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#181 of 391 Old 05-06-2010, 04:21 PM
 
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msgoodbuns, hoping your mother continues her recovery. No cancer in the nodes is great news. I believe wholeheartedly in those gut instincts ... hoping whatever direction you choose brings peace.

carfreemama, sometimes it happens when you least expect it. Fingers crossed!

WaturMama, glad you have found a wonderful MW! That is my number one worry about getting (and staying) pg.

LitMama, here is what I am taking:

prenatal
CoQ10 twice a day
extra folic acid
extra zinc
royal jelly & bee pollen
fish oil
d3
ETA: adding maca into the rotation too

Before O:
evening primrose oil 3X/day
red raspberry leaf

After O:
progesterone
baby aspirin

I would also take extra B6 but it seems to delay my O a bit.

I went to the acupuncturist yesterday and she seemed pretty positive. I was surprised she didn't suggest any TCM supplements.

Speaking of delayed O, today is CD11 and I don't seem to be doing any gearing up for O. Grrrr. My CBFM sticks are showing a blazing estrogen line - hoping the soy will work out of my system soon or I am going to O late again which is a pattern that doesn't thrill me.

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Wow, thank you all for the insight about your supplements! It's very interesting to see what everyone's taking and what difference and areas of overlap there are. I'm still just on prenatals, extra folic, and fish oil myself now feel inspired to do some more research based on your regimens.

msgoodbuns, good to hear from you! What a lot you've had going on, phew! I'm sorry to hear about your mother's cancer but so happy to hear that there's good news, too, around that. I'm wishing you peace and clarity around the whole ttc decision-making journey.

noordinaryspider, thank you for the heads-up on progesterone! Yikes! I'm on a low does (100 mg 1x per day) but it still worries me that I got so little info. I'll have to give them some feedback on that scary oversight.

AFM, I'm 9dpo and waiting until at least 11dpo to test (like WaturMama, I want to know if I have a chemical). I feel much more laid back this time. I had cramping at 6, 7 and 8dpo, along with metalmouth, nausea and diarrhea. Oh, and critical I-must-lie-down-now fatigue! Cramping and digestive issues are gone now, replaced by intermittent dull achey uterine pains (worsened by activity and lifting anything) and a heavy feeling inside, with a sensation of having a foreign object inside. My temp dipped around 7dpo and is rising again. Trying not to get my hopes up too much!

Happy Mother's Day and Mothers-to-be-Day to all of you!

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Litmama, that sounds promising!!! for you.

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Thank you Jenjersnap for taking the time to post all that info. I have a hard enough time remembering my folic acid and my multivitamin! Also, been doing b6 hoping to lengthen my LP.

Litmamma - good luck on your Mother's day testing!

AFM - 9 DPO and crampy. Feel like AF is knocking on the door. And she probably is as my LP has been so short lately. Actually, I am glad I made it to 9 days.

The good news is that the chicks I bought last winter have started to lay eggs! I imagine those free range eggies have to have some good stuff in them. But, DH likes chickens - but he does not like eggs. So, luckily my cholesterol is not a problem as I will be eating lots of ommelettes!
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Yes, thank you Jenjersnap and all the other mamas who shared their lists. I'll compile them for the group in case that's helpful.

nymomma, sorry that you suspect AF is on her way, bummer. Although could crampy mean implantation? That's very cool that you have chickens. Although we live in an urban area, many folks in our circle keep chicken in their teeny backyards. We get our freerange eggs from a CSA and not only are they healthier, they are more beautiful and way more delicious! Yay for fresh eggs!

AFM... did my 11dpo test today and BFN. Around the same time, I watched the trailer for the new movie, Babies, which made me cry! So much for my laid-back attitude. Maybe waiting longer to test would be better for my mental health.

Babies: http://www.filminfocus.com/focusfeatures/film/babies/

Ah, and in case this is helpful to anyone... I asked my TCM practitioner what she thought about activity during the 2ww. She recommended doing whatever relieves stress (sex, exercise, etc.) as long as it's less vigorous and less frequent than usual.

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LitMama. Those symptoms sounded so promising. Are you still having them? I'm not totally giving up hope for you this cycle. As I've said before, "It aint over 'til the Flo lady bleeds on your parade."

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Thank you, WaturMama. You know, I'm not really having any symptoms anymore except for the sore boobs (which could be from the Endometrin) and the dull achey uterine pains and heaviness. Which could be an ovarian cyst! No metalmouth, no tingly boobs, etc. So I'm just not feelin' the love right now. But you're right -- it aint over til it's over and AF comes and unpacks her bags. (Or as DH says, until the painters have arrived). We'll see what Wednesday 5/13 brings!

I hope you have a lovely mama's day tomorrow!

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I like your dh's terminology, LitMama.

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Happy Mother's Day all you wonderful Mamas of babes that are here and babes that are calling you. Thank you all so much for being here.

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Happy Mother's Day and Future Mother's Day everyone!!

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Happy mother's day to you all too!!!

Litmama, i hope it turns out toe be a bfp for you, especially with those symptoms you described.

Im taking progesterone, so any symptoms i have are because of that. Except for one-that tightness in the ovary feeling. You mentioned for you it may be an ovarian cyst. In my case, i have never gotten this persistent tightness feeling unless i was pregnant. I remember it distinctly each time. Last month i had it too, but got my period on 13dpo and only got to do one test on 12dpo. Perhaps is was a chemical, perhaps not.

This month im getting it again. The feeling comes and goes. Sometimes its completely gone, and im like...ok not pregnant. Then it comes back again with avengeance.

IN any case, the tww is still so early, that the symptoms only tell us so much.

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ps. i'm taking 'ultra prenatal' prenatal vitamins with 50mg of vitb12
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Happy Mother's Day!! I went to Mass this morning wearing this silly necklace that my son made me - It was all these different colored plastic beads - but he was so proud of it. We have a most awesome violinist at our church and he played this song - and I started crying. It was my father's favorite hymn. (My dad passed away 10 years ago.) I was thinking how I lost two little ones since last Mother's day and how much I missed my Dad. I was this silly lady with a very loud colorful plastic necklace sitting there crying.
Is that not pathetic?

But, here I am 10 dpo - which is a very long LP for me since I started charting 5 months ago. Temps still up but they usually stay up until AF shows her face. They don't have time to drop is my theory since my LP is so short. Tested BFN this am with an internet cheapie. Still cramping and have a headache. Feel as if AF will be here any minute......
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nymomma. You don't sound pathetic to me. You sound like you are full of love and have an open heart. I'll be wearing a necklace of different colored plastic hearts out to dinner tonight.

for you contactmaya. I get that tight achy ovary feeling too on the left side usually, occassionally on the right. The fertility specialist I saw a few months ago said I feel it on the left more because the way the intestines are arranged make things literally tighter there. I feel it at ovulation and in the luteal phase, but have felt it more often and stronger when pg.

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Hello all. I've been lurking for a few months now. I wanted to share something my dear partner gave me for Mother's Day (I have one child by my ex-spouse who lives with us). He made me a very sweet card that said "You are a flower that blooms every day." When I read it, I thought: "A 42-year-old flower? That's ridiculous!" and it actually almost made me sad. We have been trying to get pregnant for about 4 months.

However, I have also been reading a lot about how your mental attitude can affect fertility (Julia Indichova & a book on hypnosis) and my TCM practitioner also often tells me to relax and stay open. I'm also a creative person, and I have been thinking a lot about how my perceptions and assumptions about aging have been affecting my ability to create in other parts of my life. (And I realize that I have developed a bit of a block about this, as in "I am too old to make anything new or interesting anymore. Creativity is for people in their 20s.")

So I decided to find a way to think about this flower thing differently. I'm a gardener, and when I asked myself "What continues to flower and bear fruit when it's 'older'?" and realized the answer was Apple Trees! (Or other fruit or nut trees, but I'll just stick with apples now.) Apple trees can live to 100, and today I found a great narrative about how to make an "ancient" apple tree come back into fruit. There's a funny bit that somehow reminds me of those Zen stories when the master whacks the student with a stick when she starts getting too literal.

"Whacking: Old orchardists practice this for fun. After pruning, painting and other repair work in the early spring, take a shovel handle and gently thump all around the tree trunk. It wakes up the tree, and it does seem to respond. You can even chant 'I want apples' as you're doing it. The whacking loosens extraneous bark and gets the juices flowing, they say."

http://www.thefreelibrary.com/Restor......-a021040367

Now I know none of us is old and gnarled! But I really do think there's something to the idea that assuming we are "too old" or that we have to by definition make heroic, high-tech efforts to get pregnant can actually make it more difficult to do so. (And I love that even trees can fall asleep to their own reproductive potential...)

I am sure this has been discussed on this forum before, but. Our culture sends out such negative messages about "older" mothers and the possibility of getting pregnant after 40 that it's hard not internalize them. I think it's very similar to the way we're told that we can't give birth without expert high-tech intervention or that we can't care for our babies without a lot of expert rules and schedules. The whole spectrum of conception, pregnancy, birth and baby care has somehow been defined and controlled by people with very narrow ideas of what is possible for ANY of these things.

So from now on, dang it, I'm an gorgeous middle-aged apple tree, in full bloom! I don't even need any whacking! (Well, maybe just a little...) And I wish the same for all of you. May we all "wake up," in whatever way works best for us, and bear fruit.
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Happy Mother's Day, all. I feel really touched by everyone's posts this evening and moved to write back.

Maya, your feeling of ovaries tightening sounds similar to what I'm feeling (a dull achey throbbing and tightening feeling in the lower left side). And to be perfectly honest, I do associate it strongly with pregnancy in my case as well. (I was once very prone to luteal cysts, so that occurs to me, but I haven't really had them in years). I think I'm just being protective of myself in trying to find other explanations and not get my hopes up. It's exciting to hear you're feeling it this month! I have my fingers crossed for you!

nymomma, I love your story of the plastic necklace. It's a beautiful outward expression of your love for your child. It made me want to race to my jewelry box and find a pair of crazy-looking bead earrings DD made for me and put them on.

fuller2, welcome! Your post was so thought-provoking! Thanks for sharing those ideas with us. I love what your partner wrote to you and how it elicited this thought process for you, and I love the story of the apple tree. I too am a creative person, and have seen a decline in my creative practices over the past few years. I know it contributes to feelings of being a gnarled old apple tree (not helped by all the negative messages we receive about aging and fertility)! Making art and making babies both make me feel radiantly alive. These impulses -- to learn, to create, to give birth, to nurture, to have a practice (whether it's parenting or artmaking or gardening or yoga), to bring our whole selves to that practice -- these things are all so intimately linked. Your post and thinking about this have inspired me to want to begin a creative practice again -- it would certainly make me happy, and it might even help my fertility!

A creative friend of mine who has been down the high-tech ART path (and decided against IVF in favor of just waiting and listening) recently had this message tattooed on her wrist: "Let Go". There are a lot of ways to read that. I myself would like to let go of the negative messages and this absurd idea that I'm somehow beyond fertility and creativity, and remain open, listen, and let the practices flow again however they do. And that is why I'm done testing this month!

Wishing you all soulful fertility/creativity in whatever form that takes!

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Thank you, fuller2. I really needed to hear that reflection on aging. I am also 42 and this is just our second month TTC. I have never felt bad about my age and have openly defied anyone else to...until now. I have begun going gleefully grey, do not wear makeup and hold outrageous parties for each birthday. Each decade I try to do something I couldn't do the decade before. For my 30th, for example, I trained for a half-marathon.

And then I read the stats on becoming pregnant in my 40s and I felt old for the first time. I was angry at my age and the fact that I am a "late bloomer" in so many ways. I didn't take advantage of school when I could, I didn't really challenge myself with a career, that sort of thing. So it's beeen getting to me. Now I see that this is my big challenge, to embrace my choices and my stage in life.

I do have a beautiful 6 year old daughter and I am making it a conscious practice to be ever-more thankful and grateful for her. When AF comes, I allow myself grief; but then I consciously go and seek her out and ask her if she wants to play. She always says yes. And I express gratitude to DH for struggling with his own issues to arrive at a place where he is lovingly willing to try for another child, even though that isn't his dream. It keeps the resentment away that he wasn't ready sooner, when I might have been "more fertile."

AFM, AF is playing tricks. I am at day 27 and no sign of her. My cycles are usually 21-24 days long. I have always had very sore, tender breasts for as long as 2 weeks beforehand, but this cycle they started even earlier and are getting even heavier and more sore. Usually, the pain and swelling subside at least a day or 2 before she arrives. However, I have occasionally had cycles this long, so it's probably a coincidence. And I do feel that heaviness in my vagina that always signals AF. But as of this writing, I am still in the game! Statistically impossible though, right?
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Carfreemama,

I do that too when AF arrives and I'm feeling down about it! Spending time with my daughter always gives me perspective and brings me back into joy. It sounds like have found wonderful ways to process a lot of difficult things with grace and perspective.

I'm wishing you luck with your possibly-ambiguous but definitely-intriguing symptoms and longer cycle this month!!

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Hi Ladies!! I haven't posted in quite a while here since I'm still trying to process that I've now been pregnant four times in my forties with only one ds I'm frustrated that so many women around me at work/family are pregnant. It just hurts so badly and I'm always blaming myself for the m/c's even though I know there's nothing I could have done to prevent them. I'm scheduling an appt with a fertility specialist and I guess we'll begin that route. So any advice for a 45-yr-old, wanna be mom #2, starting fertility treatment is greatly appreciated

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lovbeingamommy, I think this is a great place for you to be. Many of us have had that same experience with recurrent m/c's and have wisdom and support to share about fertility treatments. I know far less than others here, as I just started acupuncture in December and seeing a reproductive endocrinologist (RE) in March. But I'm happy to answer any questions I can! It sounds like you're starting with the RE... have you also considered Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM) or acupuncture? It has helped many of us here, myself included. I hope you can feel the warmth and support here!

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Well, I now feel like I am officially (embarrassingly) dominating the board and was going to step back and let others talk for a while.

But, then I had some news to share! This morning at 14dpo with FMU, I had a veeeerrrry faint BFP. This evening I repeated the test at 5pm and had a still very faint but darker and more visible BFP.

I'm not ready to get excited yet because I've been down this road so many times in the past several months, and it's always been a chemical or early m/c. But! At least it means (I think) that we conceived. And there's always a chance this could be the golden egg.

If it's still positive tomorrow morning when AF is due, I will start crossing my fingers and toes and doing rain dances!

Okay, now I'm really done talking! Thanks for listening.

Update: and this morning at 15dpo, I have two BFNs (different brands, one pink, one blue). No AF, but I'm realizing my progesterone supps could lengthen my LP, so who knows how long the limbo will last?

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About aging and creativity: I have always considered myself a creative person, but the infinite procrastinator. I am a ‘writer’ (who doesn’t write, but will…and have)

I don’t write now, because I can barely get a minute of focus time to write a post let alone anything more substantial. All of my creativity goes into my children right now.

I don’t feel that im less creative because of my age, if anything, its one of those things im going to do when my kids are older…plant my own garden, write more, start a choir(am enjoying singing with my kids now) and so on and so forth. My 50’s should be fun. Maybe ill dye my hair and get botox, and pretend im 43.

I sort of cant even wait for my menopause, because there will be so much I can do!

But right now, I am cherishing my fertility (if there is any of it left that is) Im holding onto it like a gem, in the cup of my hand, cherishing every detail of my cycle, like it’s the last. I started charting when my pp fertiliy returned, partly because I just wanted to see what my body was doing. I was ambivalent about ttc’ing.

Now Im gung ho!

I mean, at 43, I have to start thinking about menopause and aging. And im ok with it. For me, it’s a matter of taking care of our health, and aiming for longevity.


As for those statisitcs about women in their 40’s and fertility drop etc etc. Ok, but I had that at 37, and 40, and defied the statistics both times. I figured third time around, I wouldn’t have a chance, but now I am here. Maybe I do have a chance. I don’t feel old at all. I feel like its cool to be 43, and I tell anyone who wants to know.

I had my children, and that’s the only thing in my mind that is age dependent. (having them naturally that is). The sky is the limit for the rest.

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Litmama, im so excited for you! Why a positive followed by a negative??? Lets hope that positive comes back.

Right with you on the limbo land thing. Im taking progesterone too, but got af last month despite being on it.

Im taking 200mg/day, i want to take less next month if i need to.

Im on day11, nothing yet. (had a line yesterday if i held it up a certain angle, but its not there today...

Lovebeingamama Im sure you will find plenty of information here. I think i know you from the ec board. :-)
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BFP.

I can't believe I just wrote that. I'll test again in the morning, just to be sure. But the line was strong and I was with a friend, who confirmed it!
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Thanks, kbhlmh.

I still feel uneasy about this, like I'm about to get my period any minute. There's this thing I can only describe as "lead vagina," a pressure in my vulva that ALWAYS signals my period is coming within hours. And I have that tonight. I wouldn't be at all surprised to wake up and find AF has arrived after all. But the results of the test seemed convincing enough. According to MY normal, I'm about 4-5 days late; but according to a 28-day cycle, it's just one. We'll see.
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Congrats, carfreemama!!!!! Yay!!!!! I'm hoping the "lead vagina" (love that!) signals something different this month. Fingers crossed for a sticky one!!!!

Maya, I think the negative following a positive means either, 1) my first tests were wrong (or evap lines), or 2) I had a chemical pg. We'll see! I donated some blood today for a beta HCG.

Go, carfreemama! Keep us posted!

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carfreemama!! I know that "lead vagina" feeling; I've had it off and on since I got pregnant - 12 weeks tomorrow, and it's still there from time to time. I think it's from increased blood flow to the vulva - at least for me - so could signal pregnancy as well as imminent AF. I'll be for a for you!

And you, too, Litmama.

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Litmama, im so excited for you! Why a positive followed by a negative??? Lets hope that positive comes back.
Maybe dilute urine?? That's what I'm hoping for

AFM, we got to hear the heartbeat again today. A strong and steady 160+, which means I'm now hopeful for a girl

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yay to a convincing test, carfreemama!! Sending sticky bean vibes your way

for you Litmama! I hope that line comes back (and soon).

for you, too contactmaya

So nice to see you Karen1968 about that heartbeat!!

fuller2. I loved your apple tree image. I also think of our hydrangea bush, which my neighbors say has been here at our rental house for decades. It busts out with so many big colorful blossoms each June that it weighs down its own self. Fuller2, would like me to add you to our hopefuls list?

lovingbeingamommy. The advice that comes to my mind and heart for you is to keep following you mama intuition and to know that we definitely have mamas that have been on this list that are very pg now and busy with their babes from fertility treatments. And I can think of one (and my brain is bugging me that there might be two) that got pg when they were about to start.

AFM, I am 6w4d pregnant. I have an u/s scheduled for Friday--hoping to see a heartbeat. I am anxious about it, trying to find the calm, trusting place, often succeeding. Plenty of pg symptoms going on--I just hope that little proto baby has what it needs to make a healthy body for a happy life.

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Litmama, any updates on your tests?

I tested again (3 a.m. our time, I can't sleep) and got a very faint positive. If this had been my first test, I would seriously be questioning if it's positive at all. No AF. Going to the drugstore today to ask about the most accurate, unambiguous test they have. The ones I'm using are a friend's and they're cheap, urine dipstick tests (the pink ones, though). I'm finding the results hard to determine, probably because the test strip is so small. So I feel in limbo, too.

I'm also TERRIFIED. I hope someone can tell me it's normal to hope and pray for a baby and then just be so scared when it looks like it's happening. I start thinking things like "how will I bring my dd home for lunch in winter with a newborn," and "how will I take her to gymnastics?" I know these sound like silly worries, but the reality that I may have a newborn in 9 months and that dd will no longer be an only is really sinking in. What if I lose my special relationship with her? I want to be excited, but I didn't think this would happen so soon and I didn't expect to feel this ambivalence now!

I feel so selfish and ungrateful posting this here, but I'm not sure where else to talk about it. Can anyone tell me if there are other posts about this kind of thing, or maybe if they know someone who's BTDT? I think with a little reassurance, I can get past this; because I really do want this potential baby.

And WaturMama, congratulations! I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you for Friday. Here's hoping for that heartbeat!
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carfree - Those feelings are normal and don't worry... you'll be just fine with both kids!

Karen - Glad to hear that everything is going well with your pregnancy!!

Waturmama - Best of luck for you tomorrow!!

LitMama - When will you get your beta results back? FX for you!

lovebeing - My advice for TTC at your age is to be aggressive and don't wait months between treatments. Good luck!

Greeting to everyone I missed!

AFM, I was not responding to the meds so we increased my dosage and I go back Monday so a final recheck. If still no response then we cancel. FX that I have some nice follies growing by then!

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