Thank you guys so much! i really hate that i can't scroll up while i do this, so i make sure i address everything you said. dang it. i will def try the fish oil again. i really did not feel well when i took it years back, but maybe it was psychosomatic, seeing as i really hate fish?? LOL. might all be in my head. :P and vitamin D, yes! i never thought about it til recently i had a friend (my mw actually) who had a blood test saying she was low. we live in florida, i did not even think it was an option to be low. haha. but apparently, it really is! amazing. and i am remembering floradex (sp?) was mentioned. wow, really wish i could scroll up... ha.. but i am going back to write all of it down! i do wish i had some help around the house more, i know depression over the squalor we're living in is not helping exhaustion. the kids are so nice and kind, generally speaking, but they can smell weakness, and they are also opportunists. the 3yo has always been a wicked little beast, but is approaching 4 now, and showing improvement, but he was the one i had to really stay on top of all day long. there's a 2yo as well, who is very good for a 2yo, but that being said, still a bit typical and gets into things. not that you guys wanna hear allll my problems (there are plenty! haha), but the bf is also working 50-60hr weeks. he comes home and speeds through as much cleaning as he can, but he is also really worn down. he keeps a smile on, but he's aged recently, i can tell life is getting to him as well. i'm just in an all-'round funk, and its effecting all of us. the kids even seem kinda depressed. the dog looks sad. i also have all these paranoias that prevent us from getting out more. we've had a lot of recent rattlesnake warnings around town, and now i'm all creeped out by going outside. yes, i know i'm nuts. lol. but its one of those things here. like, can we just have alligators?! 'cause i can see those, they don't hide in the grass! lol. anyway, i guess its just a vicious cycle. i got too worn down to do my regular mom duties, then too depressed to do them, in turn being more tired again. i am happy about the pregnancy and all that, but i am overwhelmed. we've always homeschooled, but i actually have been fantasizing about sending the 2 big ones to a school. i can't do it, they're 'behind' where they should be by regular standards, but i see the appeal now. anyway, thank you again!! everyone! i'm writing this all down, it's going in my purse, and i'm headed to a store monday.
you're all really awesome!