Whatever is happening, whether it is cleansing, strengthening flow or new life sparking awake within me, i am trying to meet it with peace and gratitude. This cycle is welcome in me.
Crossing fingers for everyone who is getting ready to test!
CLplus1 and Writeonyogamama News? Living a bit vicariously here as I am only 4 DPO and have quite some time before I can symptom spot and POAS myself. Well a little while at least...
Chourd OMG you are so sweet! Thank you and same to you. I SO appreciate all your encouragement and positive energy. Sorry to hear you and DH are not feeling so well. I have a feeling this is your month, though!! Sending out lots of to add to your own energy work, mama!!
Zona and Crunchy Fx!!
Primaljoy for the BFN. It's still early!
AKK Hmmm, twins?! I know nothing about dream interpretation but that's some dream!
Dahlia Mama!! How are you? Have you had your first OB appointment? You've been in my thoughts. You're a little over 6 weeks? I recall my worst morning sickness was that 6th week, and then it vanished. Hoping you are enjoying a boring, uneventful first trimester and have been able to relax and take good care of yourself. I'd like to report I was able to pull off much better BD timing this month; it was epic for my house FF gives me a high probability of conception (4 out of 5 days in my fertile window) and I am feeling really optimistic. Only a little over a week to go before I'll know!!
I am off to snowshoe with DD. I doubt we'll last long, it is SO cold here today around zero with wind chill well below. We'll bundle up and get a good work out in before collapsing by the fire with cocoa.
Sending you all lots of
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hi there. TTC#4, 1st post partum cycle (no jokes...i havent had AF since march 2010) im 7dpo according to FF, so im gonna go with it. this cycle has been so wacko i cant even describe it.
anywho, im waiting on my tests to come in the mail this week. hopefully i can hold out that long.
no symptoms to report, other than being really tired last night. i normally dont go to bed til after midnight. i have toddler twins and am a full time college student so homework waits til they go to bed...otherwise they 'help' ;)
good luck everyone
I am in my tww right now. I am 8 dpo and so far I do not have have a lot of symptoms. So I kinda don't have much hope for this cycle. The only thing I am feeling is I am constantly going to the bathroom to go pee. It started at 4dpo and it hasn't stopped. But other than that..I got nothing! No CM discharge, no tender breasts, no cramps...nothing. I got my positive ovulation on Feb 7,8 and 9. So it looks like I ovulated on the 10th cause on Feb 11 I no longer got a positive. I had sex with my DH on feb 6,7 and 9. What do you ladies think? You think I have a chance with those dates?
Wishing everyone baby dust!!!!!
Sparkle- I've been thinking of you too!! Good job on your epic BDing this month lol! I'm at 7 weeks tomorrow, and my first OB appt is on thursday. I'm not sure if they'll order a sonogram or not :/ I reallly hope they do. I have such high hopes for you this cycle!! Can't wait to see your bfp! :)
Writeonyogamama Seeing that lonely line is just rotten, isn't it? I know I feel so deflated. It's not over until AF shows!! Could still be too early. I SO hear you on frustration and surprise. I was also lucky to get pregnant the very first cycle we were trying with DD. I assumed with #2 it would be similarly easy. The past 9 months have adjusted my perspective big time. This is our 10th cycle TTC #2. I am still very hopeful and optimistic. It is ever so frustrating when we feel ready and things don't happen right away. Having patience is exceedingly difficult. But just as becoming a mama pushed me into discomfort with not being able to do it all and having to let go of so much, so too has my journey TTC #2 taught me that I must honor and be respectful of my body and be more flexible. That, and the Universe has an amazing sense of humor. Just when I think I have things figured out, when I think I know what to expect with my body, my life, etc., the Universe throws me a curveball. Good luck and Fx!!
Marquess Hope your tests arrive quickly and that you get some very good news this week.
LisaB!! I think you have a good chance with your dates. I had absolutely NO discernable signs or symptoms with my DD until 6 weeks, when I experience about 10 days of morning sickness. I recall my breasts being a little tender the morning I tested and got my BFP, which was the day after AF was due, but nothing hugely noticeable. And absolutely nada before. I think no symptoms is often a great symptom!! Good luck!!
Me, just sipping my tea and enjoying my glorious Winter Break week!!
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PrimalJoy, you are so right.
And I was so sure, but now I am feeling so non-pg it's not funny. The only thing still different is my nipples are still darker and larger, but I swear they are less so than yesterday.
I even feel better in my jeans now (the ones that were way too tight, are still in the closet...they are probably still too tight, but I don't feel like trying them on).
I went ahead and took a First Response today, BFN. AF is due in 3 days, and I figure, if it's a BFN with Early Response, this close to AF, it's a BFN, period.
The only thing that has me going, "wait and see, you could be surprised" is that a lot of women report a total disappearance of symptoms about this time, and I am not cramping, and I a whole week of cramps before AF each time for the past 3 cycles.
So I will wait and see and just go with the idea that I'm not pg, and can be surprised if there's a surprise, and have a few beers, if AF comes. Telling myself I am not pg, helps me right now, because living on a daily roller coaster of wondering and wanting confirmation, is crazy-making.
But I researched it, and the nipples darkening doesn't appear to be part of any PMS symtom. So if I'm not now, I really do think, I *was* but it wasn't meant to stick.
40ish raising 3 kids with the help of their loving father.
Sparkle, reading what you wrote helped.
And thanks for trying to keep everyone's spirits up.
Congrats to all the mamas who have gotten the BFP, and sticky vibes to you!
40ish raising 3 kids with the help of their loving father.
LisaB: Dh and I BDed 3 days and 1 day before O and I'm 9 weeks pregnant right now. So, I do think it's completely possible you could be. Much baby dust to you.
Me (34) (PCOS), DH (36) and DD1 (4) and DD2(1). We are going to go for a third. Now, will we succeed?
The emotional roller coaster has me at not believing I will get any BFP this cycle, now, and I am just trying not to think about it until and unless AF comes. Which should be in about 3 days, so however long those days seem, they will pass and the truth will be known, one way or the other. So right now, I am just going with the thought of "no, I guess if I did conceive, it didn't stick" because it's easier than tremulous hope, but BFN every time I test. Women who refuse to test, are wiser than I am!
If I start feeling pg, I will probably jump as much to conclusions based on that, as I am right now, based on not feeling it. But I have already promised myself that if AF comes, I am celebrating/commisserating with a few beers and a movie with DH. He has been such a sweetheart through all this, and has been on the emotional roller coaster right along with me. A woman couldn't ask for a better DH, and our kids have a wonderful father. I'm glad we have them, and him, and cherishing what I have, makes this all easier.
For ladies who are going through, or have gone through, extended TTC, or long-term IF, I UNDERSTAND. I went through a few YEARS of not even conceiving once, in a previous marriage. It turned out it was for the better, because having a child with him would have been a bad thing, but that didn't mitigate the pain, the bitterness, the longing. Baby showers and pregnancies around me were hard indeed, to bear...and I am blessed beyond my wildest imaginings, to have the children I now have, with the DH I now have, also.
So I can't complain, when my cup runs over with blessings.
I just got attached to the idea of being blessed once again, and won't know how to feel until I know what's going to happen.
Hugs to all!
40ish raising 3 kids with the help of their loving father.
Well, I took another test and it was a wee darker. Still only 13dpo, but I am indeed pregnant. I peed a ton yesterday, or maybe it was my imagination. And I think my boobs stopped being tender. I'm contacting a midwife today to see what I should be doing.
Wishing you a happy, healthy and uneventful 9 months!
Dahlia Yeah for 7 weeks!! Is the morning sickness diminishing? I will keep you in my thoughts, especially on Thursday. Can you request the ultrasound? That would be fantastic to see your little bean.
And I am glad what I said was helpful, Writeonyogamama and Crunchy. The TTC process has been a lesson in patience and humility for me. I am trying to navigate through and find some bit of balance/center/zen I am also so very grateful for the abundance in my life, I know I am blessed. I focus every day on what I aspire to be, more flexible and flowing. And I am hoping that work (and obviously the BDing) will bring me the new little one that I know is missing from our family.
Sending out much
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Sparkle - lol thank you! I agree with the humility and learning to accept that your body is not entirely under your control lol... Patience in this instance is the mother (haha) if all virtues! I'm hoping for this month too, or if not then the next... See flexible already lol 😜
Dahlia - yay on 7 weeks, wow has time gone fast! And devilish at 9 weeks, so many graduates that sparkle, akk, Katie and I (others too) have seen go through - its very heartening!
Happy BDing and baby dust all round, sticky vibes to those in the tww...
Afm - it's morning but still in bed, hoping to fell good enough later today or at least tomorrow to let the romance begin lol 😜😝😜😝
chuord, sorry to hear you're stuck in bed (and not because you're busy BDing!). Wishing you wellness and romance ;-)
I'll add my appreciation for all the talk about the apprehension we might have about growing our families and the talk about finding a greater respect for our bodies during this TTC journey; all sentiments I share too. If only the last week of the 2WW wasn't so difficult! I don't know what it is about it but I lose all my ability to remain zen and at peace with the process. After my loss last month I vowed that I would not obsess so much this month since we're really not in control of any of it, but that went out the window after I experienced textbook IB last night (~7DPO). It only lasted for one tissue wipe and no spotting today. Textbook! I'm also experiencing major fatigue. Early bedtime plus afternoon naps for the past two days - I'm usually a nightowl who runs on 6-7 hours of sleep! I won't bore you all with all the other possible symptoms (yay for bloating and lots of lotiony CM and sore nips) but I'm feeling very hopeful that we caught this egg (or eggs - yikes - I hope not!) and that it's a sticky little one.
remind me again how we arent supposed to use opk as hpt :(
shame on me i know. but i am a chronic early tester and i freely admit it. and its the halfway point so POASitis was rearing its ugly head. and i know there is no way a hpt would be positive, even if i was pg, so to satisfy the 'craving' i peed on an opk, like i have been for weeks LOL. around 4dpo they started to finally fade. 5dpo was lighter, 6dpo even more so. and i figured tonights would be the same or single lined. yeah, like i said, this month has been a majorly weird. imagine my suprise to barely get the strip out of the cup and the dam* thing was positive :/ freakin hormones are a nightmare. my CM is creamy and abundant. oh, and i am still spotting. the pic is blurry and overexposed, def doesnt do it justice but do you see the difference in the previous 2 days and tonight? all taken at 9pm, which is about the only time i get 5 seconds alone in the bathroom ;)
sadly, while digging thru the mound of opk, i found a FRER leftover from october. i hate them. they say im pregnant, even if im not. it makes me sad that i cant trust what is supposed to be the best test on the market. so maybe i will take it in the morning. lets see what my temp looks like.
Marquess A few months ago, during a particularly obsessive TWW, I'd used all my HPTs and used an OPK to feed my POAS addiction, just to see what would happen. I too got a positive result. I did not check again, got HPTs that day, but did hit google looking for confirmation that +OPK could mean pregnant. What I found is that OPKs will often be positive if pregnant (the LH strips will pick up Hcg) and if so the test line will be significantly darker than the control, a very clear positive. But they are far less sensitive than an actual HPT and if your HPTs are negative, you probably aren't. Your LH levels can vary throughout your cycle (and vary woman to woman) and many women can get what looks like a positive or approaching positive OPK when it is no where near Ovulation. Your tests look close to positive but the test line still looks a bit lighter than the control. Is that true IRL? Hormones can be very frustrating! That said, I SO hope you are pregnant!! Have you tested with your FRER? What about getting another brand today and holding your urine to check with concentrated (4-5 hours) SMU? Keeping Fx, Marquess!!
Jjh So good to hear from you!! Sounds like a great plan to focus on taking care of yourself It is so hard to make yourself a priority, and I found it became increasingly more difficult once I was a mama, but so vital for our own wellbeing and our ability to take care of our families. I do not have experience with the at home sperm analysis kits but have thought they sounded like a fantastic first step in checking out everything, and not too costly (I saw some on Amazon for around $40). I tried the First Response Fertility Tests for Women twice last fall to check out my own fertility. They measure FSH and can indicate diminishing fertility (both were reassuring and indicated no problems). I personally just preferred starting with what I could do in the privacy of my own home. Let us know if you do check out the SA. Big to you. I totally understand the sad and discouraged feelings. I wish I had answers for you!! I found having a plan and something to do has been really helpful for me last month and this current one. I am temping/charting, which gives me great information and confirms exactly when I O, and I did see my Ob/Gyn for a complete workup earlier in this cycle. Both things feel proactive and give me something to have some control over. And yes, I know a lot, truly many, women with PCOS who successfully conceived. I know two women quite well with PCOS who have even had unexpected pregnancies, thinking they wouldn't/couldn't get pregnant without assistance after successfully conceiving #1 with some interventions. One woman had a single oops and the other has had two, due to deliver baby #3 in May!
AKK Sounds very promising!! That is exactly what my IB was like with DD, but I didn't know what the heck it was then! I remember being so disappointed, thinking it was pre-AF spotting, but then realized it never progressed, just the one wipe, very light pink and watery. I had forgotten about it until after confirming pregnancy a week later when I started reading pregnancy and baby books and saw a mention of "Implantation Bleeding" Fx!!
Chourd Sending and as you are waiting to O. Fx that you catch that egg!
AFM Only 5 DPO. Trying not to symptom spot as well but having SO much creamy CM! Like crazy amounts. Not at all typical for me. And my breasts are super sore/tender, also not the usual here until just before AF. Been having lots of pregnancy and newborn dreams. Last night I had a dream about nursing my newborn and woke up with that tightness and let down feeling, so weird! It's been about 6 years since my DD weaned.
We're off to rollerblade, scooter and skate indoors with a bunch of friends later this morning. I hope everyone has a fantastic day!!
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so, dont jump on the congrats bandwagon, but yes i took the FRER this morning and yes, there was a faint pink line.
my history with FRER is jaded however, so i dont trust it. for me, there is almost always a line on FRER :( makes me incredibly sad. i would love to do the happy dance right now, but im not.
it doesnt photgraph well, but maybe you will see it too. but like i said, dont congratulate me yet. its still early and this is prob not accurate :(
my cheapies wont get here for a few more days so i am prob gonna go buy some $ tests to use in the mean time.
feeling discouraged a bit today w/ realizing as i dry/cream up today that i must have O'ed yesterday, on only cd11. this is a repeat of december's cycle: short follicular phase w/ a normal luteal phase. timing still is good--we dtd cd9, but w/ an immature egg.... anyone ever achieve pregnancy from Oing too early, like cd11? my 2yo nursling has been mucho nursing the last few nights... dh suggested i sleep on the couch.
I just checked fertility friend and O'd on CD 11 or 12 this last cycle and I got pg. So there's definitely hope. I've noticed been O'ing early for a while, even before TTC. Seems like barely a pause between AF and O. I don't know if it has anything to do with nursing, but I'm still nursing my 3 yr old.
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Well, AF arrived yesterday, so my feelings about not being pg were correct. This makes a 24 day cycle for me with O at CD11, which seems to be common for me. Anyone else with cycles that short? Any fertility issues with that? I can't quite remember if mine have always been that short, as I have had Mirena in for the last year (removed on November 21), and was pregnant before that.
I'm fine with not conceiving this cycle, but I'm not looking forward to restarting the whole process again next month. I'm just not a patient person! It probably will be better for DD to be a little bit older when we have another one (she is 17 months now), but I feel ready to be pregnant again!
To make the best of things, though, DH and I went out for dinner last night, and I enjoyed a really good martini and a glass of wine. Not getting pregnant last month has also made it so I can participate in a study with a local university hospital about fertility after 30. A little cash payment, a free ultrasound and HPTs (only 2 a month, though! ha!), and an opportunity to advance reproductive science. Maybe I was meant to help out! I went today and had my baseline bloodwork done for the study. So, maybe this will give me good TTC karma?
Good luck to everyone still in the wait. I'll be trying again next cycle (when I ovulate in ten whole days... geez!).
yeah. so i bought another FRER. against my better judgement. took it with SMU. same result. cheapie was clearly BFN. hate FRER. top one in the pic is FMU bottom is SMU. i took the covers off this time so you could actually see them. IRL they are pink but like i said, they dont photgraph well.
Primal- I have a fairly short-ish cycle as well (26 days) and I've been TTC for a year with no luck. BUT with you just having gotten rid of mirena I'm willing to bet that your body is still in an adjustment phase!
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