Join Date: Sep 2006
Location: Body in Jax FL, Heart in Istanbul
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Never thought I'd be here, yet here I am. DH and I have been TTC for at least six months, but haven't used any form of BC since AF returned after DS, and that was almost a year ago. I always considered myself a "Fertile Myrtle." DD was a surprise, DS came the month after we started trying, so I'm really disappointed that #3 hasn't come about yet. I was trying to be very nonchalant about the whole thing and say "We'll just take it as it comes." But that's easy to do when you expect it to come quickly! I'm ready. I'm ready now. And every month is a disappointment.
DS is still breastfeeding, but we've managed to nightwean him in the hopes that it will increase our odds (and let us all get more sleep). I've used the OPKs, so I know that I'm ovulating. I don't drink, smoke, or play cards. My diet is pretty awesome, if I do say so myself. Lots of whole foods, lots of nuts (gotta get that zinc!), good proteins. I take my prenatals like a good girl.
We even took time last week to check into the Ramada down the street for an afternoon, just so that we could have some couple time and DTD without interference from teens, toddlers, or mothers (MIL lives with us). It was just about the right time, too. I really thought that something would stick this month. I was so cautiously excited and when my face started breaking out (ugh!), I thought this could be it, and even had a faint pos on HPT on Monday, but yesterday was a BFN. I know it's early and there's still a chance, but I don't feel in my heart that it stuck.
So yesterday, I finally registered with Fertility Friend and went out and bought a basal thermometer at Target. I entered all the info I could think of for this cycle (CD22 now) and charted my first temp this morning. I suppose I should find a copy of TCOYF and actually read it. It's just so bizarre, going from being so terrifed that I *would* get pregnant (too soon after DS) to now being terrified that I *won't.* I suppose I should be grateful that I have two beautiful, healthy children and be accepting that maybe a third isn't in life's plan for me, but I don't wanna. I wannanother baby. Wah.