I'm planning my second homebirth. I think my favorite memory of my recent birth was being the only one to give a cervical check and the thrill of feeling my son's head. That moment was amazing and such a positive experience compared to some of the rough exams I've endured before. I forgot all about measurements and thought, "That's my baby!" He was born a few hours later!
I feel like every day is a blessing. I do not know that I could pick one memory. I love watching them grow, learn and work towards their goals.
My wedding was small and simple, yet perfect. I studied religion in college and I am still slowly working toward my BA in religion with the hope of someday becoming a nurse midwife. I am entering my last semester this fall. It is fascinating to me how different people think and process the world! That is why religion was interesting to me. I didn't even know about midwifery in college! It all works out for the best though. I really enjoyed the education and the opportunity to learn about so many different cultures.
My username is my middle name. It means blessing. The number was half of my great grandmother's home address! She was a very special person.
27 That is a common issue! Many mainstream American people (my family especially) think we're very strange. We homeschool, homebirth, don't conform to cultural expectations and have lots of kids. Ironically, I feel like our family is very small
so it's all about perspective. What usually comes out of my mouth in these conversations is that I feel the world is full of potential and uncertainty. I do not feel that the culture or economy should dictate our procreative choices. It might sound odd to some people, but I feel my children's presence before their born and I believe that they are waiting to join us. They are part of us before conception. To someone immersed in the concrete thinking that pervades American society this does not always make sense, but that is the best way I can explain my choices. I could not imagine being old looking back with the regret of limiting them for fear or social reasons which fleet like the wind and shift with a moment's notice. The world is inherently dangerous and uncertain, but this does not dictate my decisions or family choices. We have one moment, a very small amount of time here and they are precious to us, nothing we could work towards in our lives is more meaningful and fulfilling. There is absolutely nothing more important to me. For all of the things that money and resources get wasted on in this world, it surprises me that people make such a big deal about having children. The world is backwards in my opinion, but each person has to evaluate what they feel is right and important.
Even though I feel these things strongly, it terrified me to tell my m-i-l, but my four year old son spilled the beans before we could decide how to share the news. He said, "guess what?!" She said, "what?" Then he told her, "My mommy has a baby in her tummy!!!!" She said, "OH!" He said with a huge grin, "YES!! We don't know if it is a boy or a girl!" His enthusiasm was contagious and she responded positively for a change. My life is complete because of them. There really are not enough words to explain that!
My mom expresses her concern often, so I asked her which one she would give back! She was stumped by that question, but it exemplified to her how we feel about them before they are even conceived.
It's a tough topic, but a good question!