're going to try though. I used to work for CPS and really felt for those kids in care. I saw so many placements break down - the foster parents would really try hard but some of these kids can be really challenging to deal with. I don't know what kind of support services they have for kids with behavioural problems here (psychologists etc) because you often need them.
What I have gathered through all I've read and learned in the classes is that the only thing certain in foster care is that nothing is certain. You have to be flexible and recognize your limits.
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i dont have any kids yet, so the worry of my kid trying to fit in is not even a topic right now.
the long term care (after going to some classes) i feel fits us best. i knwo and have been told OVER AND OVER again. you can not be 100% anytime you foster. i am going through kids crossing. they are #1 in the state they are very helpful and under stand what we are going through.
i love the advice i will type more when i get a chance.
as far as the PG teens. not right now. i dont feel i could handle that. we are young and have not been PG ourselfs so i dont feel fit doing a PG teen.
lovebug, congrats on your decision to do this! I think it is great that you have really researched and figured out what will be a good match for you. And I am totally in support of your decision to do longterm care (when you say that, what exactly are you picturing?). I still think taking a short term placement or two for your first placements can be really helpful because you get a feel for different social workers and for the way your agency functions. My first placement was a "permanent placement" that went south (as in, child was moved even though it was not in the child's best interests and we had been assured that child wouldn't be moved) partly because of the people involved. It was a really, really, really painful time. I still cry sometimes when I think of it. Had I known more about the social worker, I probably would have thought twice before taking a placement of a child in her caseload. I also might have switched agencies earlier had I known more about how the director of the agency functioned in *reality* (the face she showed during licensing and during our first six months of doing care were totally, totally different than how she ended up really being...she since was forced to resign because of her behaviors, but I never would have guessed that was her future when we were in the process of getting licensed and started parenting because at the time I adored her).
But even from a less drastic standpoint, the more placements we took along the way, the more we knew the ins and outs of the system and how to function within it. I am so glad that our ds (then dfs) didn't come to us earlier on in our foster parenting journey because the foster-adopt roller coaster would have been a lot harder. And dfd's case is even more complicated, so thank goodness we have done it once before.
Anyway, take it or leave it. But after we switched agencies (from a private agency to the state), while we waited for a foster-adopt placement, we took a placement of an eight year old girl that was always meant to be very short term. Having her for a little less than a month was great. It eased the wait for our foster-adopt placement, giving us someone to focus our energies on. It was fun because we didn't really have to worry about the future. *And* it got our names out in the DCFS office so people could really get to know us. Her going back home was a very happy occassion for us. We had always known it would be short term, so we approached it like we were babysitting in a lot of ways. We were able to not get too emotionally attached, with no trouble at all...as much as we adored her (we actually still stay in contact with her). Also, we were able to be a mentor for her mother and even though we know her mom isn't perfect, we know that the two of them love one another very much. It was less than two weeks after that little one left when we got our foster-adopt call.
So, just a thought.
Other advice? Well, I have tons. What type are you looking for? If it helps you, here is my background:
My dw and I have been foster parents for about five years. We first foster parented through a private agency. In our state, the Department of Children's and Family Services handles the vast majority of foster care cases. However, they contract out to private agencies the care of children with high/therapeutic foster care needs. This way they can have higher case loads for state workers, and lower case loads for kids who really need more of the social worker. Anyway, so our first agency was a therapeutic agnecy for older kids and teens. And we basically started out with them because before we even got licensed, they had a "permanent placement" for us. After he moved, we did respite care with them for a while, and then we ended up switching over to the state, getting an adoptive homestudy, and doing both short term care (including emergency placements) and foster-adoptive placements.
ds, then dfs, was placed with us at 1.5 days old while still in the hospital. We adopted him 13 months later. We now have dfd, who was placed with us at 6 months old. We are waiting to see what will happen with her case, though she was placed with us specifically because it was looking like her case plan was going to become adoption. Indeed, the situation continues to look poor for reunification, though you never know (if there is one thing I have learned, it is that no matter what someone says, unless you have legally adopted a child, there are never any guarantees when it comes to the future of their placement). The first termination hearing is this week.
The hardest part for me- I don't love her like I love my own kids, so I feel guilty. The system is very confusing and, imo, messed up. We have also been given a date for her departure and we are not sure it is the best place for her to go. (To her grandmother's. Why isn't she visiting with gram? Why isn't gram taking the older siblings whom she has at least met, and has a relationship with? Gram didn't do such a hot job raising her own kids, why does she get to try again with a sweet, wonderful, innocent baby?)
The best part- It has brought out the best in my own kids. (the worst too, actually!) They realize how much they have that others don't. She is a totally different kid than when I met her in the hospital going through withdrawal. We have shown her so much love and attention. She has a great personality (which I can't take any credit for) but is also so quick to smile and laugh and play (which I give us some credit for!) I feel like we've given her a pretty solid start to a life which is going to be hard.
Thoughts for you- I've come to realize just how emotional it all is, and know that I couldn't handle a 5 year old coming in with his own issues to compound it all. I've struggled with not loving our dfd enough and then caring for her too much and getting scared. Geesh, imagine if she was having her own issues and not just being a perfectly great 4 month old! Just something to think realistically about.
I think it is a great thing to consider. I grew up in a foster family and feel that it was good for me, but I have siblings who feel very differently. (We had 60 odd foster siblings over the years. Some for days, two for more than 15 years each.)
I don't believe we will continue with foster care after this child leaves, but I am also execting twins. But I think we may try again in 5 or 10 years. Who knows; it is not completely out of the possiblity.
Good luck on your journey. Just remember that at any step of the process you can always say "no, thanks, we are done." I think families sometimes get caught in foster care, either out of a feeling of repsonsibility to the child(ren) they already have or because of persuasive social workers. But it is clearly worth exploring.
Me. With 1 spouse, 4 kids, 16 chickens, 74 matchbox cars, 968,562+ legos, a dishwasher waiting to be emptied, a washing machine waiting to be filled and a lost cup of tea in the house.
Not that fostering is bad, but it's really important to know what you are getting into before you begin.
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