I'm not going to type my whole story up right now (I'm on my phone), but I noticed there are quite a few of us who are expecting again after a loss, and thought it might be nice to have a place to share our hopes and fears.
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I had the good crying feeling tooOriginally Posted by ybutterfly
mamacatsbaby - no worries! It was kind of a good crying feeling. And I didn't cry. So that's OK.
I love your row of images - it is so perfect!! I also want to start (re-start) meditation. I don't know why I am just so resistant to starting. Part of it is that I don't have a very good space to do it in or a routine for when to do it. I should just do it first thing when I get up in the morning. It doesn't need to take long. Maybe I will make a commitment to meditate all of March. Do you want to join me? With the intention, at least...
Glad everything is looking A-Ok Redmom!Originally Posted by Redmom
Ladies, today I had more bloodwork and all looked okay. The next milestone is on Monday when I have an ultrasound at 6 weeks. I'm so nervous, it seems like forever away. I feel like anything can happen. I really envy women who casually announce that they are 8 weeks p/g or 9 weeks p/g and they have no reason to believe that they won't stay pregnant.
Wonderful news Kaliakra! Nothing like seeing a nice, strongOriginally Posted by Kaliakra
Seasiren, I am sorry you have the scary bleeding. I am going to keep hoping for you that it is harmless and just a needless scare.
Redmom, I know what you mean about the time and waiting, and everything seeming to take forever on this trip to parenthood. But next week will be here before we know it.
I had great news today. For the first time in my life, I saw and heard the beautiful and strong (147 bpm) heartbeat of a baby! It was like a miracle. I cried and my husband got emotional, and everything is just perfect! I really hope for smooth sailing from now on too. I have been feeling much calmer this pregnancy, but I still got very anxious waiting for this appointment.
Yay! Glad things are moving along for you OregonMoon!Originally Posted by OregonMoon
seasiren, when i was 10 weeks along with my son i had some bright red bleeding due to cervical trauma during a pelvic exam. I freaked out but an ultrasound showed a viable pregnancy. I hope that's all this is for you, just some harmless bleeding. Thinking of you. Hope to hear good news soon!
All is well with me. Had a dating ultrasound today. Looks like I'm 7 weeks. Heart beating away in there. It feels like I've been pregnant forever already!
Will be stalking your results jese!Originally Posted by jesepumpkin
lea2012, that sounds tough with your partner as you wan to be able to express all those niggling thoughts. maybe talky o someone else about it? i'm having the opposite problem, my husband just says 'it fine' to anything i say. he doesn't see why we should worry, which baffles me.
i did a sweat lodge when i was pregnant with my first! she was a surprise and that was about 4 weeks along. i was sooooo bone steaming hot and just about passed out. she's fine and a kid genius!
AFM i am soooo anxiously awaiting my second beta result from yesterday. i had dreams all night that i got the results. in one it was 80,000 and i was like OMG its twins!. i should get the results within the next few hours.
I'm sorry you're finding it difficult to get support from your partner lea. I cosign with jese, in addition to this forum, is there anyone IRL you can open up with?Originally Posted by lea2012
seasiren - I hope you get some clarifying information! And also that the bleeding is just bleeding and nothing else, like so many on here are suggesting it could be! But, I know how scary and upsetting any bleeding can be, and the time spent waiting to figure out what is going on is so hard.
Afm, I'm struggling a bit right now. I am trying to be very intentional about enjoying and appreciating the fact of this pregnancy right now (after all, whatever happens, I am pregnant right now), but it is so hard not to worry, especially as I approach the timeframe of my first loss. My second one was so late that I know I won't really relax at all until I make it past week 12...but that feels so far away. I think one of the hardest things is that I feel like I can't express worries to my partner because she is a very worst-case-scenario type of thinker. If I say, "hmmm...I don't feel as queasy as I did a couple weeks ago, I hope that isn't anything to be worried about," she immediately assumes it is a bad sign and that I'm going to have another miscarriage and then I end up having to reassure her, when that is not what I feel like doing. So I find myself hardly talking about how I'm feeling, physically or emotionally, just so I don't have to go down that path.
A particular worry I'm having today is that yesterday I was exposed to really extreme hot temperatures (in a glass blowing studio - furnaces and other equipment ranging from 1000-2000 degrees) I was only in front of the extreme heat for a couple minutes at a time, but sort of repeatedly over an hour or so. I can't stop worrying that raising my body temperature like that might have a negative impact. Even though I'm trying to not worry over things too much.
I'm very thankful for this forum to be able to celebrate joy and sorrow with people who have had similar experiences - right now it feels like my only outlet.
Gosh, I hope the rest of you are doing a bit better than I am right now..lots of support being sent your way!
We had a huge snowstorm the day of our 5 day transfer. There was no option to not go. Oh, and it was 2 hours away. It was scary. Cars on road crashed, cars off the road in ditches. We stayed in a hotel the night before and barely made it there. So glad we got in and out of Dr's office safely. It's all part of our babies' adventure story.Originally Posted by Redmom
Oh blast, I'm supposed to get bloodwork on Monday morning then a 6 week u/s in the afternoon...but there is a snowstorm forecast.....6-10 inches......bahhhhh!!!! I really feel for people who are undergoing fertility treatments who've had to deal with these crazy snowstorms this winter........
Oh my goodness...how scary .....I'm glad it worked out for you.Originally Posted by 1blueridgemama
We had a huge snowstorm the day of our 5 day transfer. There was no option to not go. Oh, and it was 2 hours away. It was scary. Cars on road crashed, cars off the road in ditches. We stayed in a hotel the night before and barely made it there. So glad we got in and out of Dr's office safely. It's all part of our babies' adventure story.
It turned out well but I certainly understand the emotional stress of having to reschedule it!!Originally Posted by Redmom
Oh my goodness...how scary .....I'm glad it worked out for you.
For me it's "emotionally inconvenient" if the u/s gets delayed rather than "mission critical".
My acupuncturist told me about one of her clients who needed to drive to a hospital being run on generators immediately after Hurricane Sandy for fertility treatments......
I am so so sorry for the loss of your precious son.Originally Posted by Right of Passage
wow a heart transplant!we donated my son's organ and tissues when he was killed, sadly since it was bodily trauma they couldn't use most of his healthy perfect organs, but they did get his heart valves. I hope they're helping someone. Sending lots of sticky baby vibes your way!