, that is a lot to be worried about!
I'm so sorry! I will keep you in my thoughts, hopefully everything will work out alright. I think it's wonderful (and impressive) that you are still moving forward with your dream. I don't think it sounds crazy at all... I actually think it sounds like that's what you're SUPPOSED to be doing. It sounds like the universe is on your side, helping you make it happen. I'm impressed you found a school that you can get licensed so quickly (before the baby comes)! That's phenomenal!
My best friend who gave birth to her first baby last october is a massage therapist, and she worked her butt off throughout her entire pregnancy and had NO complications and a very easy birth, so don't worry your head off about that. Massage is a very natural art so I don't think you'll do any harm to yourself or your baby. Just listen to your body and don't overdo it. That includes worrying though-- DON'T OVERDO THE WORRYING. I do that. It's a bad habit, it just makes me more tired and unable to cope. Like you said: if you NEED to quit, quit. You'll know. But i think you're incredible for giving it your best shot!!!! Just have faith that everything will work out. You can deal with problems IF
and when you run into them.
I also cannot believe how quickly this is going by,
We still need to find a rental house to move into. I know I'm months away from birth but ahhckckdgggg it is frustrating me so badly that I do not have my own space. I'm sure within a few weeks we will be moved into a house but I am going crazy waiting for that to happen.
I've been walking in-law's dog every day, for longer each day. And doing squats and planks. I don't have a car right now so I'm unable to run any errands or go to visit friends, so I'm going stir-crazy since I can't be nesting either. Exercising helps.