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I just can't look. When I do, I occasionally click on threads that are bad for me.Originally Posted by Sweet.Bee
miriam, nice titles.I don't even load the TTC page anymore. I just reload this thread. It is too hard to see the "I was on birth control and used a condom and just got a BFP!" or "we were going to start trying next month, but we don't need to because I'm pregnant!" Raaeeow! (That was my attempt at an angry cat noise.We need a cat with claws out smilie.)
Oh, rcr - I am so sorry to read that IVF didn't work. That plain sucks. BIG hugs to you. And congratulations on finding ways to deal. (That's what I need to do...)Originally Posted by rcr !
Everybody else - I am not keeping up with this thread as much as I used to, but I am always thinking about you and hoping for little miracles for each one of you. I am trying to put some distance between myself and obsessing over TTC. I also came across a thread from the main board about creating a treasure map for the new zodiac year starting in april, and joined them (under spirituality, if you are interested), and part of the process is cleaning and decluttering at the end of the old zodiac year (I am new, but this is my understanding). Part of my decluttering process is to try to spend a little less time obsessing about ttc and online (I even deactivated my FB account temporarily), in addition to decluttering my house and life in general (so, you do it mentally as well as physically getting rid of crap you don't need). I am super-excited about it.
I am on CD5. AF is lasting really long and is really heavy, I suppose that is because the IVF drugs made my lining super-cozy for the embryo. I decided to take soy this cycle, on CD3, just before I went to bed, in hopes of catching a egg naturally before we dive into another IVF cycle in a few months.
hugs to all of you. :hug
Thanks for the new thread, MbA! I laughed at the Harbingers of Uterine DOOOOOM option.Originally Posted by miriam_bat_avraham
Okay, I toyed with some funny thread titles a-la The One, but I have a bit of a twisted sense of humor and didn't know if it was too much/if I would have been taking too many liberties with the thread, since it can get serious sometimes. But here were the ideas I considered:
Bitter Sushi Ladies-- Not Spayed, Just Delayed!
Bitter Sushi Ladies-- Enough Wait, Please; Bring on the Babies!
Bitter Sushi Ladies-- Waitin', Frustratin' and Conversatin'
Bitter Sushi Ladies-- HARBINGERS OF UTERINE DOOOOOOM
I'm terrible. I know. You may all have one free shot at me while my back is turned. lol!
monkey, so sorry you can't get to your grandfather.Originally Posted by monkeyscience
MBA - I'm actually 27 now... I forgot to change that in my last update. And feel free to call the thread whatever you like!
I got my Provera today, so I can start that tonight. I also got the news that my grandfather is in the ICU, very possibly dying. From what little info I've gotten, it sounds like he died and was resuscitated today, or something like that. He's 2000 miles away, and I can't really afford to just fly out there and be with him and the family, but I wish I could.
So glad your hubby got the CPAP! I hope this is a great first step for you guys. And I totally know what you mean about staying awake at night--my DH snorts and chokes and has a hideous death-rattle snore, then stops breathing until I smack him back to life. He is refusing a sleep study at this point.Originally Posted by objet_trouve
Just have to talk about this, cause I'm super excited.
Husband got his CPAP machine yesterdayThe doctor thinks this will help him in many areas in his life, including our TTC efforts, by way of less stress from not sleeping messing with his body, improvement (or elimination, depending on whether this caused or aggravated his condition) of psychological issues which may have damaged his sex drive, and less just being too tired to have sex. He scored 150 on the apnea hypopnea scale, doctor says over 30 is severe, and in the past nine months working at this clinic he'd only seen two people with higher scores (and I believe he also said both of those cases were obesity related, which my husband is not, has to do with how the back of his mouth is shaped). Doctor said regarding the oxygen he was getting, it's like he's been sleeping at the top of Mount Everest every night.
It sounds stupid, but I teared up a little at the doctor's office today going over the results. When we were first dating, he stayed over at my place sometimes, and right away I noticed the painful sounding snoring (could hear it two rooms away, and my room had concrete walls, being a converted garage), the choking, the stopping breathing bit (he stops breathing every 20 seconds) and weirdest of all, the fact that he often slept with his head raised about 2 inches off his pillow. His ex used to poke him when he snored, so he started sleeping like that because he didn't snore when he lifted his head up. I started shaking him and waking him up so he could change to laying on his side so he couldn't do it, try to keep his neck from getting hurt. This could be responsible for a LOT of the problems he's had in life, maybe even some issues we've encountered in our marriage, the way he deals with conflict (napping, getting too down to deal with it), and certainly our TTC attempts. I teared up because this is a ton of pain for him and a lot of insomnia for me (I sit up at night worrying about him and wind up sleeping in the day time when he's at school) that may go away now. It may be almost over.
It's a step closer to getting to where we need to be to get pregnant, and if nothing else it means a higher quality of life for us both.
LTB:Originally Posted by LessTraveledBy
monkey.... I used to have acupuncture for my neck problems and really loved it. Those needles are not needles as we are used to thinking of them, you know... it is just not the same thing. Hope you will feel wonderful when you get to go!
Wonderful af, would not know it was here from how my body feels. But now, of course, it just leaves me to wonder if it is a good or a bad sign, as I used to have terribly painful periods before and after dd was conceived.
MBA.. Yeah, please call this thread whatever you would like. Right now my feelings are that this is the thread for those who cannot bare to look at the thread titles in the other forums... as if one could miss them when coming here.
I am anxious today... have been for some days. I think I might be a bit on the hyper side from too much thyroid medication or something. Who knows. I am feeling pretty depressed, too, which also goes with my hypo, whether I am under or over medicated. Nothing interests me today. I hate you, hypothyroidism and what you have done to my life. (And I love you, Armour and Thyroid, for having given my life back, even if balancing the meds is sometimnes very hard.)
Sweet.Bee:Originally Posted by Sweet.Bee
Smiles, yeah, our little one just turned 22 months. He's really amazing me with how much he's learning! I'm very proud of him.He is also the most social child I have ever seen, going up to people to flirt, smile, play, etc. I really want to give him a sibling and feel sad that it's taking so long.
LessTraveledBy, I'm sorry all your friends have so many children. I think that TTC is hard enough, but what really hurts are the constant reminders: pregnant women everywhere, seeing all the people with many young ones close in age, etc. I am constantly encountering women with a child my son's age who are pregnant or have a 2nd baby already or even pregnant with a 3rd already! And it's only getting worse as he gets older.
Which reminds me, crazy story of the week. We were talking a walk and encountered a woman with a daughter a couple weeks younger than my son. Of course she was heavily pregnant again.But that's not the best part. As I said, my son is very social, so he ran to the woman to smile at her. He ran right past me, and then she joked, "No, that's your mother. You know the difference because she's the one who is not pregnant." Um, ok. Thanks. I know she didn't mean anything by it; she just didn't think. Like most fertile people. Still, I was tempted to tell her actually we've been trying for like a year. Sigh.
miriam, nice titles.I don't even load the TTC page anymore. I just reload this thread. It is too hard to see the "I was on birth control and used a condom and just got a BFP!" or "we were going to start trying next month, but we don't need to because I'm pregnant!" Raaeeow! (That was my attempt at an angry cat noise.We need a cat with claws out smilie.)
monkey,regarding your grandfather.
lilmom, I'll keep you company at the waiting forever to ovulate station.
objet, I hope your husband is sleeping better soon.
kparker, when is the IUI? Are you close?
Sooo, still no period. Third day of spotting. My body likes to torture me. But I'm 14DPO (I think, but I couldn't temp, so this is based on OPKs and CM). I think I'll start bleeding today or tomorrow. And I'm annoyed with our insurance right now. We tried to add an option today (meaning we would be paying them more money), and they won't let us do it until the beginning of next year b/c "that's the rule". Stupid inflexible people. Grrr.
Kyamo: Hope your cyst is gone!
Smiles:Originally Posted by Smilesarefree
MBA - thanks for the new thread, I like the not spayed delayed!!!! I like your sense of humor and your positivity. I don't even know what the "one threads" mean, I just look for this thread and ignore pretty much everything else.
Monkey - Sorry about your grandfather
Sweetbee - dd will be 21 months next week and I know how you feel about wanting to give him a sibling.
Objet - Glad to hear you and dh got some help - being tired all of the time certainly can't help ttc, maybe your luck is about to change!
Kyamo - shrink cyst shrink!!!
Everyone else - Hi!!!
AFM - CD 45!!! I started to have what looks like stretchy ewcm last night so maybe I am going to O. I should really start charting, I have always been so regular that I never bothered.
Hi, rcr!Originally Posted by rcr
Thanks for the new thread, MBA. Love the names!
Everybody else - I am not keeping up with this thread as much as I used to, but I am always thinking about you and hoping for little miracles for each one of you. I am trying to put some distance between myself and obsessing over TTC. I also came across a thread from the main board about creating a treasure map for the new zodiac year starting in april, and joined them (under spirituality, if you are interested), and part of the process is cleaning and decluttering at the end of the old zodiac year (I am new, but this is my understanding). Part of my decluttering process is to try to spend a little less time obsessing about ttc and online (I even deactivated my FB account temporarily), in addition to decluttering my house and life in general (so, you do it mentally as well as physically getting rid of crap you don't need). I am super-excited about it.
I am on CD5. AF is lasting really long and is really heavy, I suppose that is because the IVF drugs made my lining super-cozy for the embryo. I decided to take soy this cycle, on CD3, just before I went to bed, in hopes of catching a egg naturally before we dive into another IVF cycle in a few months.
hugs to all of you. :hug
jenger, we cross-posted. I'm so sorry you got a bfn. Was this a monitored cycle? I don't know about getting back on with life--I am not doing very well at that. But we all understand something of what you are going through, and somehow, you will go on. It just takes some time.Originally Posted by jenger
Hi Ladies-
It's been a long, long while.
I have been mostly going to the infertility zone mostly for Sweet.Bee's reasons...
I just can't look. When I do, I occasionally click on threads that are bad for me.
But here's the thing. I need a little more support right now. The infertility one is slow.
I got a bfn this morning, 13dpo. I had hope, as I took clomid this round. I am dying, and not sure how to get back on with life.
Oh, rcr - I am so sorry to read that IVF didn't work. That plain sucks. BIG hugs to you. And congratulations on finding ways to deal. (That's what I need to do...)
I've never temped but I went out this afternoon and got me a thermometer, I'll start tomorrow. My husband thinks it's ridiculous that I'm going to take my temperature every morning. Do I have to do it before I get out of bed or can I do it as I get up? Would that mess it up? EWCM is increasing so I do think O is on it's way. I am out of opk's and I refuse to buy them at the drug store, it costs ~$50/box of 7 here!Originally Posted by Sweet.Bee
Kyamo, hoping your cyst went away!
Smiles, wow CD45. That's awful. Long cycles are so annoying. Have you ever temped? I ask because if you know what pre and post O temps are for you, you might be able to figure something out by starting tomorrow, even so late in a cycle. Also, have you taken an OPK today?
I'm having one of those days. First, there was the nonsense with our health insurance. Then some crazy guy starting shouting at me for crossing the street at the crosswalk b/c he was annoyed he had to stop his car to wait for us, as though our street in our small family-friendly town is a race track or something.And I'm on day 3 of spotting, which is like extended torture before the new cycle inevitably begins. When my son wakes up from his nap, I'm going to go into the city with him and try to cheer myself up by looking for a costume for him for Carnival.
Getting out of bed would affect your accuracy, you should stay laying down.Originally Posted by Smilesarefree
I've never temped but I went out this afternoon and got me a thermometer, I'll start tomorrow. My husband thinks it's ridiculous that I'm going to take my temperature every morning. Do I have to do it before I get out of bed or can I do it as I get up? Would that mess it up? EWCM is increasing so I do think O is on it's way. I am out of opk's and I refuse to buy them at the drug store, it costs ~$50/box of 7 here!
All you ladies that are feeling down and out, wish I could say something to make you feel better.