Low platelets, might not get my homebirth
I'm struggling with my low platelets. If they go below the threshold of 100, my midwives suggest I have a hospital birth. I fear my heart will break if I have to give birth in hospital.
My DS was born in hospital and it was so long, mostly because I couldn't relax and there were too many restrictions.
This time is much more different. I'm a student midwife. I have worked in the hospital that I'd give birth in. I know and like (most) of the staff, and really unless there was a reason to consult an OB I wouldn't even see the staff, it would be my midwives. I'm in my home country.
But I really wanted a lovely homebirth.
Just sad here.