The whole Christmas weekend I was miserably sick. I was throwing up, had terrible headaches and just didn't feel right. I was seeing my Dr. at least 2-3 times a week and calling her office to see if it was normal to feel that bad. On Dec. 26th I started having headaches so bad my vision was getting blurry. My Dr. called and asked me to check into the hospital to be observed for 24 hours so they could recheck my labs and see if they could get an idea of what was going on. I was only 36 weeks and she didn't want to deliver me too soon. Checking into the hospital was pretty routine and they drew blood right away and me and DH were planning a low key night just to pass the time. I knew something was wrong when 4 nurses came in and started putting in another IV and telling me that my Dr, was on her way. My Dr. arrived and said I had severe pre eclampsia and we needed to deliver right away. My blood pressure at that time was 190/115 and she didn't think I could handle the stress of labor and she also started a drug called magnesium? that would make laboring really difficult. They started a rush prep for a C section and the magnesium was horrible. I could hear what was going on around me but I had a very hard time talking and opening my eyes.
Baby Britta arrived on Dec 27th. She weighed in at 4 lbs. 11 oz. She is our little peanut but healthy as can be. My Dr. said as soon as I would deliver my blood pressure should come down but instead it kept getting higher. They rechecked my labs when I wasn't improving and I was diagnosed with HELLPS Syndrome, only in most cases it goes away after delivery and in my case it was getting worse after I delivered. The Dr. had to put me back on the magnesium and a few other drugs because my liver enzymes were multiplying and they didn't want me to have a stroke or seizures. There are days that I don't remember at all. I was in the hospital for a total of 8 days. I wasn't able to change Britta's diaper or feed her until she was already a week old. Needless to say it was not what I had hoped for or imagined.
I am home now on light bedrest. I am taking two different blood pressure meds and still get headaches but it beats laying in the hospital. Britta has no desire to latch on but I have started pumping and am getting a little out. Its been hard processing everything that I didn't get to experience (never made my maternity photos) but I am thankful that she is doing good and am trying not to dwell on the past.
Oh mama- I am so glad you and baby are ok and it is perfectly normal to grieve those things you lost. Take your time and work thru it. I wish you all the best.
Congrats on a beautiful new baby!
Welcome to the world, sweet Britta! We're all happy you're here safe and sound!
Take time to really care for yourself, mama. You deserve it. And, when you're ready, you can grieve the things you feel you missed.
Chatty Girl - 3/2006, Lovey Boy - 1/2010, Delicious Baby Girl - 1/2012
Starr - I'm so glad you and Britta are safe and sound now. That sounds so scary. I'm sorry it wasn't what you had planned. My mom had a similar experience with me and didn't see me or remember my first few days - but it has not affected our relationship. I couldn't live without her! I love the name Britta! Take care of yourself!
I'm sorry you didn't get to have the birth you wanted, but I'm glad to hear that you & baby are ok. Be good to yourself and congrats on your baby girl!
First-time momma-to-be with my amazing man. Planning a homebirth and expecting a baby girl mid-January 2012.
Wow! That is intense.... I'm sorry for all the stress and pain you had to go through. I'm glad everyone is safe now and healing. Congratulations on your new baby girl! Take care of yourselves...
I'm sorry you didn't get the birth you wanted. It's ok to grieve your birth experience while still being happy for your baby.
I'm glad your both ok and that you're getting better now.
mom to all boys B: 08/01, C: 07/05 , N: 03/09 , M: 01/12 and far too many lost ones
Wow, what a story! I'm so sorry things didn't go as planned and certainly hope you recover quickly. Please take it easy and ask for lots of help if you have friends and family nearby. It took me several months to absorb and accept my son's birth and talking to people about it made it easier. Hope you can do the same!
Me: Sarah, married to: J, mommy to: C (8/10) and E (11/12)
Big hugs to you Starr. I am so glad that and the baby are safe and healthy, and so sorry that things did not go as you planned. Take your time and be good to yourself, and congratulations for bringing Britta into the world!
Married Since 4/05
Mom to the silliest girl since 1/12
And SUPRISE! expecting #2 in 12/15
Let your light shine.
Oh mama... I'm so sorry to hear about your terrifying experience with HELLP and to hear that things went so differently than you'd hoped. Congrats and welcome to Britta though, and I hope your body will heal soon.
Mother of two great little guys, G (9/28/09) and W (1/20/12)