Pakwan, I sympathize in a lot of what you said, even though I am in a state where I don't have to worry about my midwife, but have often felt horrified at the infringements going on in some states that all but suspend a woman's civil rights once she's pregnant. If you're in one of those states, that really stinks, but I am glad you have a support system in place.
With you on the homeschooling thing too, only in my case I have basically hooked my littles up to Reading Eggs, my oldest up to REading Eggspress (online primary reading and advanced reading comprehension self-paced thing) and am planning on signing my older two up to a Minecraft homeschool class this coming week (super cheap, only ten bucks for 5 weeks) so that they can do stuff that will keep them moving forward and involved, without my needing to direct it, during the newborn period. They are also going to be doing a lot of helping, so will be excused from a lot of academic expectation in the interim...so I don't feel pressure about that.
Delighted and Pakwan, I went through being super clingy to DH this week, and needing him close, and feeling urgency about the things that need doing in our house, too.
When the kids do fight (usually the 6 yo son either fighting with his little brother, or his big sister...he's just difficult in all directions right now) it is a lot harder for me to deal with calmly right now.
37 weeks today, and having the WORST cramping and low back pain..had it the last few days lightly, but today takes the cake. Not sure what to expect!
Older Homeschooling mom with 4 kids, born cesarean, HBAC, HWBAC, and unmedicated VBAC in hospital after age 40.