Some wonderful discussions going on here! Hello everyone!
, it sounds very exciting and memorable to be a part of the births of other animals.. I've always wanted to have a pet that had babies ever since I was a kid.. Both of my parents lived on farms growing up and had so many stories of bringing baby things into the world.. But for some reason they chose the suburban lifestyle for my brother and I and we never happened to have a pet that got pregnant. :/ I'm hoping I can let my kids have that experience haha then I'll get my fix
It's funny you mention grounding,
- that's a technique I use when I get panic attacks. I never had full on panic attacks until I got pregnant, and now I've had TWO big ones. One of those two happened tonight actually.. I just calmed myself down in the last hour. It's so frustrating because I'm not able to calm myself as easily now that I'm pregnant.. It's like my hormones run away with the feelings of anxiety and take it to an insane level. Tonight I wasn't able to slow my heart rate down for at least an hour, I was trying every trick I could think of and it didn't stop until I went through a few guided mediations. The first panic attack I had during this pregnancy, though, stopped right when I went outside and stood in the grass and started breathing fresh air. It's like the earth helped control my inner rhythm. Tonight it helped slow it down quite a but but for some reason it didn't stop entirely. Blehhhhh frustrating but it feels good to be normal now as I post this.
Tomorrow is 18 weeks for me! Time seems to be flying by.. Especially when I'm looking at the dates our midwife payment is due haha it feels like it's coming up fast! We really want to move into a better house in September, but that's also when the early payment (cheaper) option is due.. So that puts quite a strain on our budget. We might just have to pay the regular rate in November, since that would mean there's not such a time crunch for spending large chunks of money.
I think that's why I had a panic attack today.. I've been letting money stress me out but I know it will be okay. I've got to have faith, that's all I can do.. Anything else just makes me neurotic and that's not healthy. We will make ends meet, we always do.
I'm not sure if I've felt the baby yet, if I have it's been little butterfly flutters mainly when JB talks to my tummy, but I am not sure if it's our baby boy or just my imagination haha
for keeping up with the boards! No one should feel bad anytime ever, we are all pregnant women with complex lives outside of mothering.com so I'm sure everyone understands that you guys have other responsibilities to tend to, no worries! I'm glad
stepped up as co-leader so it doesn't all fall on one person!
that ultrasound experience sounds AWFUL.. It's terrible you are being forced to go back to them for lack of better options... I wouldn't want to help pay their salaries. I am so appalled just reading about your experience, how could they treat you and your darling baby girl that way? I'm sorry you had to deal with apathetic doctors
especially when you're already dealing with other frustrations!
I hope your next visit goes much smoother!
I only meant to get one ultrasound this pregnancy and I'm already at two, planning on having a third for the anatomy scan in another four or five weeks. Oy... Not that they've been negative experiences, but I do feel bad making baby boy listen to such annoying loud sound waves .. He moves around and makes complaining movements a lot when we are looking at him with that thing. I meant to just have the last one, but we couldn't find his heartbeat at 10 weeks so they had me go in at 11 weeks for an US to see the heartbeat.. Then I ended up having the emergency one a little over a week ago when I had spotting, just to ease my mind, and we found out the gender but they told me I'd have to come back for the anatomy scan still. Oh well. I'm so stoked about having a healthy baby boy it's hard to let much else bother me.
I'm definitely going to start meditating EVERY DAY from now on, to ease tension and try to train myself for labor in a way. I'm tired of these uncontrollable panic attacks (two is too many!) and I know I have some negative energies I'm carrying around that need to be replaced with positives...