Originally Posted by crunchymama27
what sorts of experience with birth have you had thus far- family and friends, remembrances from childhood? what about your partner, what are their birth experiences? what are your feelings and aspirations about birth?
I went into labor with DS in my 38th week. I had a 'midwife' at the time who gave me something 5 hours into labor that is being called the reason for the placental abruption I ended up with. DS' s heart rate dropped to nearly gone, and we were transferred to the hospital for an emergency CS. I was completely knocked out for the delivery, and didn't get to see him till he was nearly 3 hours old. We had both lost a lot of blood. He was put on cpap and kept in the NICU. When he was only about 5 hours old, I was asked what plans I wanted to follow if he didn't make it, because his chances didn't look good. I didn't get to hold him till he was 2 days old, but once I was able to hold him, it all tured around. He was released when he was 11 days old, and will be turning 14 this year!!
DD decided to stay in till 41 weeks. I had planned to do a vbac, but I let my fear win, and after almost 11 hours of labor (4 hard) I asked for a CS. I have regrets about that one. A lot of them. I had tried to educate myself as much as possible, but I don't think I had the support I needed at the time. DH was doing his best, but it was his first and it scared him to see me in so much pain.
This baby will most likely be CS as well. The hospital in our little town only has an on-call anesthesiologist, and they almost seem to be afraid of anyone even mentioning vbac. My doc is really cool though. She has not tried to set a date for CS, and hasn't mentioned it aside from when I've brought it up. She gave me a wink and said that if i 'showed up, almost fully dilated, there'd just be no point for a CS, and we'd deliver vaginally'. She's pretty awesome, but I don't know how this one will go yet. I'm honestly terrified of having another CS, but my anxiety is crazy and I'm almost as terrified of uterine rupture. I've had everything go bad before, so it's hard to convince myself that it will 'be ok'. I'm a realistic person.
I've been around homebirths most of my life. All of my siblings were born at home, as were my two nieces and one nephew. I've been present for friends births, and used to dream of being a midwife. Though, after DS's birth, I didn't want the chance of being responsible for such negativity, and forms of loss.